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    JUST STARTING OUT AGAIN

    I tried this a month or so ago and made it 6 days, then convinced myself that I could handle it. Well I can't! And again I'm really scared. I don't feel I can talk to a Dr. I don't feel I can talk to anyone really. I know that I'm hurting my body bad and I really don't want to I just don't know how to make this stop. I could really use some help and support.

    Right now I'm drinking so much I'm afraid of withdrawal and so I'm trying to wean myself off. But I'm not doing a very good job. Please if anyone can give me advice on how to do this without the perscription drugs and without admitting myself to detox. I'm close to loosing my job already and I can't take anymore time off.

    I feel like a pathetic loser for not being able to handle this. Any help at all...i'm desperate!

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    I do not have any advice but I am in the same position where once again I have to recognize I can't control my drinking and that if I don't stop I will be dead....I am reading a lot about stopping, eating a lot of sugar and praying that I can make it through the next couple of hours...that's all I got, any tips you can give me are appreciated as well but maybe we resign ourselves that the next couple of days are going to suck/hurt and then it gets better...hopefully.

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      #3
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      CW....Thanks for the quick reply....sounds like we're in the same boat. I've made it 3 1/2 hours and it's brutal.....I called in sick yesterday and today...and have been trying to wean down, but then my heart starts racing and I get really scared. So I pour a shot. Right now I'm bawling my eyes out. I have to go back to work tomorrow or i'll be in serious trouble but I'm not sure how I'm going to make it.

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        #4
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        Spunky & clockwatcher hi & welcome to mwo,

        You need to put a goal and most importantly a plan in place for yourselves,There is a toolbox in the monthly abstinence forum I would advise check it out,Keep posting your feelings and thoughts here as we all know what you are going through,good luck and dont quit quitting.


        :congratulatory: Clean & Sober since 13/01/2009 :congratulatory:

        Until one is committed there is always hesitant thoughts.
        I know enough to know that I don't know enough.

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          #5
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          Hi Spunky, Do what Mario says. He is a wealth of information. I would also find and read through some of his old posts. Very insightful and helpful. Also, How did you feel after you went 6 days AF last month? If you survived it OK, chances are you can do it again without detox or medication. If I were you, I wouldn't be too concerned about withdrawals. Hang in there, you too Clockwatcher.

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            #6
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            Thanks, will do.

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              #7
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              Thanks to everyone thats written. I felt and am feeling very anxious, sweaty (although it is very hot in my house right now), dizzy but after a few days pretty good. At which point I talked myself (with help from my husband) into thinking I can handle it I've tried talking to family but no one seems to believe that things are as bad as they are. I think my husband may now but doesn't want to admit it. I'm not really afraid of what life will be like without alcohol because I know it'll be a heck of a lot better than it is now. I'm afraid of how bad I feel at the moment and what I'm doing to myself my husband and kids because I cant stop.

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                SPUNKY;1124024 wrote: Thanks to everyone that's written. I felt and am feeling very anxious, sweaty (although it is very hot in my house right now), dizzy but after a few days pretty good. At which point I talked myself (with help from my husband) into thinking I can handle it I've tried talking to family but no one seems to believe that things are as bad as they are. I think my husband may now but doesn't want to admit it. I'm not really afraid of what life will be like without alcohol because I know it'll be a heck of a lot better than it is now. I'm afraid of how bad I feel at the moment and what I'm doing to myself my husband and kids because I cant stop.
                These feelings are to be expected spunky,there are many posts here about withdrawals from alcohol,

                Unfortunately its very hard for people who dont abuse alcohol to know what its like to go through withdrawals etc etc,That's why its a must you keep posting and reading here as we all know what your going through,dont give up as believe me it will slowly get easier:goodjob:


                :congratulatory: Clean & Sober since 13/01/2009 :congratulatory:

                Until one is committed there is always hesitant thoughts.
                I know enough to know that I don't know enough.

                This signature has been typed in front of a live studio audience.

