I cant imagine going a night without drinking. i dont drink and get wasted everynight. there are even some nights each week i dont drink.
usually 2 glasses/2 beers is what i have. typically its champagne/wine.
i drink because it calms me. i have high blood pressure, i deal with a lot of stressors during a typical day, and i feel like im going to have a heart attack unless i calm down.
no health insurance so no, seeing a doc is not an option. my husband is not supportive, he just yells at me about it. i dont even know if with support i could do it.
i cant imagine being sober more than 1 or 2 nights in a row honestly.
mostly because i am in a home where i feel miserable. and leaving is not an option either, id just drink more and make more mistakes in life than i already have.
i dont drink to "forget my troubles" i drink to deal with them.
when im mad at my husband for not loving me or being nice, i want a drink and then i dont care what he says or does.
when im sober, im hurt, lost, helpless, sad. i want to cry. everything stresses me out.
the only good thing i have to offer is that my daughter is well taken care of, happy, healthy, and has no idea what goes on. i think if my husband was nicer to me i wouldnt want to drink so often, but he says that cant happen basically. so im lost, really lost. i recently started wondering how my liver is doing. im only 27. fairly healthy i think other than the high BP, that runs in my family.
its not like the past 6 yrs ive drank everyday. really, its mostly only been since my daughters 2nd birthday. i drank before that, but not more than 3 nights a week (usually weekends when my husband was home from work)
my husband has been unemployed most of the past year also, and so were around each other constantly. i can honestly so also, that when he is working i dont want to drink as much either, because i feel less stress since he isnt home yellin at me, or ignoring me, etc.
i wish this was easy.
usually 2 glasses/2 beers is what i have. typically its champagne/wine.
i drink because it calms me. i have high blood pressure, i deal with a lot of stressors during a typical day, and i feel like im going to have a heart attack unless i calm down.
no health insurance so no, seeing a doc is not an option. my husband is not supportive, he just yells at me about it. i dont even know if with support i could do it.
i cant imagine being sober more than 1 or 2 nights in a row honestly.
mostly because i am in a home where i feel miserable. and leaving is not an option either, id just drink more and make more mistakes in life than i already have.
i dont drink to "forget my troubles" i drink to deal with them.
when im mad at my husband for not loving me or being nice, i want a drink and then i dont care what he says or does.
when im sober, im hurt, lost, helpless, sad. i want to cry. everything stresses me out.
the only good thing i have to offer is that my daughter is well taken care of, happy, healthy, and has no idea what goes on. i think if my husband was nicer to me i wouldnt want to drink so often, but he says that cant happen basically. so im lost, really lost. i recently started wondering how my liver is doing. im only 27. fairly healthy i think other than the high BP, that runs in my family.
its not like the past 6 yrs ive drank everyday. really, its mostly only been since my daughters 2nd birthday. i drank before that, but not more than 3 nights a week (usually weekends when my husband was home from work)
my husband has been unemployed most of the past year also, and so were around each other constantly. i can honestly so also, that when he is working i dont want to drink as much either, because i feel less stress since he isnt home yellin at me, or ignoring me, etc.
i wish this was easy.
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