I've been doing a lot of reading in MWO and decided it's time to get serious, so I'm posting. In a nutshell, I'm 45, have a great family, a great career, and I'm stuck on stupid. I don't think I've gone 30 days in the past 8 years at least. Went through a nasty divorce, new marriage, trouble teenagers and any other excuse to put down a bottle (sometimes a little more) of wine most nights. I've noticed that my thoughts and attitude about drinking are changing and I feel like I'm ready to turn a corner.
I am very empathetic to everyone that struggles with this awful addiction; however, I am truly empathetic to the good old girls, like me, who just struggle with that darn wine addiction. It's not enough to send us running to rehab but it's just enough to make us miserable. It's just enough to make us feel hungover and depressed...full of self-loathing and cloudy the next day. It's just enough to add that extra 10,20 or 30 extra pounds that we are carrying around when we would otherwise be in good physical shape...and it's just enough to make us feel too crappy to exercise the next day.
Lately, I don't like my body and I've noticed that most days after drinking the night before, my blood pressure is high and I feel terrible. I just want to stay focused on going 30 straight days AF and I know that it's only by the the grace of God and the support from other's on this website that I'll make it.
I'm going to try to post everyday on this thread because I feel like it's one of the things that will help me stay focused. Like so many of you, my kids have grown, I don't have any real hobbies and I think I often drink out of boredom and because there isn't anything better to do. I'm even hiding my drinking from my husband so I'm afraid if I don't get this in check it will get out of control.
I noticed there are alot of you that have been posting that are in the same boat.....does anyone care to joing me? We can do this together.....all we have to do is stay focused on making it for 30 days.
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