After long period of silence i'm here again..i understood that this battle in solitude is very hard... I feel very lonely, i don't meet my friends because they live in different city.. but actually when i'm drinking i want to be alone..I'm afraid that somebody will notice..
At the moment i have my only daughter who turned 18..she know about my problem, this site MWO, but she's not a nurse and has her own life, school etc. And perhaps she's thinking that miracle will happen and i'll stop drinking..
Her favorite conversations with me are in my sober evenings because when i drink i want to avoid this harsh reality and hide myself in watching movies (yestarday it was 'Elizabeth"..). i really don't want to contact than anybody..
Yes, i have issues - finding a new job (from January 12 i don't work), lack of money, feeling of lonliness etc. And!!!!! Only when i 'm sober i can manage to solve all problems which is normal issue in this country..Actually i 'm thinking of searching for a job abroad but i have fear about my AL problem...
I think i have to solve here where i live at the moment...
I already wrote in 48 hours thread that for me now is a plan to reach Day 6, because my biggest success was 5 days and then i relapsed..
During the last months i have 4-5 AL free days (it's a big struggle) and tahn 4 - 5 days drinking and so on..
I have a very big determination to reach Day 6 - like so magical number for me now!!!!
If somebody wants to join me :welcome::welcome:
Expierienced members perhaps already know this problem about tricky day 5/6 and can share with some feedback:thanks::thanks:
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