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[Hippy Chick]

Six months off the booze, six months binging and back at rock bottom.

I need help, so I am back where I know I can get it.

Going to have a day off work today so I can stick close to you.

My name is Julie and I am an alcoholic.

[Lavande]

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I am so sorry HC!

But I am happy you decided to return to MWO - this place does work but you have to stay put!
Have you figured out what triggered your drinking? You need to know so you can adjust your plan & be prepared.

Drop in the Newbies Nest for more support - you know we all care :l
Wishing you the very best, PM me if you like.

Lav

[Hippy Chick]

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Thanks Lav. It's nice to see you are still around.

i think complacency and boredom triggered my relapse. I had brain washed myself into thinking that life was so much more fun with a drink in my hand. And to be honest, it was sometimes. But this is not fun, feeling like this physically and mentally. And I think I would rather not feel like this than enjoy that drink in my hand.

Am going to stick very close to MWO and try to convert one addiction into another (much healthier) one.

[mollyka]

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Hey Hipster - I'm so sorry you're havin a bad time, it's right scary how the 'beast' can work its way back into our lives. Look you're here, todays a new day, and once you're determined you can do all this again - no problem. Be prepared for the first few days being tricky, you just need to get the booze out of your system and before you know it you'll be back on track!
You've done the time before so you know you can do it. I know I'm like a broken record saying this, but sticking by this place has been the saving of me more times than I can count.
Drink the water - lots of it today and just concentrate on yourself - to hell with housework or dinners or anything else you feel you should do - that's what take-outs are for
I'm so glad you came back - we'll batter you into submission:hitme:
Seriously Jules, use this as a wake up call - we all think at sometime we can just have a few - I can't do it either cos I too am an alcoholic! Sending you tons of hugs:l:l:l
Molly

[Hippy Chick]

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Thanks Molly. I am ready for a good battering. I need it - to get the truth into this thick head of mine!
(You're up late!). x

[mollyka]

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Too frigging late - keep going to log off and then aaahhh another quick peek! Am off now tho and keep the oul pecker up y'hear:h
I'll be checkin on you tomorrow - you don't want to mess with this girl:H

[nicelife]

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Hi HC, I'm back after being 6 years AF! I don't know what triggered my first drink. I put it down to believing I could moderate/tame the beast/be strong enough to be in control of a substance which totally consumes me..... I've managed to be most days AF and on the days I have weakened I've managed to moderate. Well, moderate for me, which is still way too much. I can't drink - simple! I don't even like to drink!!! I hate what it makes me, and hate the way I feel before, during and after. Hang in there and take one day at a time. My son got a huge tattoo on his collar bone which says just that "one day at a time". I went mental when he came home with it but I often use the phrase. I also admitted to myself that I have no control whatsoever once I have that first sip. SO, for me, best not to go there huh? I lurk a lot - gives me such comfort and courage! Hugs

[akgirl]

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Hi HC,

Good for you to come back, this place is awesome. So do you have a plan....how did you get AF last time....6 months is great btw.

If ya did it once you can do it again.

Im like you, I thought everything was better with a drink....housework, dinner....eventually breakfast LOL

I bought myself a charm bracelett.....I'm going to get a new charm for every week sober. I wanted an incentive. Now everytime I look at my wrist I am reminded I don't want to drink.

Stay strong :l

[Hippy Chick]

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Thanks Ceslie and AK. It's great to know that there is a place where we can go for help. People who know exactly what we are feeling.
I plan to take one day at a time at the moment, one hour, one minute.... and stick close to MWO today. Maybe I need a tattoo or something to remind me that I cant drink! Something permenant to constantly remind me so when I get complacent I will remember. No, maybe a charm bracelet would be a better idea.
Thanks for your support. HC

[Pyes]

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6 months WOW thats great wishing you all the best Hippy
Pyes xx

[Hippy Chick]

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Thanks Pyes. Aiming to surpass six months this time.... one step at a time of course!

[dancingon]

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Get back on, Hippy.
I don't know why we have to test ourselves, but we do.
I've been moderating this month too, and in control, but you are always borderline in that you're not sure why you feel the need to drink again when you don't particularly enjoy it anymore, so is that control? Awkward. I have decided I feel better AF. My kids say I'm more fun AF (which shows that even a drink or two has an effect). I have more money AF. I lose weight AF.

[Hippy Chick]

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Hi Dancingon.

There is so much more going for being AF. I have put on four kilos since taking up the booze again. Mainly because I am too hungover to get on the treadmill or go to the gym!
Nice to see you still around. You're not in Christchurch are you?
HC

[mollyka]

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Hey Hipster!! How'ya doin today?

[leaveinsilence]

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Hippy Chick;1082072 wrote: Thanks Ceslie and AK. It's great to know that there is a place where we can go for help. People who know exactly what we are feeling.
I plan to take one day at a time at the moment, one hour, one minute.... and stick close to MWO today. Maybe I need a tattoo or something to remind me that I cant drink! Something permenant to constantly remind me so when I get complacent I will remember. No, maybe a charm bracelet would be a better idea.
Thanks for your support. HC

Charm bracelet would be a wonderful idea, I've wondered about doing something like that, at the moment I am putting a percentage of what I would have spent away and I'm planning on getting a small tattoo done to remind me of the reasons I can't drink after I make my first 6 months sober....