Well after my story on panic attacks the real story. I decided that I would have only have a couple of drinks with dinner some nights last week and have some AL free nights.
First two days fine, I was working from home so when I thought I wanted a drink I went onto MWO and decided I would have a green tea instead.
In walks my son what are you drinking Mum. Green tea I reply, he promptly picked up my cup which by the way had steam coming from it and tatsted it. I was horrified I said yuk who would put wine in green tea his reply was the same person that would put wine in a water bottle and try and pass it off as apple juice. Once was my reply. His reply was who would even do it once if there wasn't a problem.
Anyway managed to get through the two nights with wine left in the bottle. Very pleased with myself when I said to myself that's enough have a green tea.
Well the rest of the week not so good. Birthday party, confrimed a big job (lets party)
only saving grace managed not to make a fool of myself.
Last night had an arguement with son about some of choices he's been making laterly, was told maybe some of it was to do with my drinking, then made the excuse that maybe my drinking was due to some of his behaviour. No winners there and I know deep in my heart I don't need an excuse.
He was also angry that there was no food to eat (there was) but not the sort of food he liked. I explained that I spent $300.00 this week on groceries and all the nibbles had gone in a couple of days, his reply was how much money do you spend on AL daily and there's no more the next day. (How right was he)
Anyway not sure if I can give up over Christmas, but have been on Tool Box and I am putting plan together thought I would write plan also record it onto my ipod so I can listen to it when I need to.
Wine in Green tea maybe I'll think about that next time I want a wine. YUK
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