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[hillsidetime]

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Hey Spinning J, and welcome back. I am sorry to hear that you are not doing well. Like you say, you can do it. The first few days will be tough, but so worthwhile. Try to get some sleep, eat healthy and hydrate. Get some sober time under you so you can clear your mind. Hang in there,
Hill

[Dewdrop]

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Spinning I am so pleased to see you back, I was wondering about you and very nearly PM?d you, I wish I had. You were such a great support to me and many others when we started out. Okay you?ve had a relapse back to drinking but you know it has to stop and you are reaching out for help. You know the drill so get a few days AF under your belt and you?ll have a taste of the good life without alcohol which will give you the momentum to keep going. Go girl!

It isn?t easy and I was white knuckling it often and I know I am not out of the woods yet so I can?t be complacent, I sailed through Christmas and New Year with steely determination but then hit a bad period afterwards late Jan/early Feb when there were no celebrations or family gatherings My mood and mojo took a dive, you just never know when it?s going to hit you and my mantra is still ?one day at a time?. But it is so, so worth the effort, hang in there and get through the next few days, do whatever it takes.

Dewdrop :h

[Jolie]

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Spinning and DD - :welcome: back! I think most of us wish we could mod but if you look at most of our track records, it just doesn't seem to work for a lot of us.

Let MWO be your new best friend and ditch the AL! We are here for you guys!

Hope you have a great day!

[Doggygirl]

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Welcome back Spinning J! Moderate drinking didn't work for me either. What I finally accepted is that I cannot SAFELY drink, ever. I just never know when something really bad will happen if I pickup that first drink. So the safe bet for me is to stay AF. Hang in there through these first few days back on the wagon. If I can do it, and all these other people can do it, I know you can do it to.

DG

[here4hope]

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Spinning J, I only have 2 AF days yet it is good for me to read the relapse posts. I so can relate to the self loathing and guilt. I am seeing how everyone's input helps each of us in different ways. I am so greatful to have found this space/place/people ;-)

[Spinning J]

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Thank you for all the replies. Never been a daily drinker but binge every so often. It has become much less frequent over the last 2 years. I just need to get back on track. I got a bit of sleep! Hi here4hope! Hi Dew thanks for your concern. Don't feel so alone. DG its great that you post and help so many with your insight. I feel more positive.

[lil.michelle]

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Hi.
Welcome back.
You know you can do this.. 4 months was great... back on the wagoon.. there's plenty of room!!!

[witchywoman]

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welcome back Spinning
I havent had the greatest month, but I am not going to let that get me down, I am planing a "formal fearwell funneral" to AL on monday, I have an empty wine bottle & wee box shaped like a coffin so instead of talking about all the things i like about AL, its going to be all hte things I hate. then I a going to bury the wine bottle in its little coffin.

[mollyka]

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Nice idea Witchy! I like that!
SJ, like you, my drinking pattern although it became a daily habit towards the end, back when I was 'normally' drinking I would have been more a binge drinker really.
When I started this path my ideal (being completely honest here, never really admitted this fully even to myself) was to stay sober for maybe a month or two and then have a 'lovely little blowout' get the buzz, then pick up where I left off the next day -----right.
Both times I 'decided' to have my 'little blowout' were unadulterated disasters - not just for me, but my family as well. I had lost the knack (did I ever have it??) of drinking and ---just couldn't stop. HORRIBLE. The lies alcohol tell us are frightening cos they are so believeable, hope things are good today
Molly

[Spinning J]

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I think tomorrow will be better You are all so kind. Thats sounds good witchy ! Will check in tom. Just hope I can sleep. SJ

[Spinning J]

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Well I did sleep but I don't feel great now.

[mollyka]

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Keep with it girlie, it takes a few days - trust me! Great you were able to sleep, that'll stand to you. Be strong and hugs from here
Molly:l

[Spinning J]

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Thanks Molly getting there slowly

[anon]

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Spinning J;1066289 wrote: Well I did sleep but I don't feel great now.

Lovely to see you back. The sleep will sort itself out.:goodjob:

You were a great encouragement to me on those 30 day threads and I slipped many times before I got to here.
Keep on trucking and posting

[Spinning J]

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Hi anon and thanks!