Today, even though I managed to overcome the urge to drink yesterday I feel sort of overwhelmed by feelings of worthlessness and regret. Not all the time, but the tears aren't far from the surface. What on earth have I done to myself?
I haven't lost anything through AL, not lost my job, my driving licence or my relationship with my DH or family, but still. It makes me so sad to think of all the times I was selfish and told lies to hide what was really going on. I feel as though I have wasted valuable time and not given 100% for so long, when others around me have put their heart and soul into it. I guess it's called regret.
Is this normal? Is it AL trying to make me chuck in my efforts to be free of it? Will it last?
Any help appreciated. I know I really don't want to drink, but how to cope with these feelings of being a fraud for so long?
Any thoughts or input from you good people would be greatly appreciated. I feel that the people here are the only people who can truly understand.
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