of JOY!!
I wanted to write a post of encouragement to anyone starting or thinking of starting out on the AF road.
Today I am 90 days AF and I cried tears of happiness this evening when I realized that when my best friend dropped me home today and i invited him in for a cup of tea, that NOT ONE THOUGHT of drinking crossed my mind. It was witching hour, the end of a busy day etc etc...many reasons to be triggered but it genuinely didn't even occur to me. I was looking forward to the cup of tea.
(You can't take the Brit out of me!)
A year or two ago, I came across this video on You Tube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=REIF9R4Y60o[/video]]YouTube - How I Quit Smoking and Drinking (search for 'How I quit smoking and drinking" if the link doesnt work) and I watched it a number of times.
One thing that really stuck out for me was when he says that to start with he was obsessed with thoughts of drinking and he thought it was his 'punishment' for being so addicted. And then one day, the obsessive thoughts just went away completely.
I personally have felt that frustration of thinking about it so much that you think you may as well just do it again but his comment has been in my mind all this time. I do still think about drinking every day but it's in a completely different way and today it hit home that I'm just not having the old cravings I used to. It's such an huge relief.
So if you're feeling doubtful or p*ssed off that alcohol still seems to be occupying a lot of brain space even though you've quit, I strongly encourage you to keep going because it really does get better.
Without wanting to come across as overly 'fairytale', I've never been happier since going AF, life is brighter and better in every single way and I am so thankful to have it back!
Bon courage all :h
Bean
PS And for anyone wondering what exactly my consumption was like - for the last 2 years I was sneaking drinks from my cupboard any time I drank socially, spiking my own beers with vodka, stealing alcohol from roommates, regularly consuming 1-2L wine or 1/2 bottle of vodka and at the very end I was drinking in the mornings. *shudders at the memory*
I wanted to write a post of encouragement to anyone starting or thinking of starting out on the AF road.
Today I am 90 days AF and I cried tears of happiness this evening when I realized that when my best friend dropped me home today and i invited him in for a cup of tea, that NOT ONE THOUGHT of drinking crossed my mind. It was witching hour, the end of a busy day etc etc...many reasons to be triggered but it genuinely didn't even occur to me. I was looking forward to the cup of tea.
(You can't take the Brit out of me!)A year or two ago, I came across this video on You Tube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=REIF9R4Y60o[/video]]YouTube - How I Quit Smoking and Drinking (search for 'How I quit smoking and drinking" if the link doesnt work) and I watched it a number of times.
One thing that really stuck out for me was when he says that to start with he was obsessed with thoughts of drinking and he thought it was his 'punishment' for being so addicted. And then one day, the obsessive thoughts just went away completely.
I personally have felt that frustration of thinking about it so much that you think you may as well just do it again but his comment has been in my mind all this time. I do still think about drinking every day but it's in a completely different way and today it hit home that I'm just not having the old cravings I used to. It's such an huge relief.
So if you're feeling doubtful or p*ssed off that alcohol still seems to be occupying a lot of brain space even though you've quit, I strongly encourage you to keep going because it really does get better.
Without wanting to come across as overly 'fairytale', I've never been happier since going AF, life is brighter and better in every single way and I am so thankful to have it back!
Bon courage all :h
Bean
PS And for anyone wondering what exactly my consumption was like - for the last 2 years I was sneaking drinks from my cupboard any time I drank socially, spiking my own beers with vodka, stealing alcohol from roommates, regularly consuming 1-2L wine or 1/2 bottle of vodka and at the very end I was drinking in the mornings. *shudders at the memory*
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