You no why I was mostly coming to this site, not for help oh no, but for validation that "Im" not that dependent, that "Im" still in control of my life, I read your stories and thought "oh alcohol hasn't gripped my life to that degree, I haven't lost everything, I can go a couple of nights without drinking, Im healthy! famous last words",hmmm..... Isn't reality a cruel master, so here I am finally looking in the mirror and it aint pretty! I am definitely not in control, alcohol has me firmly in its grip and as for my health, I'm to scared to find out how my livers doing. Where the hell did I go! and how did I let it get this far.
Ive realised that my entire self worth is tied up with this addiction, my confidence is shot and my reputation when it comes to alcohol is embarrassing!
so my friends I wanted to ask your experiences with beating this thing, in 2 days when Im feeling good again after my recent bout of self abuse my brain is going to start making excuses for me to start drinking again, its such a vicious cycle of shame and Im over it. Any advice or tips would be much appreciated it. Thankyou very much.:new:
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