I'm off to AA tonight to hopefully start sobriety again. I had 2 months AF last year with AA's help. They are confusing and I didn't understand a lot of the structure but hey, it worked for me. Also on meds to help me too.
I'm so sick (literally) of going on benders and waking at 2 in the morning feeling sick, anxious, guilty, self loathing only to stay awake til it's time to go to work and then be unproductive. The excess alcohol also has a terrible effect on my diagnosed anxiety disorder.
So why do I keep doing it? Block out the stresses of life? Numb the mind?
Wish me luck please people. I'll check in to let you know how I'm going. I feel like a failure for failing time and again. All I can do is perservere.
All the best to everyone with their efforts to stay AF.
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