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[Shanny5]

Hello All:new:
Well after a faltering start with Campral where I think I may have imagined a few Se's just out of fear of the unknown, it is now my second Af day. It doesn't sound long does it?, particularly after reading some of the massive achievements of others here on this forum. However, it has been an extremely difficult two days that has felt more like two months and I know this is only the beginning.
Like many others, my association with alcohol began in my early teens and has been a constant companion to me for the last 25 years. It has destroyed my life till now in many ways through lost opportunities, lost friendships, financially, my career and my health.
I am so very afraid that if I don't reclaim my life now and get back into the drivers seat as it were, I will be lost to this addiction forever.
As mentioned, I have just started taking Campral and feel slightly more able to deal with my cravings. It has in some way taken the edge off and lowered the level of desperation to have a drink. I think about it though...constantly. Early days. I have also just purchased L-Glutamine and will use it in conjunction with the Campral. I'm really not hungry though, which is new. I have to wonder if it connected in some way or am I just hyper aware of everything right now. Time will tell I guess.

Shanny

[lil.michelle]

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Hi hunni, it IS VERY hard to start with but as long as you don't relaspe, it WILL get easier! Try hang in there, come to us and post, stay busy.. those thoughts will start to die down. It took me 2 weeks before they hushed down enough to let me even think but now they sleeping, waiting for a moment that they can test me.
Sty strong! and WELL DONE you're doing GREAT!

[Choochie]

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:welcome:Shanny. Just give yourself time as Michelle says. Obviously after decades of drinking we have to be patient. We didn't create this mess in a day, so we have to give our bodies some time to adjust. 30 days is a good goal and I think you'll start feeling much better if you can make it to that time. Read everything on the site you have time for. There is a wealth of information. Also, post your questions - lots of wonderful people will help.

Here is a good starting place for your reading. Be sure to eat healthy foods with lots of water and lemon. Exercise, especially outside is really beneficial too. Try to stay busy - get the MWO book and abstinence tapes if you can. Supplements especially B vitamins are also helpful at the beginning.

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html

Wishing you the best,
Choochie

[madmans]

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Hi shanny like Michelle said its hard at the start but does get easier . as for two days thats great take it one day at a time , like everyone else here had to do. make sure you dont let yourself get too hungry it can be a real trigger

[mylife]

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Hi Shanny, and welcome! I also thought at the beginning my days seemed so small compared to some others here -- but they're adding up one by one, and hopefully soon we can be among those with long term sobriety under our belts!!

I have to agree with MM, I avoid being hungry as for some reason my body doesn't want food when it's hungry, it wants wine. Obviously something I taught it to do over the years!

Have a great AF Saturday!!

[frosty12]

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Shanny,
I am in the same boat. Day 2 and not feeling well. I just have constant nausea that I hope will pass soom. I'm downing tons of water. I plan to do alot of reading on MWO and stay close to the site. Good luck to you. I know we can do it.

[Shanny5]

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Thank you for your support. It makes such a difference. Just even to feel some acknowledgment and empathy from others is an amazing reinforcement for me.
The last few days has had to be all about me and has taken all of my efforts to abstain. I've been here lurking on the forum, reading self help books, taking my medication and exercising to help ease stress. I've been completely consumed by this and not entirely by choice. The impulse to drink is stronger than I ever would have imagined and it has taken everything I have to turn away from it.
I have noticed two things so far. One is that because I have become completely reclusive over the years, I have no friends or hobbies. I'm only just now realizing this because alcohol was all I ever needed before. I haven't been interested in either for so long now that I'm not even sure what sort of thing's I'd be interested in doing as a hobby or what I'd talk about to other people in a social setting.
The other thing is all this extra time on my hands all of a sudden! When I would drink, the time would fly past and literally turn into days. Days of doing absolutely nothing but drinking and days after that recovering and so forth. It would often take a a week to recover and then I'd start the process all over again. Now, I have that time all to myself and boy! the house is clean and getting cleaner by the day. I've even been to the gym 4 times this week. Who would have thought I had it in me. Not me that's for sure. Anyways.... onwards and upwards and ODAT

