I have currently been a horrific binger for the past 5 or 6 years.
Basically Self Medicating when feeling low and lonely etc. Although i expect that is what most of us do.
Mine escalates out of control to the point where i self harm and become suicidal. End up in a mental hospital on Detox and therapy. Its a vicious circle, i think i can go back to controlled drinking but it never happens. Although it seems in my life everything i touch turns to rat crap.
I only just finished with a girl I was seeing after about 4 months. We no longer speak really, I still miss her, after we split it was awful. I was drinking/binging just to knock myself out, eventually again i would get suicidal. I still miss her, but I think its worse just because we dont speak anymore.
I will probably post more about how i started binging and over indulging from about 2006. But for now its just to say Hi and ive read some sobering threads already on here.
Ive was on Antabuse for about 4 or 5 days but the script has run out now. Its been just over a week since my last tablet to naturally im thinking of cracking a couple of cans open tonight to chill out.
Bloody royal wedding made me think of the ex. Its all I thought about yesturday :upset:
Thanks for listening
Stu
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