At the time I kept telling myself that I didn?t have a problem because I only drank beer and I only drank at the weekends and on vacation. To me, a person with a problem drank whiskey/vodka in the morning time. How wrong was I!
After about 10 years I realized that I had a serious problem and that I had to stop. Stopping was very very hard, with many failed attempts. After about 11 years of drinking I started to get a pain in my right side after drinking. It was not too bad to begin with but eventually it got real bad. I was convinced that I damaged my liver with years of binge drinking. I even started to get itchy all over. I went to the doctor who sent me for tests but they could not find anything wrong. So, I thought, If it?s not my liver I might as well keep drinking. After another period of time and after another marathon beer session I woke up in real pain in my right side. I felt as if something was swollen inside my upper abdomen. This continued for a few days until I finally went back to the hospital. Once again I was tested for everything and nothing was found. I remember the doctor walking in and telling me that its was good news and that I didn?t have hepatitis, but I knew I was slowly poisoning myself. My body was screaming for mercy.
I got such a fright that day I said to myself never again. That was 2 years ago and I haven?t had a drink since. I didn?t go to AA , I just stopped. AA would not be for me. I did read Allan Carr?s book ?the easyway to give up drinking? . I knew that alcohol was destroying my health and I didn?t want to be in my early 30's with alcohol related liver damage. That was the key to my success - the thought of dying young. Every day I wake up feeling great, ready for another day on earth, glad I'm free of the poison.
When I gave it up I started running. I run about 6-7miles every day and I have lost so much weight. I now weigh 155lbs. I can run 10KM in under 40 minutes, I love to run ? it?s my new medicine. I also love to get up real early in the morning and watch the sunrise with a cup of fresh coffee. The sunrise was something I never saw for 14 years.
Life is so much better without alcohol. I sometimes go to a bar with friends and I drink water or Coke. I can see how alcohol is effecting other people in the Bar and I would feel for them. I feel like saying to them ?its ok, I know what you are going through and it can be beaten?
Sometime I dream at night that I still drink, I wake up and panic for a second and realize that it is only a dream. I?m free!
It can be done. Everybody?s circumstance is different but alcohol can be beaten. Allen Carr?s book helped me. Don?t be scared of life without alcohol, it is so much better without it. We only have one-shot of life on this planet.
I managed to overcome my alcohol addiction, hopefully my story can help others.
Eureka, I'm FREE
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