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[Jewels83]

I feel like I'm done. The weekends pass with me getting liqored up. I don't know what to do anymore.... There is so much to do around the house and it doesn't get done. I live by myself so I don't have responsibilities. I get it done when I can. Problem is, I don't have the energy to do it. My landlord bitches at we all of the time. Telling me I need to mow the lawn. When I considered moving here, it was my understanding that she was responsible for it. Plus, my water smells like shit, and she still hasn't done anything about it. I hate it here but can't afford to move. Alcoholic mind tells me to drink. As if that would make things better......I am so sick of this shit!!!!!!

[Mish]

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Jewels, don't give up...get up honey. PM me if you want. I'm here for you and want to offer whatever I can to help you.
:h Mish :h

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Hi Jewels,

Tough love time. Mow the grass. Are you on 50 acres? What else is taking your time? If your tired, have a mountain dew or some coffee. Getting off our asses makes us feel like we've done something positive, which leads to feeling good, which tells our booze loving brain that alcohol isn't the only thing that makes us feel good.

Anything we can do (cutting cable etc.) that gets us off the couch is good for us. Clean the house, do laundry etc. FEEL GOOD! That get's addictive too!

Or I may be an ass...

Stay strong!

[Guest]

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Jewels

When you get sober you can sort ANYTHING out, including the smelly water. Amazing what becomes possible - oh and I live alone, and managed to get myself straight.

[mama bear]

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Come on Jewels...I know this sounds mean, but you have been wallowing in self pity for too long....put down the booze, find some inner strenght, turn that hurt and anger into energy....and get off your butt and do something.....no man is worth this....and you are slowly killing yourself

[big mo]

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Jewels , Hi chum , Please dig deep and find some energy to do something, once you start the positive feelings will get you motivated, I used to feel the same , the alcohol makes you feel shit and tired, please even go for a walk or some work round the house and get your mood picked up . keep posting and let us know how its going :goodjob:

[Ember lola]

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Come on Jewels!

You do need to stop this cycle. Please don't have a drink. You know its going to make you feel like crap.

Thinking of you:h

ELxx

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Jewels, I hope you can see that your misery is not due to your land lord, or your grass, or your water. It's due to alcohol. This can only get better if you find a way to stop drinking. For people like us, the only thing that will happen if we keep on drinking is that things will progressively get worse. The consequences to life and health will get worse.

If whatever you are doing now to get sober isn't working, are you willing to try something different? I hope you are. You CAN do this.

I heard a speaker at an AA meeting today who is just like so many of us here. Smart. Over achiever. Funny. Alcoholic. For many years he denied it. At some point he started losing important things in his life. He lost his business, his friends, his house, and he finally "hit bottom" when his wife of 20 years left with his 4 children. He spoke of all the denial. The years of telling himself "I'm not an alcoholic. I'm just a Problem Drinker (whatever that is..). I can solve this problem on my own." As long as he stayed in that mode, it didn't work.

He couldn't stop for many years. But finally, something clicked and he has been AF since January.

We can do it too.

DG

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There is nothing more that I can add to all the great posts. Hang in there, IMO most everything gets easier when sober.

Take care of yourself,