I blew it on day 5

[Samantha T.]

I blew it on day 5

Charlotte
No such thing as a "loser" when you are continuing to keep trying. And no such thing as being any kind of a "disappointment" to people here. The important thing is how you feel about yourself. And if you are very disappointed in yourself, you have the capacity, as you have just shown yourself these past five days, to get back on the horse and work, one day at a time, towards becoming the self-respecting person you know you are underneath the alcohol.

Someone told me recently that when we are in this state of great discomfort and agony, due to the fact that we are struggling to achieve something difficult, even though the discomfort and agony feel "awful," it is actually a time to celebrate because it means that we are getting ready to do something great. (in contrast to if you had gotten up this morning with NO feelings of remorse or questioning your behavior....that type of mindset would mean that you have no plans to change anything).

So as everyone else has said, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and get back on the Sober Pony! We are all pulling for you :l

[sapphire1]

I blew it on day 5

Charlotte great support, comments for the others!!!! I like to use this analogy when trying to give up the grog. When you got your first bike, you were full of excitement at the prospect of being able to ride faster than the wind and feel the exhileration of freedom. You tentatively hopped on, pushed the pedals and fell straight back off. Maybe a small bruise here and there. Undeterred and with everyone telling you to get back on, you try again and again. You might have fallen off many times but you didnt give up, because you knew that if you keep getting on eventually you would stay on. One day you hopped on full of determination, you pushed the pedal, wobbled a little bit and hooray off you went, riding like the wind and as free as a bird. Becoming sober is a lot like learning to ride that bike. It is a new skill, a new way of living and the rewards are fabulous. And I bet no-one thought you were a loser because you fell off a few times....the main thing is you got back on again. Love and grace Saffxx

[sapphire1]

I blew it on day 5

Choochie;1011264 wrote: Charlotte, here are some safety net ideas for when you go out into a situation that might trigger you:

Take index cards where you have written the reasons you can't drink down - pull them out - excuse yourself, go outside, to the restroom, (wherever) and read the cards.

Call someone - do you have anyone you can call to talk you through not drinking?

Just some thoughts - don't despair. Amend your plan and come back aboard. Oh, by the way, I did what DG idescribes - I am committed to staying home A LOT until I get months of sober time.

:lChoochie

Hi Choochie, great idea - the index cards, I think I'll write some up right away:l P.S. I love your posts they are such an inspiration!!!

[sapphire1]

I blew it on day 5

getterbetter;1011286 wrote: Thanks for giving me the gumption to post. I was in a similar state yesterday and more nights after work than I care to admit. But it looks like there are several of us with a new agenda. Here we can begin to live sober. As I saw on another post, it's more than just not drinking. I have a lot of changes to make, and they are all positive! Again thanks to all. :thanks:

Strength to you GB....onwards and upwards!!!

[Choochie]

I blew it on day 5

:welcome:Getting Better - so glad you joined us. Please let us know how we can help. There is so much in the Tool Box - be sure not to miss that thread. Here is the link:

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html

Saff - thanks so much for your kind words. I get so much good information from your posts and appreciate you enormously!:l

Choochie

[fighting back]

I blew it on day 5

getterbetter;1011286 wrote: Thanks for giving me the gumption to post. I was in a similar state yesterday and more nights after work than I care to admit. But it looks like there are several of us with a new agenda. Here we can begin to live sober. As I saw on another post, it's more than just not drinking. I have a lot of changes to make, and they are all positive! Again thanks to all. :thanks:

hey newbie! Welcome

[Charlotte's Web]

I blew it on day 5

Thanks Everyone. I've just got myself back out of bed and can't believe how much support there is here.

I still feel bad (physically). I have a pounding headache. I shall use this an experience, another reason why I can't have "just one" or "weekends only."

And I am missing my son's cricket match this morning. I cried off sick so hubby took him. My son has been playing so well lately and I should be there, not here nursing a hangover.

I am definately back on Day 1. Softy - Are you with me?

[Charlotte's Web]

I blew it on day 5

Sorry - Hey GB, Looks like we're all in this together. And there seems to be lots of help and support available.