Hi, newbie here. I'm pretty sure I'm an alcoholic. I don't drink everyday, I can go weeks sometimes without drinking. But when I do drink, it's game over. I will consume every drop of alcohol and whatever else mind altering product in a 10mi radius until I drop! Sober, I never have any such desire.
I've sworn off alcohol so many times, it's become ritual. Sometimes I last 4 weeks, sometimes 4 days. Although, I do feel I slowly learn more about the process each time I try. I've learned that moderation won't work for me. It would be so much easier if it did, but it's just not in me to moderate. I've learned that I can't say I'm going to stop drinking after a certain event, there will -always- be an event. But somehow, I always end up drinking again. I stay away from old friends and club scenes, it always happens at more innocent times. Like, I'm at a BBQ with the family. I hold off as long as possible... but the then since the environment is so innocent, I slip and have a few drinks. i then continue to have a "normal drinking experience" and I feel great the next day. So it's never the first time back that is the problem. It's always the second or third night. then rinse and repeat.
I also find that sometimes I just need to escape. I'll go a couple weeks without drinking and then get this huge urge to unwind. I've tried hot baths, going to he movies, reading, exercise ... but there's nothing really that has the escape feeling like alcohol/drugs. I was wondering if anyone had any tips on how to escape without breaking sobriety?
I've sworn off alcohol so many times, it's become ritual. Sometimes I last 4 weeks, sometimes 4 days. Although, I do feel I slowly learn more about the process each time I try. I've learned that moderation won't work for me. It would be so much easier if it did, but it's just not in me to moderate. I've learned that I can't say I'm going to stop drinking after a certain event, there will -always- be an event. But somehow, I always end up drinking again. I stay away from old friends and club scenes, it always happens at more innocent times. Like, I'm at a BBQ with the family. I hold off as long as possible... but the then since the environment is so innocent, I slip and have a few drinks. i then continue to have a "normal drinking experience" and I feel great the next day. So it's never the first time back that is the problem. It's always the second or third night. then rinse and repeat.
I also find that sometimes I just need to escape. I'll go a couple weeks without drinking and then get this huge urge to unwind. I've tried hot baths, going to he movies, reading, exercise ... but there's nothing really that has the escape feeling like alcohol/drugs. I was wondering if anyone had any tips on how to escape without breaking sobriety?
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