just wanted to pop in and share a small story of my life.
this morining i couldn't find my car key. the spare is not programmed so is useless except to open the car. it was still dark and i had to leave for work, first dropping my son off at his pre-school caregiver. i was in a tizzy. fortunately, i have a wonderful friend w an extra car, so i did make it to work only an hour or so late. (i was extra panicked, as i've missed a lot of work this year due to illness and an unhelpful ex; i really need to keep this job!)
the good news is, although i was mad at myself for not having a spare that worked, i was not hating myself like i would be if i were in drink mode, hungover, maybe blaming my chaos on my stupid habit. the good news is also that after getting home early (they sent us home because another storm approaches), i found my key in the back seat, where it had fallen as i juggled parcels and my son getting out of the car last evening. HOORAY! crisis averted.
for any of you very newbies who might be readign this, please take it as a token example of how -even in subtle but very significant ways- your life might improve -will improve- if you stop drinking. you'll sail more easily through challenges without heaping a ton of self-hatred on top of them. you wont' feel so much chagrin as you face people in your daily life, even if you did something dumb like lose your key. you won't wonder if people know it's all because you get blasted too much.
onward and upward!
rudy
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