I'm going to do out a list of why I need to stop, apart from the obvious reasons. I'm not sure how I got to this point in life. It makes me cry buckets. It's like everyone I once knew have moved on in life but mine is on pause or something. I've had a lot of sadness over the years but who hasn't. I had a terrible relationship a few years ago. I had moved country to be with that person and they completely ripped me off, then cheated on me. I stayed strong during the time I needed to. I had to move back, find a job, find a home. Did all that AF. Then as soon as I was sorted I took to the bottle. As if I had been handed a reason to drink. I felt I deserved to drink myself stupid because I was hurting. However, now I'm really really hurting and I'm doing it to myself.
I'm going to keep a journal this time, record all the positive things I do each day that I wouldn't have done if I'd been drinking.
All tips and advice welcome. I'm so determined this time.
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