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[Jolie]

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Mauri - so sorry to hear about your weekend. I too get occasional severe headaches (doctors never really classified them as migraines, but they were horrible). Glad to hear you are recovering and can you only imagine how AL would have just made it worse?
Stinks that it ruined your whole weekend though.

Love the mehndi! You are very taleneted!

Have a great Monday!

[mauritiusdodo]

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Thanks Jolie Still feeling a bit yuck, the headache and sick feeling lingers for a while after and is annoying!

Just been up to visit my Mum and she had been sorting out old photos, saw some of my Dad (who comitted suicide 17 years ago) and wanted to cry, I dunno how I can still get so emotional so long after the event, think the lack of alcohol is letting my emotions run freer than they ever have :upset:

[Running4life]

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Hi Mauri - Hope you are feeling better soon. I took a look at your Mendhi pictures, you do amazing work. I would love to learn how to do this.
I managed to do 7 days AF but messed up a bit at a weekend get together. Oh well, back on the AF Train again. This is day 2. I feel so much better in the mornings when I have not been drinking. It is a beautiful sunny day on the west coast of Canada. I am so looking forward to spring and warm sunshine. It is supposed to go down to possibly -10 for the next few days so I think I will brew a pot of soup for dinner.
Take care everyone.

[kaza]

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Hi Mauri
I have not heard from you for a couple of days, so I went searching for you. Are you okay? Have you gotten rid of the headaches? I have missed you big time. I hope everything is okay now. If you feel like chatting would love to hear from you. Love and Sunshine Kaz z

[vintage girl]

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Where is the Dodo?

Hi mauri, not seen you in a while, hope all is ok hun

[Jolie]

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Hey Mauri - please check in - as you can see, a lot of people really care about you and miss hearing about what's going on in your life!

[mauritiusdodo]

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I messed up :upset: dunno why but I let AL get a hold of me again and I am sorry to say I have had a drink every day for the last 6 I am feeling very annoyed with myself and I don't know what to do really, making a new start (again) today and really going to try not to slip back into my old ways, I am so sick of this never ending cycle :upset:

Thank you to everyone for all the lovely messages which I know I don't deserve, it is so nice to know people care about me :thanks: I shall be checking in a few times a day again in the hope I can keep on the straight and narrow.

[stashia]

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H Mauri i have been on and off the wagon for a while now im starting day two today so the motto is never give up giving up. so lets hope for an AF week! best of luck :h

[vintage girl]

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mauritiusdodo;1067382 wrote: I messed up :upset: dunno why but I let AL get a hold of me again and I am sorry to say I have had a drink every day for the last 6 I am feeling very annoyed with myself and I don't know what to do really, making a new start (again) today and really going to try not to slip back into my old ways, I am so sick of this never ending cycle :upset:

Thank you to everyone for all the lovely messages which I know I don't deserve, it is so nice to know people care about me :thanks: I shall be checking in a few times a day again in the hope I can keep on the straight and narrow.

Hey mauri! It's nice to see you back posting again. You were doing so well, any idea what triggered your drinking this time? Whatever it was hopefully you can learn from it and use it...no one said it would be easy, keep trying hun :l

[Jolie]

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Mauri - We missed you! Please don't every feel like you don't deserve our caring because you do. We have all been where you have - believe me you are not alone. That was me - sick and tired of the never ending cycle. If I can do it, you can to! Please let us help you. Sometimes it helps to just lay it all out in the open - we will listen and never judge.

You have a lot of friends here Mauri who all care about you whether you slip up or not!

Hugs :l to you my friend and welcome back.

[here4hope]

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Hi Mauri - I too have struggled for 35 years with drinking, not drinking, self loathing....blah, I'm so sick of it! Today starts day 5 for me, which is awesome since I made it through the weekend. I went for a EKG stress test today (dr ordered because of chest pain and abnormal EKG in the office), all normal...very pleasing as I do not have health insurance.

I keep reading the struggles, achievements, relapses and know that there go I but for the grace of God. Def. ODAT, and your artwork is amazing!!! I've noticed that many of the peeps on here have a very creative side, Alcohol-Creativity connection? Blessings to all

[mauritiusdodo]

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Thank you everyone, I am so overwhelmed by everyones caring on here

I have no idea what triggered me to start up again other than the obvious desire to but I do know that I can't keep on failing like this, I feel like I am in groundhog day!

Thanks for the comments on my mehndi, my hobbies are the only thing keeping me sane at the moment, here are a couple more designs I have done this week Attached files [img]/converted_files/1513580=6180-attachment.jpg[/img] [img]/converted_files/1513580=6181-attachment.jpg[/img] [img]/converted_files/1513580=6182-attachment.jpg[/img] [img]/converted_files/1513580=6183-attachment.jpg[/img]

[prancy]

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I am sad for how you are feeling. I have been there so many times. But it is good that you had the courage to come back here and start over. That is really our best defense. Just don't give up! You know where this will lead you in the end. Someplace you don't want to be. We romanticize drinking so much but I can tell from your words that your drinking was not the experience you imagined it would be. Try again, Maurice, you can do this.

[kaza]

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Hi Maurie
So glad to see your post - take care and don't be so very hard on yourself, I really looked forward to your posts - they mean a lot to me - stay with us - we all care and I've missed your posts big time and have been really worried about you, love and sunshine always -I loved hearing from you - it was really good to have a friendly ear to listen when I needed it most, and yes, we can all benefit from listening to each other - me especially I think - I hope that doesn't sound selfish - but you and Happy have been a fantastic help for me and I would absolutely love to return the favour - so dear friend remember we are all in this boat together and no, we won't sink we will swim - we will conquer whatever life throws at us - we can do it and we will - it may take a while, but we will get there!! Promise!! . Goodnight and sleep tight my friend, I hope to hear from you soon. If I can do anything to help then I am more than willing - boy have you helped me - I'd love to return the favour. love and Sunshine always Kaz x

[vintage girl]

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stay with is mauri, keep posting. No one is judging, we have all been there. In some cases are there. I know how much of a hand up this place can be when you need it, so stick around hun. We are here to support you. :l