Hi everyone!
I am back, after reading Allen Carr's Easy Way to Stop Drinking. OMG!!! It really resonated with me and I am now actually EXCITED about living life as a nondrinker. The way he described it as "the alcohol TRAP"... something that we innocently fell into before we knew what it was, and just getting stuck. It helps immensely for me to see myself in this light, rather than "defective" and "diseased" and "different than everyone else." This book has really clarified things for me and I am really grateful to have found it.
On another note, kind of a funny story, something that happened to me this week that brought home just how TRAPPED I really feel. My addiction therapist is always telling me that our outer circumstances mirror our inner feelings. My inner feelings around drinking have been very strong around this theme of "feeling trapped."
This past week I went to work in a high-rise building on the 43rd floor. I got in the elevator and was on my way up (alone) when the friggin thing JUST STOPPED!! Then all of the lights went out!! At floor 40 I was TRAPPED in the elevator. I am not usually one who is easily scared, but I found myself having a panic attack, hyperventilating, starting to cry, feeling alone, afraid, vulnerable, not in control (ALL OF THE FEELINGS I HAVE AROUND DRINKING). I called the receptionist where I was working and he stayed on the phone with me for the five minutes I was in there and of course I was fine, but I thought it was an interesting parallel experience to what drinking has become to me :surrender:
So onward with Day 1! My therapist wants me to start putting a support system in place and since that won't be AA, it will be you all :l
I hope everyone is well...I am off to do some more reading here and see how everyone has been doing.
I am back, after reading Allen Carr's Easy Way to Stop Drinking. OMG!!! It really resonated with me and I am now actually EXCITED about living life as a nondrinker. The way he described it as "the alcohol TRAP"... something that we innocently fell into before we knew what it was, and just getting stuck. It helps immensely for me to see myself in this light, rather than "defective" and "diseased" and "different than everyone else." This book has really clarified things for me and I am really grateful to have found it.
On another note, kind of a funny story, something that happened to me this week that brought home just how TRAPPED I really feel. My addiction therapist is always telling me that our outer circumstances mirror our inner feelings. My inner feelings around drinking have been very strong around this theme of "feeling trapped."
This past week I went to work in a high-rise building on the 43rd floor. I got in the elevator and was on my way up (alone) when the friggin thing JUST STOPPED!! Then all of the lights went out!! At floor 40 I was TRAPPED in the elevator. I am not usually one who is easily scared, but I found myself having a panic attack, hyperventilating, starting to cry, feeling alone, afraid, vulnerable, not in control (ALL OF THE FEELINGS I HAVE AROUND DRINKING). I called the receptionist where I was working and he stayed on the phone with me for the five minutes I was in there and of course I was fine, but I thought it was an interesting parallel experience to what drinking has become to me :surrender:
So onward with Day 1! My therapist wants me to start putting a support system in place and since that won't be AA, it will be you all :l
I hope everyone is well...I am off to do some more reading here and see how everyone has been doing.
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