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                  #9
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                  Back here to in the same situation feeling pretty much like you ...so tired of this
                  Growth means change and change involves risk, stepping from the know to the unknown."
                  Author Unknown :h

                  AF - Sept 4, 2012
                  10 days - Sept 13, 2012
                  2 weeks - Sept 17, 2012
                  Slip on the weekend but tried too moderate!
                  AF - Sept 24, 2012 (get back on the headaches not worth it)
                  Slippery slope Oct 1 ..... Trying to not give up!


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                    Dear Spunky:
                    I am so sorry you are having to suffer through this
                    I suspect some of your upsetness is do to the job. I don't know where you live or if you're up to it but I believe people with our problems are covered under Americans with Disablities Act (ADA) and can not be fired if we speak with our employer/attend a program... I don't know details and of course, consult an attoneny before you 'do' anything but action is always power and of course..something to do other than watch reruns while you're not feeling to good Here for you...
                    On My Own Way Out Since May 20, 2012
                    *If you think poorly of yourself, you can fail with a clear conscience.
                    https://www.mywayout.org/community/f11/tool-box-27556.html tool box
                    https://www.mywayout.org/community/f19/newbies-nest-30074.html newbie nest

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                      Welcome back Spunky,

                      You've made the right choice to take back control of your life now.
                      Detoxing can be dangerous for some people, you should not do this alone. Do you have someone available to help you & watch over you?

                      Thinking of safety - it would be a good idea to talk to a Doc first, despite your reservations. You could be prescribed something to take for a few days at least until AL is out of your system. Having someone by your side to watch for possible seizures & prevent dehydration is important.

                      Look in the https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html for ideas to help you make your plan.

                      Please be safe!

                      Lav
                      AF since 03/26/09
                      NF since 05/19/09
                      Success comes one day at a time :thumbs:

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                        Well I've been hanging out here all day plus browsing other sites. I'm just so embarassed/ashamed that it's hard for me to talk about this face to face with someone. Like I said, I've tried talking to my husband but he just doesn't know what to say or do. I talked to my sister finally on Monday and we agreed that she would quit smoking if I would quit drinking. Which is a plan I really like, but we haven't talked since. I guess right now I'm working on reducing my intake (drastically) until I have quit completely, while trying to avoid the more extreem withdrawals. I just need to develope a strategy and the will power quit after one.

                        I just need all the help and suggestions I can get. I don't know if what I'm feeling is mild withdrawal or if it's a major medical concern. I am still very anxious and jittery, slightly elevated heartrate (90-95 bpm) and a little tightness in my chest. I know that these will go away eventually and I can't wait for the day that I'm out from under this...it's ruining my life!

                        Update: So today I've had 3 small drinks and am determined to make it to bed time with no more than one more. Then hopefully I won't have to bad w/d before going back to work. Tommorrow down to 3 between after work and bed. This is the first plan with any structure that I put in writing. Thurs, Fri, Sat I work...Sunday will be tough!

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                          #13
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                          HI spunky,
                          Weaning off is good to help with the withdrawal. I didn't do it but wish I had. All those scary feeling will start to disappear and you will go back to feeling good, it just takes time. I recommend using what you think will help you. Posting here is great help for myself, the toolbox is great, I love L Glut. I ate a lot of sugar starting this journey. I did not use meds or much else, but like I said, find what works for you. The support here is wonderful. Wish you well.

                          Ive learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends on our dispositions and not on our circumstances. -Martha Washington

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                            #14
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                            Thanks for the encouragement....still looking at a minute at a time....figured I'd do some cleaning. Something I've neglect for ages, theres enough to occupy me for hours. I actually got a lot more accomplished that I thought I would be able to. It's amazing what you can accomplish when not drunk. And I feel like I sweat out a bucket of toxins. So day one, not completely AL free. But I met my goal and feel better than I hoped! Thanks again for all the support...please stay with me.

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                              Hi Spunky, congrats on a better day than yesterday, minute to minute is better than I was yesterday, not drunk today and less than 70 minutes left in the day...winning....I also realized my apartment was a mess, someone must have come in and trashed the place while I was trashed.....I am sweating out a brewery, scared about tomorrow and not physically doing so well but still not drunk and that's as good as it can be right now.....you are right it is amazing what you can accomplish when not drunk,,,good luck with tomorrow to all

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