BzzBee62 - Progress Thread

[BzzBee62]

Hi everybody,

Here I am again, hopefully 3rd time lucky or at least better than my first two tries. I want to get off the sauce to a point where I no longer think of drinking as a pastime. I should really be taking medication which does not allow for drinking (increased risk of liver damage), so I've been putting it off for ages... But I want to get better, and if that means no drinking, I want to go for it. Also, I cannot stand the thought of drinking every day for the next x number of years.

So, day 1 today, and one-day-at-a-time for now.

Bzz.

[Barbara1234]

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Risk of Liver damage if you drink, or risk Liver damage if you take meds......either way.
Get yourself some milk thistle and force yourself to remember to take it.

Congrats on your day 1!

[BzzBee62]

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Ending day 1

Thanks Barbara!

I'm ending day 1, and even though I haven't had any real cravings for alcohol, I have had several moments of anxiety. I know logically that I want to stop drinking, but emotionally I'm going from the strength of knowing I can make it, to a strange sense of despair for no apparent reason. Hopefully tomorrow I will feel a bit more stable.

[Barbara1234]

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Stay on the site, and go to Newbies Nest. That's where I get my strength from. You've been here before so you know what to do!!!!

[KateH1]

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Bee,
Liver damage is only one of the miriad of health issues caused by excessive drinking. Glad to hear that you are ready to tackle this issue. Have you written out your plan for how you are going to take some AF time? The MWO strongly suggests going at least 30 days alcohol free prior to attempting to moderate, if moderating is your goal.

You will find lots of ideas in "The Toolbox" thread that can help! I also highly recomend reading the "My Way Out" book.....I got a lot out of that book in the beginning! You can download the book here.

Well done on day 1....best wishes to you!
Kate

[BzzBee62]

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End day 2

Thanks to both of you.

Kate, I purchased the hardcopy MWO book, although I've not read all of it yet. For now, I'm just going one day at a time, but the goal is to go long-term without drinking, or at least without repetitive daily drinking.

At the end of day 2 I felt less nervous than on day 1, having less moments of anxiety/depression. My mind is strong for now, having gone over and over the reasons I want to stop for several months now. I never did enjoy being drunk.

[Barbara1234]

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:happy: Well done Bzzzz!!!

[BzzBee62]

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Barbara1234;1123113 wrote: :happy: Well done Bzzzz!!!

Thanks very much Barbara.

[BzzBee62]

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Mid-way through day three. Feeling fine, except I don't like counting off days, especially when it feels like I've only just stopped... Would be good if I could magically have some more time behind me, but I can't. Guess I'll just have to be ok with days for now.

[Barbara1234]

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BzzBee62;1123420 wrote: Mid-way through day three. Feeling fine, except I don't like counting off days, especially when it feels like I've only just stopped... Would be good if I could magically have some more time behind me, but I can't. Guess I'll just have to be ok with days for now.

I keep reading the book and doing the CD's. I'm taking campral which eases the cravings, but I know one day the doc is going to stop the script. I am writing out a plan from the tool box because Fri. night I had the scare of my life at day 6.
The beast was whispering to me that 'it's a holiday weekend :yay: let's get some vodka, no one will know, and after all everyone is drinking this weekend........"
I almost gave in. I know I would have if I had not found this site...I absolutely would have bought some vodka, but I didn't because of all the posts I had read the previous 5 days from here. The things people said after relapsing after 3-5 days and how horrible they felt, the guilt and depression. That was enough for me to overpower the craving. It was no small craving, I promise you that.
Today is my day 10. There is nothing wrong with counting days, they turn into months then years and that is what we are going to do. Just remember to do the work to always be a step ahead of the beast because for me it is the same as the devil, just waiting for me to f*** up, and that just pisses me off!

[BzzBee62]

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Well done on reaching day 10 Barbara!

I'm going cold turkey, same way as I gave up smoking 40-50 a day almost 7 months ago. So far, so good. I have my kids over for the weekend so that should keep me busy.

Closing out day 3 now. No real cravings, but feeling a bit lethargic at times.

[scottish lass]

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closing out day 3 too - well done to both of us. Sadly kids go to their dads on Friday, so this weekend will be tough - will hang out here a lot for support, and hopefully I can keep up with you Bzzzz!

[BzzBee62]

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Hi Scottish Lass,

Great to hear you were on day 3 too, well done!

I'm now halfway through day 4. We have a national holiday tomorrow (Thursday), and I took Friday off, so it's a 4 day weekend, yaaaay! I'm picking up my kids tomorrow afternoon already, but honestly it's never stopped me drinking before (not before or while driving them of course). I've had times when I drove them back home and could hardly remember having really been with them; I guess I wasn't :-(

Still no big cravings, but still feeling somewhat fuzzy headed.

Let's all hang in there and get another AF day under the belt!

[mario]

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Hi buzz bee 62, Well done on your day 4,good going, But you have to prepare yourself for them cravings as they will come, Have you got yourself a plan sorted out yet ?,its a must. there is a toolbox in the monthly abstinence thread check it out,keep posting and reading here it all will help, :-)

[Barbara1234]

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Hi Bzzz, Scottish Lass,

Great job you guys going on day 4. No cravings??? What the Bzzzzz????? You're lucky.

Hi Mario, over 2 yrs. quite impressive indeed. What's your secret?