Does everyone feel like this?

[mauritiusdodo]

I know I NEED to quit, I WANT to quit but at the back of my head there is this little voice saying 'yes but I LOVE to drink, why must I give it up?'

I suspect this is the way addiction goes but just need some reassurance does everyone think like this or am I insane?!!

[startingover]

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Oh you are not alone....
I was terrified of quitting, for years I battled with it.....
Your thinking is really telling you that you need to stop....

[autumn]

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Hi
The voices and conversations in my head used to dement me so badly that at one point I did seriously question my sanity. I think one of the reasons that I drank so heavily was to shut them up. Al used to make them go away!

The voices would start the second I woke up and not shut up until I got a drink, the sooner the better or it would nag me all day!

I used to have long chats in my head about it being my friend, I loved it, would miss it, etc. it was damn exhausting!

I think it was my 'drinking voice' doing every thing it could to keep me drinking. It fed me so many lies that I was scared of quitting. I now have to tell it to sod off on an hourly basis and refuse to be drawn into conversations with it, as it tells me lies!

[mario]

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mauritius dodo;1056073 wrote: I know I NEED to quit, I WANT to quit but at the back of my head there is this little voice saying 'yes but I LOVE to drink, why must I give it up?'

I suspect this is the way addiction goes but just need some reassurance does everyone think like this or am I insane?!!

Yep i still get the voices in me head saying your grand now, no problem you have it under control, and i say no way hosay never again,i no why i am here i no what alcohol done to me, never forget, but it is a constant battle which is/does get easier.

[Wagoneer]

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In the beginning while I would drive home that voice would get really loud....I wuold actually yell "SHUT UP!"...I'm sure the other drivers questioned my sanity. Moreso than usual! It wll eventually pass, although I hear the little bastard every so often still.

[autumn]

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Wagoneer;1056169 wrote: In the beginning while I would drive home that voice would get really loud....I wuold actually yell "SHUT UP!"...I'm sure the other drivers questioned my sanity. Moreso than usual! It wll eventually pass, although I hear the little bastard every so often still.

OMG, I thought it was just me that would literally yell at it to "shut up and get out of my head"!

[mauritiusdodo]

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LOL glad its not just me then!!

[Peacefull]

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I have that little voice which can be quit loud at times lol....that is the addiction talking to us and the longer we are af the quieter it will get.

I am just going to talk back to it as well as it is already rearing its ugly head and I am only on day 2....

[allswell]

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The book Rational Recovery refers to that annoying bastard as coming from the midbrain, that primitive area in the brain that has an insatiable appetite for basic human satisfaction. Even after 6 weeks of no alcohol I had a tsunami sized attack on Sunday but was able to tell the bastard to go sod itself.

[Charlotte's Web]

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Hi MD,

Yes, I've had those doubts too. Initially, I think we would all like to be normal drinkers - drink sometimes, know when to stop. I like the taste of a good white wine and I like the feeling after one or two glasses but I don't stop there. I stop after two bottles, when I can barely walk.

Now I'm getting some AF time under my belt, I am being to accept that being a normal drinker is not possible for me.

As for the AL voice / monster, I have sometimes rolled down my car window and brushed my shoulder as if brushing the monster out of the window!

[neworleansgal]

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I think there are many many voices that tell us all the time what we should and should not do and some of them are good. But some of them come from society's definitions of what is cool and acceptable and others of them come from emotional and physical cravings. If you put all three of those together, you get one powerful demon. The 'world' would have us believe that so many things are desirable and in fact necessary for a good life, commercials attest to that. I think that contributes to those voices.

So we are among those who choose to follow our own path and not that of the media and pop culture whose values tend to be skewed. (is that how you spell that?) Good morning everyone!

[Akasoto]

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[QUOTE=mauritiusdodo;1056073]this little voice saying 'yes but I LOVE to drink, why must I give it up?'

a "little" voice - you should be happy about that.

For me it was a big shouting.

Never give up.

[mauritiusdodo]

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Thanks everyone, the voice was shouting at me earlier but I ignored it, it is soooo hard though!!