[frosty12]

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Shanny5;1021239 wrote: Thank you for your support. It makes such a difference. Just even to feel some acknowledgment and empathy from others is an amazing reinforcement for me.
The last few days has had to be all about me and has taken all of my efforts to abstain. I've been here lurking on the forum, reading self help books, taking my medication and exercising to help ease stress. I've been completely consumed by this and not entirely by choice. The impulse to drink is stronger than I ever would have imagined and it has taken everything I have to turn away from it.
I have noticed two things so far. One is that because I have become completely reclusive over the years, I have no friends or hobbies. I'm only just now realizing this because alcohol was all I ever needed before. I haven't been interested in either for so long now that I'm not even sure what sort of thing's I'd be interested in doing as a hobby or what I'd talk about to other people in a social setting.
The other thing is all this extra time on my hands all of a sudden! When I would drink, the time would fly past and literally turn into days. Days of doing absolutely nothing but drinking and days after that recovering and so forth. It would often take a a week to recover and then I'd start the process all over again. Now, I have that time all to myself and boy! the house is clean and getting cleaner by the day. I've even been to the gym 4 times this week. Who would have thought I had it in me. Not me that's for sure. Anyways.... onwards and upwards and ODAT

Shanny I hear you. Drinking takes up alot of time. I want to get my house cleaned and organized, which I am doing today. I feel better if I can get it under control, since that was put on the backburner due to drinking. I think this will be a fun Christmas for my 15 year old son as I will actually feel like doing baking, shopping etc. I feel so blessed today to be AF. Sounds like your house and life are getting in order too. It's so wonderful. Take Care.

[Choochie]

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Shanny and Frosty, just wanted to congratulate you both on your startup. Reading a lot here helped me too. I've got 68 days and just went to my second AA meeting today.

Sending you peace and strength,
Choochie

[thehfxguy]

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hi everyone

just coming off a two week bender after 8 months dry (well one small slip in there), and nearing the end of a semester.. very bad timing.. between school pressures and a recent breakup.. i just fell off.. i didn't see it coming, and all of the sudden I was at the liquor store.. just to ease the pain of the breakup is how i justified it, and the anxiety and depression i had to deal with the next day kept me going back and back, i managed to get through two days mid bender dry, but was feeling so ill that i went back to it once again.. i'm pretty much alone right now, and trying to get to an aa meeting tonite so i don't feel so isolated..

[Choochie]

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Hi guy - just went to an AA meeting myself today - excellent idea. Sorry you've had a bad slip. We are here for you.

[thehfxguy]

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thanks

i found out i can't get to the meeting, but invested in a netbook today so i could get back on the intenet so i could find support and information.. i'm so run down right now

[Shanny5]

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thehfxguy;1021255 wrote: i found out i can't get to the meeting, but invested in a netbook today so i could get back on the intenet so i could find support and information.. i'm so run down right now

Just hang in there Guy, that's what I'm doing so your not alone. As I've said in other posts, I have completely isolated myself from everyone over the years through my drinking so now that I need support, it's simply not there. I know what it is to feel alone with this so I have spent HEAPS of time here on these forums, on the net researching and at the library borrowing books on the subject. It's all a part of positive reinforcement I think. Anyways, you're not alone because there are so many people right now and myself included sitting at their computers, feeling like absolute hell because of AL. Just keep posting and reading. It really helps.

[madmans]

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hi FX, Shanny and frosty . I have seen on a lot of the posts here talk about being isolated and how drinking causes that, and i'd have to agree, when i was drinking at my worst i didnt want to see anyone, do anything all i wanted to do was work(to get money ) for drinking. it was such hard work drinking, buying drink at different places each night and trying to get rid of the emptys all the time. the whole drinking was like having two jobs

[Choochie]

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the whole drinking was like having two jobs

Madmans - you got that right!! Hang in there everyone. Not drinking is so much better if you can just give it some time.

xx,
Choochie