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[rosyreal]

sitting here after work with a beer. don't want it. not craving it. doesn't taste good but my brain says i have to have it. not even affecting me anymore due to medication. how am I gonna make this stop? money I don't have. calories i can't afford. guilt i can't live with.

meetings, rehabs, countless losses...at this stage none of that is at issue. just this relentless compulsion to continue a behavior that no longer even serves me.

i wonder if i want to talk again if i start a new thread or just add on to the old one. i want to blog cause i love to write but don't know how. i think it might help.

[Doggygirl]

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Rosy, this is a great place to write about your journey if you feel it helps you. Have you considered making a written plan for how you will sober up? Have you read the My Way Out book? That's where I started. The Toolbox Thread in the Monthly Abstinence section is also full of good wisdom.

Strength and hope to you,

DG

[Margaret345]

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rosyreal;1116233 wrote: sitting here after work with a beer. don't want it. not craving it. doesn't taste good but my brain says i have to have it. not even affecting me anymore due to medication. how am I gonna make this stop? money I don't have. calories i can't afford. guilt i can't live with.

meetings, rehabs, countless losses...at this stage none of that is at issue. just this relentless compulsion to continue a behavior that no longer even serves me.

Replace beer with wine and I could own this quote. I'm sitting here and my brain says I have to have a glass. I'ts crazy.

Keep writing. It can only help give you insight and perspective.

[sunshinetoday]

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Hi Rosy,
You can start a new thread or just keep posting on this one. I've been there too, many times. Glad you're around. Read, lurk, write, whatever suits you, and hope it helps you.