Tricky Day 6

[Audrey14]

Tricky Day 6

Morning bugalugs, morning Tips, morning all friends!!!

Day 4. The first thing i want to do when i wake up is to cry.. No more "wine anesthesia".. Fear to face the problems with clear mind but in the same time fear to go back to hazy state of mind.. Somewhere in the middle.. I know that i have to move on but feel benumbed and paralysed...

Will try to use all my methods to bring me to life...

I hope you're in more optimistic mood and more energetic..

A

[bugalugs]

Tricky Day 6

A
Stay focused on your goal.
I wish I could offer you some great words of wisdom, however I'm not feeling well and need to sleep.
catch ya later

[Audrey14]

Tricky Day 6

Thanks bugalugs!!!:l

I think nobody can get this magic words of wisdom... But you already helped me with your post and support..
I hate mondays because of unemployment...They are the worst thing thats why i start drinking on mondays - thursdays, then sober days, than again..
Today really i want to tear this chain... i'll try to do the best...

A

[Audrey14]

Tricky Day 6

And i wish you a peaceful sleep!!!!

A

[Audrey14]

Tricky Day 6

When i understand all problems which i have to solve i want to kill myself..Not slowly with al but fast..
Feel hopeless.. Not about al..About job, money, future.. I know al will make it worse.. Only for some moment it's this ilusion of safety and hope.. i know i have depression i don't take anti-depressants for 1 year and actually don't want (chemicals, expensive etc.). But i 'll think about it
Going out with fear to slip again..but i need fresh air and food, i'm getting crazy

[Audrey14]

Tricky Day 6

I had the hardest inner battle which i ever had in my life.. Because it wasn't equal.. Addiction is stronger than me at the moment so i tried to be artful, fast, For one moment i tought i'm loosing..But i tried to concentrate only on my goal - I WANT MY DAY 6.... Somehow i survived and won.. but feel exausted.. Normally i make dinner, this evening my daughter is making pasta
I felt dizzy to.. Maybe to much stress..

[Softy]

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You are doing so well Audrey - keep on keeping strong

[bugalugs]

Tricky Day 6

Audrey,
Sounds like you are doing it a little tough.
You may be on the other side of the world, but be assured, there are people out here, who care and wish you all the best.

This is a battle worth winning.

[Audrey14]

Tricky Day 6

Hi and good Morning bugalugs and Softy!!:l:l

Morning for me, i don't know about you - in wich time zone you're... Perhaps in sweet dreams How you're doing?? I hope well i really need support from somebody who is strong stronger than me...

This night i really had wonderful dreams, i have to write them..They were so clear and colorful i even remember eyes of strangers..It could be an interesting research because when i drink i see dreams colorful too but they are foggy and unclear.. Interesting..

Day 5.. I'm so happy that i yestarday survived..I can imagine how miserable i could feel this morning if i drunk...

Here is rainy, + 2', dark.. This climate is killing me too..

Have a lot things to do so will get started!!!

Keep in touch!!!

[bugalugs]

Tricky Day 6

Good morning Audrey (evening for me)
Great to see you are sounding positive and dreaming well.
Wish you all the best for today, keep busy.

Day 10 for me:yay:, feeling positive and not suffering too many cravings. I am convinced that Campral is helping.
Still a little sick but nothing serious.

Very nice weather here, wish I could send you some sunshine.

[Audrey14]

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Hi bugalugs!!!

Congrats on your Day 10!!! I wish you get well!!!

Thanks for "sunshine delivery":thanks: ... Yes, i'm already dreaming of summer, beach and sun

Sweet dreams!

A

[Audrey14]

Tricky Day 6

Day 5 will be complete AL free!!!!
It wasn't easy but no so crazy as yestarday... More self-esteem and awareness which i already almost lost...

So, it seems that i'll finally reach MORNING OF DAY 6 AF !!!!!!:wings:

Hope that DAY 6 will be successful and i'll start new tread.....:rays:

Wish you all nice evening (who has it) or really god Morning!!!

[bugalugs]

Tricky Day 6

:goodjob:
you are sounding very confident.
I'm just wakeing from a bad nights sleep. Was feeling a bit down, but feel better allready after reading your post.
Keep up the good work. We can find the strength to acheive our goals.

[Audrey14]

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Hi bugalugs!!! I'm glad that i can a little bit to chear you up...

You're Day 11?? You have sunshine and nice weather.. Where do you live? I understood that near beach???
I like very much walking along the seaside..for me it's like a meditation..Sometimes i talk to myself aloud And sea (or ocean???) is very relaxing...
Now here is impossible to go to the beach - freezing cold..

Wish you a produtive Day!!!!

A

[bugalugs]

Tricky Day 6

Don't think today will be productive. I'm feeling very tired.
I'm at work now and need to drag myself off to a meeting. I'll talk sun and sand later.

Sleep well and may your dreams be clear and positive.