I thought I was posting this here (OH Dear!):
SHAME is NOT a good feeling! (Stating the Obvious!)
I am SO ashamed of myself. I was invited to a big party that seems to be becoming an annual event. I not only was invited, but the host himself practically begged me to come.... and I didn't. Now, that doesn't sound like such a big deal - except there was a "mystery wedding".
This is a group of people I know from a high school I went to overseas.
People flew in from distances, and I was less than an hour away.
Anyway, so I'm thinking of going today. (Yes, the party lasts more than one day!) It's just that I missed the wedding that I was Invited to.... and I'm going to say it was due to a combination of weirdness on my part, laziness, OH, and yes... drinking. (I wouldn't say that to THEM, of course.)
Now, I didn't get drunk yesterday. I had a few... and could have gotten together to go... but then, once there? I didn't want to stay the night, although I could have (was invited to).
I'm sure none of this makes much sense to any of you.
So I woke up - almost Startled - at about 4 AM just now, realizing I'm a WUSS!! (Is that how you spell it? Do people still use that word? We need to revive it! What's the new kewl word for: COWARD?)
Wow.
But, you know, this wasn't all about drinking, etc. It, sadly, was about Insecurity.
And that is one of the many root causes for drinking.
(I wonder how many characters you can write on here? Hey, I could write a treatise right now!!)
OK, I think I'm going to take the hits & show up today. What's the worst that can happen? (Did I HAVE to ask that question?? lol)
I suppose the worst would be that 30 people (give or take) will think... WAIT!
This may be a GREAT thing, now that I think about it. If I go and people are so disgusted with me.. that they don't like me anymore.. then I know they aren't people that Love me UNCONDITIONALLY, by george (whoever he was).
OK, I'm getting somewhere now. (Should I post this rambling that makes no sense except to me?)
YES. I'll go today. Day late, dollah short. Better than never, eh?
Good night, all, and thanks for listening.
(I picture you sitting there... all ears!! LOL!!)
Bless you. Stay well. And do as I say... not as I DO!!!!
SHAME is NOT a good feeling! (Stating the Obvious!)
I am SO ashamed of myself. I was invited to a big party that seems to be becoming an annual event. I not only was invited, but the host himself practically begged me to come.... and I didn't. Now, that doesn't sound like such a big deal - except there was a "mystery wedding".
This is a group of people I know from a high school I went to overseas.
People flew in from distances, and I was less than an hour away.
Anyway, so I'm thinking of going today. (Yes, the party lasts more than one day!) It's just that I missed the wedding that I was Invited to.... and I'm going to say it was due to a combination of weirdness on my part, laziness, OH, and yes... drinking. (I wouldn't say that to THEM, of course.)
Now, I didn't get drunk yesterday. I had a few... and could have gotten together to go... but then, once there? I didn't want to stay the night, although I could have (was invited to).
I'm sure none of this makes much sense to any of you.
So I woke up - almost Startled - at about 4 AM just now, realizing I'm a WUSS!! (Is that how you spell it? Do people still use that word? We need to revive it! What's the new kewl word for: COWARD?)
Wow.
But, you know, this wasn't all about drinking, etc. It, sadly, was about Insecurity.
And that is one of the many root causes for drinking.
(I wonder how many characters you can write on here? Hey, I could write a treatise right now!!)
OK, I think I'm going to take the hits & show up today. What's the worst that can happen? (Did I HAVE to ask that question?? lol)
I suppose the worst would be that 30 people (give or take) will think... WAIT!
This may be a GREAT thing, now that I think about it. If I go and people are so disgusted with me.. that they don't like me anymore.. then I know they aren't people that Love me UNCONDITIONALLY, by george (whoever he was).
OK, I'm getting somewhere now. (Should I post this rambling that makes no sense except to me?)
YES. I'll go today. Day late, dollah short. Better than never, eh?
Good night, all, and thanks for listening.
(I picture you sitting there... all ears!! LOL!!)
Bless you. Stay well. And do as I say... not as I DO!!!!
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