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[autumn]

I have messed up after being AF for 7 months. Boy that really sucks that I am back to day 1.
I have just tapered out of a huge binge, that has lasted a week.

BUT, I refuse to be negative, I am sober today, and I will stay that way, and I have no hangover due to just a very small ammount of Vodka yesterday to get me through.

I am going to see my AL counsellor today, I have to get a grip of this evil voice, that talks you into it, and even makes you think you want to and its a good idea!! It should get an oscar!

So, I am focusing on a good nights sleep tonight, going to bed sober, and waking up tomorrow, 100% AF.

[morrey]

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Good on you Autumn!

I know what you mean about that little voice, it is a cheeky little devil. Just have to be strong and use your desire not to drink to rule your decisions.

It's not an easy road, but you can do it! We're all in this together.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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As you say today is a new day Autumn. You did 7 months and you can do it again. Think about what triggered the binge and how you can deal differently with the situation should it arise again. Sounds easy I know, but its not. It is a journey though, good luck.

[life...take2]

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Others are spot on. Identify the trigger and move forward THANKING your higher power that you had 7 months away form poison. I think we underestimate the power of our triggers and our old ways of dealing with stress, etc.

good luck!

[lolab]

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hi Autumn. I am beginning again as well...let's do it together. We both know it can be done. I'm glad to see that you refuse to be negative, you had a huge accomplishment and you know you inspired me.

[Doggygirl]

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You can do it autumn and lolab. That voice is a liar. EVERY TIME.

DG

[PlaceSeeker]

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Autumn and Lolab, I would like to join you - I'm just starting over and have decided to start posting (have been reading here for a long time). Alcohol is driving me crazy. Am now committed to being AF.

Sending my support and hoping to get some too!

PlaceSeeker (PS)

[daisy45]

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Hi Autumn; what a bummer! But you're back and no shortage of us looking to join you. Look at those 7 months apprenticeship you have of AF experience!!!!! Good luck and we are walking this one together!!!!

[lolab]

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thanks PS and DG..DG, I have read so many of your posts and you inspire me to succeed. :-)

PS - it sounds like a plan! It's 7:30 PM here and I should be in the clear....day one - again - and I made it! You can do it. I made it to over 30 days back in Feb and March and then slowly got back to it, so I am doing it this time. I am going to go back and read Autumn's thread about what I really don't miss....I will try to bump it up.
-lola

[Lavande]

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autumn & lolab,

Wishing both of you the best! Hop back onboard & drop in the Newbies Nest for a while for more support. We all have something to teach one another

Lav

[mylife]

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You can do it Autumn and Lolab! I keep jumping on the wagon and I plan to keep on until I stick there! I love being AF, and I know you will too!

[Daya]

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Just a blip

Hi autumn, I posted here a while ago, then went on a consistent drinking binge for a while. I have read your other posts, and they are truly inspiring, motivating, and uplifting.

It's great you are not beating yourself up, we live with a sense of shame anyway. I will join you and the others, and really would love to get to 7 months AF.
Take care

[SPUNKY]

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I'm with you and praying for the best. Maybe a little peer pressure is what I need. AF since 8am, 16 hours one second at a time.

[PlaceSeeker]

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Hi everyone - day 4 AF for me. Hope we're all still sticking with our commitment to being AF. I feel so much better already! I know deep down in my heart giving up alcohol is really about losing nothing and gaining everything. We just have to figure out how to not forget and get lulled back into the rut!

Autumn - are you okay?

PS

[christyacc]

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Hi all!

I will be starting my Day 1 for the millionth time on Monday. The weekend is here and I always have somethiing in my head that I must start on a Monday.

I need to do this. My body needs it, my mind, my marriage, and my kids. I know I have to do it for me and I do but if I don't, I will lose everything that means the most-my family.

All my BF's drink but are such great friends they would support me. I may have ti withdraw from them foir a bit while I teach myself coping skills. I am prepared for that and they will have my back. My DH will be behind me- he won't drink either until I am ready. There's no need for him to change his ways for me. I am the one with the problem not him.

I am not a newbie. I avoid looking at my start date, 2008. It is just a reminder of how I can't accomplish what I nned to.