merry go round 6 months down no change on the bus

[The time is now]

Hi all
i keep asking myself what would it be like 1 year no booze ? i did think about it at the start of the year but here we are 6 months into it no change. i cant even manage 1 day let alone a year

I said to myself and to my wife i would give up the booze and become a ironman set myself a mega task and to become a inspiration to others yea right ..................... i really dont know why she puts up with me

My best mate says i shouldnt drink he believes its just luck i haven`t killed myself or done any serious harm he`s probably right

so whats happening right now ? marriage is a mess, my health is poor, my very young kids have more vitality and fun and energy than me, and to add to it all i have a company that is fighting for survival so all in all a fair bit going on , i wish i could go on a months holiday in the sun and chill out but i cant

i feel at times like just crying, my head hurts and i have no real low motivation

maybe when something really bad happens i will change , but why should i wait for that to happen ?

god what a mess

thanks for reading i am just writing my feelings on here ! maybe time spent at aa would be better

[keepwalking]

merry go round 6 months down no change on the bus

You said it the time is now so come on and make it happen, just go for one day tomorrow AF, you are so worth it, just one day and then post back, Monday is a fresh start, you can make it happen, JUST DO IT, one day xxxx good luck lots of support here x

[Mia]

merry go round 6 months down no change on the bus

I agree with keepwalking as you said the time is now! Start Monday what a great day to start! One day at a time, if you have to one hour at a time.

I am on 25 days of being sober I started one day at a time. It is so worth it. Stay here you will only recieve love and support here. Go to the TOOLBOX lots of hints there xxxx

[Muppett]

merry go round 6 months down no change on the bus

Hello friend,
I feel your pain.
I feel it coz I've been there soooooo many times.
I am not A/F but am moderating (loose definition). Being A/F is like eating an elephant. When you look at the whole elephant, it's overwhelming. Just start with a toe today and another tomorrow and before you know it, you'll have eaten the whole damb thing. Stay strong.............kia kaha
Wendy

[cuckoosnest83]

merry go round 6 months down no change on the bus

Dear time, I'm in the same boat. Keep telling myself I will change but it doesn't happen. Today I will try again. I'm so tired of this merry-go-round and I want to get off. Hope today is a better day for you. I know I will try my best to make today not a wasted one.

[damo180]

merry go round 6 months down no change on the bus

Hi,

Your post could be mine 6 months ago.
I hope I dont appear to be smug, but I am 6 months sober in 2 weeks time.
My life has turned around. I have never been happier, my wife and boys are happier.
I am healthier, I have run two marathons.

I wont lie, its really difficult at times.
But its getting easier every day. I have done the "one day at a time" and "no matter what, I am NOT drinking today" and it has worked.
I log on here as often as possible, I read as much as I can on alcohol addiction, knowledge on this can be a great help on getting through this.

Just do it, start straight away, make it your no.1 priority, your life WILL improve in so many ways.

Best of Luck my friend.

Damo in Dublin

[The time is now]

merry go round 6 months down no change on the bus

HI thanks damo did you got to aa? weekly daily ?

[beautifullife]

merry go round 6 months down no change on the bus

Hi,

I too, as others have said, feel your pain. I have tried to be AL free for so long and screwed up by thinking I can control it after a few ays of sobriety. This last Friday, I found this wonderful site and promised myself to actually do IT- AL free- THIS TIME, and failed horribly over the weekend. That roller coaster of insanity really f****** with my head. I felt like a failure, AGAIN, and woke up this morning with another HO and had to honestly look at myself and say out loud to stop. I must say, though, that TODAY, JUNE 20, I have been AL free. The posts and people here have been a true inspiration for me that I am not alone, I am not a bad person, I am not a "train wreck" as my sister said the other day. I am beautiful person, for this moment and for all. I have an amazing family and I just can't waste myself anymore to lose time from my small children. It has been difficult, especially the last 2 hours, but I keep on challenging myself to stay strong. I want to see my children smile through clear eyes and mind TODAY. I will work on tomorrow when it comes. This site has been the best thing that I feel could have happened to start to change my life. I choose TODAY to not have an addiction that grabs ahold of me and takes me down. I am sorry to keep rambling, but I feel deeply what you were saying (like I said, the past 2 hours have been hard) and I had to come here to let go of my anxiety.

Best of luck my friend. Today is day 1 for me and I will keep checking in.

[damo180]

merry go round 6 months down no change on the bus

No, havent gone to a meeting, but wouldnt rule it out.
If I had went back drinking this time around, I was planning to go down the AA route.
Whatever it takes to stay AF, I would do it.
Can I suggest, aim for "30 days AF" no matter how difficult it gets.
It is only 1 month out of your life, it will probably damn hard at the start, especially the first wk, but maybe not. Your determination could beat those cravings.
You WILL notice big improvements in so many aspects in your life in a short time.
More energy for your kids, have a chat with the mrs and ask her for support.

Get to 30 days and then decide what you want to do, hopefully keep giong, but dont look beyond these 30 days.

I am rooting for you here. If you go for it and succeed, which I believe you can, I promise you wont regret it.
Start straight away if you can, and dont worry about cravings that come out of the blue, they WILL lessen in time.

All the best....

Damo in Dublin

[damo180]

merry go round 6 months down no change on the bus

Well done Beautifullife,
You have made the first step.
You WILL make it through today, and you are on your way to a much better life.
It is there for you, grab it with both hands.
Log on as often as you can. You will always find something on here that you will relate to and keep you strong at that time.
All the very best.

Damo

[The time is now]

merry go round 6 months down no change on the bus

thanks for your input people very gratefull