what's up everybody, this is my first post, on hopefully what will be day 1 of being sober. hopefully I can fight off the urges that usually kick in around noon. what can I say, 2010 saw ups and downs, but overall, I am happy with the results of the year. I lost 50lbs, quit smoking, and went an 8 month stint where I drank only 4 times. then I made the decision to finish my last two years of college. I know it was a good decision, because I made it with a sober mind, and even though I am in the midst of a bad binge, I have 5 A's and 1 B. so even though I'm a bit down right now, I am being productive at least. two years ago at this time, I was in the midst of what I thought would be the end of my life. the only reason I got out of bed was to get beer, food, and to use the bathroom. I did this for close to 2 years. I got up to 250lbs, and was in the worst shape of my life. it's what can happen when you get laid off, get an unemployment check, and have a bank account full of money. I also didn't leave my house during daylight hours, and didn't see any of my neighbors for 2 years. before I made the decision to move back in with my parents, I considered committing myself to a nuthouse. instead, I moved in with my parents and started living sober. I was good while I was there, but now I am back at school, living alone, with way too much time on my hands. unfortunately, the only way I know how to fill that time is intoxicated. I have been on campral and revia in the past. they worked pretty well, but you have remember to take them. sometimes I wouldn't take them so I could drink a lot. I have a slew of other problems too, ranging from massive ADHD, to panic attacks and major anxiety. I'm not really depressed anymore, which is strange. I was suicidal in my early 20's, but now I would describe my mood as indifferent. not too happy, not too sad. I have also been diagnosed with bi-polar, so perhaps I keep that even kilter to keep the mania at bay. anyway, I don't want to bore anyone. we've all got our stories to tell. I was just saying hi. I also have a couple questions.
1. are their any programs outside of AA? I don't have a problem with AA, I just find that they seem to be really religious, eat cookies, smoke, and talk about the past. I'm done with the past, and I want to look to the future. is there a group or a program that just does fun things sober?
2. seen lots of posts about baclofen. I'm planning on trying it. I had painkillers and steroids confiscated at the mexican border before, and I was wondering what the experiences here have been. is it safer to order from canada rather than mexico? is baclofen a controlled substance? I'm thinking they took my stuff at the border before because it was a controlled substance. wondering if anyone had experiences with getting their stuff taken, and what happened. I just got a letter in the mail when they took my stuff. the only way they could get me in trouble would be if I went there to try to claim the stuff, otherwise, case closed.
1. are their any programs outside of AA? I don't have a problem with AA, I just find that they seem to be really religious, eat cookies, smoke, and talk about the past. I'm done with the past, and I want to look to the future. is there a group or a program that just does fun things sober?
2. seen lots of posts about baclofen. I'm planning on trying it. I had painkillers and steroids confiscated at the mexican border before, and I was wondering what the experiences here have been. is it safer to order from canada rather than mexico? is baclofen a controlled substance? I'm thinking they took my stuff at the border before because it was a controlled substance. wondering if anyone had experiences with getting their stuff taken, and what happened. I just got a letter in the mail when they took my stuff. the only way they could get me in trouble would be if I went there to try to claim the stuff, otherwise, case closed.
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