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[capable]

I am so tired of fighting this addiction! My husband wants to send me to rehab.....I just got a new job and don't want to lose it OR have to tell my new boss that I have to leave to go to rehab because I am a drunk. I must do something though, or my marriage will be over and I DO NOT want that. The embarrassing things that I have done....my oh my. The hangovers the weight gain, the feeling like crap all the time. I am so sick of it all and I just want it to go away! Thanks for letting me vent!

[Jolie]

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Capable - Sending you a big hug :l

I think when you get to the point of just being so sick and tired of the vicious circle AL has on your life, you may be ready to really do something about it. Only you can decide whether or not to go to rehab but try thinking long term and how being AF could affect the rest of your life. Sure, there might be some embarassment for the short term but being addicted to alcohol is nothing to be ashamed of. None of us ever started drinking with the intent of becoming an alcoholic. Try doing some really deep soul searching and know that all of us here are here to support you no matter what you decide.

[mylife]

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Hi Capable,

So sorry to hear you are going through all this pain. I have to agree with Jolie that the short term embarassment might be worth the long term gain you get from achieving sobriety. I have met some fantastic women who changed their lives by going to a 30-day program. Whatever you decide is right for you, we are here to support you.

Sending you strength and hugs!

[Doggygirl]

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Capable, I can relate to so much in your post. I ended up walking away from my last corporate job. My boss was "onto me" and me drinking on company time. In retrospect, I wish I had taken advantage of rehab. I wish I would have made the choice to stay or go with a sober head on my shoulders.

I know that going forward in my life, my sobriety has to be my #1 priority each and every day. At first, that was lots of really hard work. Now it's just a simple reminder to myself, along with a few daily actions that take far less time and energy than drinking ever did. But without my sobriety, it all goes back down the tubes.

I hope you decide to put your sobriety first. The rest of the stuff can all get better then.

DG

[Lavande]

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Capable,

Glad you found us! I felt very much like you when I first arrived but that's all changed!
We all start by getting just one AF day under our belts then go for another. Pretty soon the darkness lifts & you begin to see the light

Give yourself a chance to succeed! Go to the Health store here & download the MWO book. It explains the program & the steps you need to take. That's what I did & have been free of alcohol for two years - you can do it too!

Wishing you the best!

Lav

[dancingon]

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You have some good reasons to stop. How about asking your husband to support you in trying it yourself the MWO way first? Can you go to your GP and ask for meds?
You could set a date by which if you have not succeeded you will agree to go to rehab and that might also act as a motivation to stay AF. If you see that red ringed date looming you might think twice about having the drink you crave.