Hello.
It's Thursday afternoon and I am sitting here finishing a 40 of Mangum malt liquor, and there's 9 cans of Ice beer in the fridge. Tomorrow, I will have 5 beers in the fridge; a few days ago I may have had 40, or more. Saturday I will have 3. Sunday, 1 (and also I won't take my vitamins with it in the morning...), Monday, none..
I just paid $95 for an "extended office visit" with my doctor, and $160 for a month's supply of Campral. It was this site, and another one like it, that gave me the confidence to use this tool to quit the beer. A few other sites confirmed for me that this is another option besides the 3 commonly known ones: "cold turkey", an Antabuse "Clockwork Orange" vomitorium, or with a "God is my Dogma" set of stepping stones. I am an atheist, Alex was "cured" in the film and I don't think I can just stop myself.
I have been drinking since before I was 18 (it was once legal at18) and got to the point where I was perfectly normal (!) after a few big glasses of quad-shots of Everclear and cola or 50-50 vodkas and juice. I quit the spirits a few months ago when I found a $6 plastic flask of vodka was gone in a day. I quit the occasional alternate 2 bottles of wine in an evening soon thereafter.
Recently, I realized that I was buying 2 cases of beer a week and a few 40's of Colt45. I caught myself chuckling this week when the trash-men tossed the bags into the truck and it sounded like a aluminum can recycle bin...
I have never made an effort to stop before; I have gone a few days without a beer. Maybe a few years ago, a week or two. I haven't DUI'd or passed out or had any other incidents, but I have puked warm wine out my nose a few times over the years...
I also just finished a long relationship with my girlfriend who has a young daughter who adores me, and I will be moving to a bigger town when my lease runs out in mid-July. Oh, and I am still unemployed, and watching my reserves drain fast. I guess I picked a bad time to quit drinking, eh?
But I have to stop drinking. Medically and mentally it's just not a good thing, and of course it's money going out that I am not currently replacing (yes, the pills will be about as much as I was spending on beer). However, I believe that in a month or so I'll have a new place to live, a new girl to love, a new job and a healthier mind and body.
Thank you for the chance to vent, and any words of wisdom are welcome.
It's Thursday afternoon and I am sitting here finishing a 40 of Mangum malt liquor, and there's 9 cans of Ice beer in the fridge. Tomorrow, I will have 5 beers in the fridge; a few days ago I may have had 40, or more. Saturday I will have 3. Sunday, 1 (and also I won't take my vitamins with it in the morning...), Monday, none..
I just paid $95 for an "extended office visit" with my doctor, and $160 for a month's supply of Campral. It was this site, and another one like it, that gave me the confidence to use this tool to quit the beer. A few other sites confirmed for me that this is another option besides the 3 commonly known ones: "cold turkey", an Antabuse "Clockwork Orange" vomitorium, or with a "God is my Dogma" set of stepping stones. I am an atheist, Alex was "cured" in the film and I don't think I can just stop myself.
I have been drinking since before I was 18 (it was once legal at18) and got to the point where I was perfectly normal (!) after a few big glasses of quad-shots of Everclear and cola or 50-50 vodkas and juice. I quit the spirits a few months ago when I found a $6 plastic flask of vodka was gone in a day. I quit the occasional alternate 2 bottles of wine in an evening soon thereafter.
Recently, I realized that I was buying 2 cases of beer a week and a few 40's of Colt45. I caught myself chuckling this week when the trash-men tossed the bags into the truck and it sounded like a aluminum can recycle bin...
I have never made an effort to stop before; I have gone a few days without a beer. Maybe a few years ago, a week or two. I haven't DUI'd or passed out or had any other incidents, but I have puked warm wine out my nose a few times over the years...
I also just finished a long relationship with my girlfriend who has a young daughter who adores me, and I will be moving to a bigger town when my lease runs out in mid-July. Oh, and I am still unemployed, and watching my reserves drain fast. I guess I picked a bad time to quit drinking, eh?
But I have to stop drinking. Medically and mentally it's just not a good thing, and of course it's money going out that I am not currently replacing (yes, the pills will be about as much as I was spending on beer). However, I believe that in a month or so I'll have a new place to live, a new girl to love, a new job and a healthier mind and body.
Thank you for the chance to vent, and any words of wisdom are welcome.
n coming here today. Check out the Newbies Nest, it is a great place to start. There is always someone on MWO who knows what you are going through. Everyone is very supportive. Read as many posts as you can; it all helps.........you will be amazed at how quickly you will fit in. Good luck and hope to hear from you soon - roll on Monday!!!!!!!
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