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[Mia]

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Hi Spunky and Clockwatcher!! The only advise I can give is stay here and post post, read and read. Pour everything out. Listen to all the people that have been here a long time. They have so much to offer. Im here for you both. I'm, going into my 7th day sober. If I can do it anyone can. Being AL free has sooooo much to offer. Look foward to hear from you xxxxxxxxx

[SPUNKY]

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Just got home from work and am pooped! Only got two fractured hours of sleep last night and I have to get up at 4:30am. It was a rough morning, to say the least. I did not have my AM pick me up like I have having been resorting to lately and was worried that withdrawal symptoms would give me problems at work. Aside from dragging my butt all day it wasn't to bad. A couple off times I started having the nasty cold sweats but they didn't take hold. Luckily I have a very active, busy job so I'm pretty distracted.

Since my plan is to wean myself of AL to reduce some of the withdrawal symptoms, I'm actually exceeding my goal for the day - - No AL yet, Yippee! I'm worried that withdrawal is giving me more incentive to quit, because I hate this feeling. And then when I've proven I can do it and am through the worst, I'll start telling myself that I can handle moderation. I've repeatedly proven that I can't so I have to get the tools to keep me from giving into the beast within.

Man this is hard, but I know It'll be so worth it when I make it! (I'm trying to using strong positived words like "when" instead of "if"...tha's my first tool)

I"m going to try and take a little nap...do more lurking later....Thanks so much for all the support!

[Atl_guy]

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Going through thing Spunky

How are doing so far? I am on my phone and will fill in details of my story a bit later today.

Please let me know about withdrawals after weaning off...

It was great to read your story as I'm trying not drink during the day if I can avoid it


-Atl_guy

[Atl_guy]

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Sorry for the abbreviated message above I was enjoying a walk and thinking about having a drink - but I stopped and read your post instead Now I am back home and on a normal machine...

I had been heavily drinking (again) pretty much everyday for a month or more and I must, must stop for my health, my family and my job...

I had been drinking heavily for a year or more and kind of left town for a bit to clear my head and get clean... That had been going well - Then I started having a beer or two after work - then a bottle of wine and a beer - then whiskey - and was doing OK - i would not finish the wine or whiskey in a single go - but started having the morning pick me up again - and I was off drinking heavily daily for a month or more again ... I thankfully was able to work from home and I have this week to clear up and be bright, shiny, smiley and sober - or I will not have a job!

Last week I decided to start tapering after a bad bought of AW going cold turkey - I did OK first couple of days, then had a couple of bad days - I have been kind of on track I think the last couple of days - but the sleeplessness is killing me - I didn't sleep at all last night - and only a couple of hours the night before ...

my tapering schedule has been fairly effective - more so at night than in the morning for me - oddly enough. "Yesterday" - I drank 13 fairly low alcohol beers - and that seems like a lot but I was tapering from 3am wed until 6am today, but I feel pretty good now and its been 5 hours so far!

how many days did you end up tapering for? are you still on track?

Thanks again for posting and sharing - that bought me at least another hour I am going to go as long as I can stand and with any luck after 24-36 of pretty gentle tapering (about 1 beer every 1-2 hours or less) I can just not drink again for at least the rest of the day


I also wanted to comment on the AW and racing heart ... A lot of that can be alleviated mentally - slow breathing - meditation - nice relaxing mood - don't let the anxiety get to you! And I know, it's so intertwined - feel bad - can't sleep because of the anxiety - which causes more anxiety - then you start reading into how bad you feel too much - and then the addiction comes in and says - just have another one .... UGH!!


Does that all make sense? Or am I still loaded?

[Muppett]

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Gidday, I've been taking large doses of Vitamin B and C and drinking lots of water. Seems to be working. Like you I was terrified of withdrawal symptoms, but have been surprised at how mild they are. Sleeplessness is my biggest problem, but I figure I have to let time pass and my body will sleep when it needs to.
Don't give up.
Kia Kaha (Maori for "stay strong"

[bella1976]

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how much are you drinking?

i hope you are feeling a bit better, if it's really heavy drinking you have got to be very careful, i think the drugs are safer to use. don't be afraid to go to your doctor, they are supposed to help you, i had to change mine as she wouldn't acknowledge alcoholism due to her cultural beliefs, the cow wouldn't prescribe detox for me and i carried on drinking for 7 months until i swopped docs and they gave it to me straight away. after that i was sober for 8 months using just willpower, i really thought i would never have a drink again but have relapsed this last month, i don't even know WHY ive relapsed, have been feeling riddled with guilt and disgust at myself but have got myself help and am back on the wagon. i was in a terrible mental state but am using the limited amount of diazepam the doc gave me, gradually cutting them down and eating for england and taking my vitamins. i really hope you go see your doc, even if you don't want to take drugs he might be able to refer you on to other agencies who will support you. x:new:

[Flossie]

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Hi Bella

Welcome to MWO :welcome:

I`m glad you found us and we will all try and help you as much we can.

Prehaps you may wish to introduce yourself on the Just Starting Out thread or join in the Newbies nest.

It sounds like you are ready to give up AL and have a plan so good luck and don`t forget to keep reading and posting as much as you can.

Luv Flo x

[Muppett]

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How you doing?