Still trying

[Changeling]

After a month i'm still on the just starting out forum
I'm sitting here now after xx glasses of wine
I've got friends staying with me for 10 days - they are on holiday and want to drink....
it is the worst thing that could have happned for me.
I am right back where I started..
feeling so low, so depressed and yet - have sneaked to my study to find out whats happening here on this site -so perhaps there is some hope for me,

[Determinator]

Still trying

feel for you...that's a lousy situation, but not a problem.... a challenge. you CAN set a good example, and who couldn't respect that. they may rib you on the outside but on the inside they can only be in awe of your control. it's all hard. one way is hard and also leads to where you want to go. remember...we are thinking of you and not to make light of your situation but there are people in worse places....bittersweet I know. sometimes when I'm in condition red and just have to have a drink I'll slam a shot of vinegar...no kidding. it will definately make you shake your head and you'l make funny noises for a few seconds