I think I am in Stage 1. My husband and mother (she lives next door and we have "cocktails" together every night) both think I DO NOT have a problem at all and think I am being ridiculous when I tell them how upsetting this is for me. They say because I work full time and have children and manage the house, I need something to take the edge off at the end of the day. Well, that is true, but I would wake up everymorning feeling awful. Plus, I would lay awake several hours in the middle of the night, unable to sleep. I work out at the gym every day, have a high stress career, two children and a mother to take care of and a husband. I live a pretty good life but for the drinking. Although highly functional, I was miserable drinking like that every night. And I HAD to finish the bottle.....
So, I am on my 5th day. I will not let this disease kill me like it killed my father (he was 57 when he died of complications from alcohol abuse). I am glad I found this site. I am also seeing a specialist once a week about the emotional reasons I have for drinking. And then I will start AA meetings eventually.....but I am so sad to lose the wonderful relationship I once had with wine.....I know it sounds silly, but I feel like I did in college when someone broke up with me.
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