Alcohol runs in the family; like any doctor would say, it's heridetary. Yet when I got older and started a family of my own, had a good job, until I establish my own business, I found drinkinng as part of everyday social dealing when I'm out in the business world.
A year ago, I terminated my business relationship with a partner; the company I established closed and my drinking habit progressed.
I wanted to get out of it; had three rounds of recovery program, this all end up unsuccessful. Recently, to get out of the "rot" and my unexplainable mood swing, I 'd attend a "lunch meeting" and listen to stories which I put myself into any of the stories told as the person.
Until one day, I happened to get into the website that send out messages for people like me that needed help. And thru this website , I happened to click into a line and end up opening this website, MWO.
Immediately, that evening I surffed broadly, until I get so tired and today is my second day to continue my search of finding my way out.
I'm in my early seventies and people mistook me in my sixties. I'm married (my second) to (a career woman, who's a christian, a clean human being, both physically and spiritually). With my condition, it's affecting her seriously; on top of that, it's affecting our relationship. My wife supports me in every way she can, despite "countless" falls in the house and " other accidents". Her wining, confrontation and argument doesn't mean anything at all; I believe, because what I'm doing (drinking) is just around the clock. I listen to hear day in and day out and everything I hear is just out of one ear and goes out of the other.
This is just a part of my daily "ordeal" and my wife is begging me to seek help. I feel I'm at the last thread of my life, because I feel like killing myself at times. My wife keep telling me to seek the help of God (at moments of craving and drink water instead of soda, when I'm out of "booze).
I realize this a "real struggle" , but I'm still hopeful I can find "my way out".
A year ago, I terminated my business relationship with a partner; the company I established closed and my drinking habit progressed.
I wanted to get out of it; had three rounds of recovery program, this all end up unsuccessful. Recently, to get out of the "rot" and my unexplainable mood swing, I 'd attend a "lunch meeting" and listen to stories which I put myself into any of the stories told as the person.
Until one day, I happened to get into the website that send out messages for people like me that needed help. And thru this website , I happened to click into a line and end up opening this website, MWO.
Immediately, that evening I surffed broadly, until I get so tired and today is my second day to continue my search of finding my way out.
I'm in my early seventies and people mistook me in my sixties. I'm married (my second) to (a career woman, who's a christian, a clean human being, both physically and spiritually). With my condition, it's affecting her seriously; on top of that, it's affecting our relationship. My wife supports me in every way she can, despite "countless" falls in the house and " other accidents". Her wining, confrontation and argument doesn't mean anything at all; I believe, because what I'm doing (drinking) is just around the clock. I listen to hear day in and day out and everything I hear is just out of one ear and goes out of the other.
This is just a part of my daily "ordeal" and my wife is begging me to seek help. I feel I'm at the last thread of my life, because I feel like killing myself at times. My wife keep telling me to seek the help of God (at moments of craving and drink water instead of soda, when I'm out of "booze).
I realize this a "real struggle" , but I'm still hopeful I can find "my way out".
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