Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

I hope everyone had a nice evening! Feeling this great in the morning is the way to go! Had a little bit of wine yesterday... corked the bottle with half left and moved on to tea. My goal is to add more alcohol free days.

Did I mention I feel great
Talk soon.
Enough!

[bcineed2]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi all! Hope all's well!
I'm into day 4 now and I can hardly believe it! I had a wicked period of craving yesterday, but brought it to an abrupt halt by eating and making a huge AL free drink. Also took all my vitamins which seems to help. I was so relieved when it went away.
Sleep is weird but okay; I feel kind of spaced out though which I'm hoping will pass sooner than later.
Gotta run around now with all the Saturday stuff, but hope to check in later.
Best wishes to everyone....

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Checking in on a beautiful Saturday afternoon. Well I really am not sure the last day I had too much to drink! Maybe 9 or 10 days ago!!! I want those days to fade into a distant memory for me and my family.

In time, I want my sons to have only a hazing recollection of when mom was " drinking too much". Had a lovely evening other then hubby flipping out that I was "drinking all night" when I was sipping on a pellegrino with lime.....aaarrrhhhh... I guess he is sooo used to it it will take some time that The clear beverage i am drinking is actually water

Ok gang... Check in and conquer! This is my time to finally win this battle.
E!

[treetops]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi there - checking in from NZ. I had a great sober time over Easter but then slipped back into drinking after work after the holidays. So I have to work on the stress and pressure at work. I also don't eat so well when work pressure is on and I am rushing to cook for family etc (we have different dietary preferences). Now back to trying to be sober again - have sourced some good local supplements - although not feeling any difference from them yet, seeing a liver specialist in 10 days time (really scared of this) and seeing an addiction specialist late in May. I think the gap between my last conversation with my GP (March) and getting signs of much needed extra help (May) was not conducive to my attempts to work on this. Anyway - I am trying a multi-pronged plan - bits of this and bits of that - because there is no one solution. Also reading lots on this - when I have time.

[bcineed2]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi all! Happy Sunday!
I woke up feeling like I'd been hit by a truck even though I know it's not a hangover. What's up with that? Could it be that all the AL is definitely out of my system now that I'm starting day 5 and my body is freaking out?
In any case, I'm feeling hugely optimistic and proud that I'm making these days add up and I know that eventually the fog will clear and I'll feel much better.
I finished the Carr book, and it really is a help to remember that AL is a poison and that it gives nothing back for what it takes. Now onto the Vale book.

Thanks to all here for helping me get to day 5. I can't overstate how much this thread means for keeping me focused during my day to day AL struggles.

Take care everyone; I hope everyone is well.

[FlyAway]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

My life has been crazy busy this past week and I really couldn't check in. Fabulous job BC!

[Snapdragon]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi Everyone - great to see that you're all well and striving for the ultimate goal still.

I Hope you don't mind me joining you all again - I've been lurking in the background for a while (too ashamed to show my face!) I actually went to my doctor last week and asked for help - Antabuse or anything to stop me drinking, but she just said 'sorry, I can't help you - here's a number for your local addiction service.' Rang the addiction service and left my details with the promise that someone would call me back - that was almost a week ago and still no call (that's the great British National Health service for you!). Anyway - I've decided I have to do this on my own - hopefully with a bit of support from friends on MWO.

Shue - I'm so impressed with your willpower - can you send some my way?!! I am now on day 5 AF and boy - it is hard. Almost caved in last night. The craving for wine was so bad I actually drove to the supermarket and wandered around looking at the wine bottles - but opted for chocolate in the end and came home and stuffed that instead. I do hope this gets easier.

Bcineed2 - I totally get your feeling of being 'hungover' even though you haven't had a drink for days. I have been sleeping really well but find I can't wake up in the morning. Had to drag myself out of bed feeling like I'd been kicked in the head today!

Enough - so proud of you being able to moderate. That was always my goal, but totally unrealistic for me - I'm an all or nothing girl!

Hello to Rainy Day and KittyKat too and everyone else on this thread. Happy Monday - the sun is finally shining here today.

Snap x

[treetops]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

:new: Checking in today - I sympathise with Snapdragon - as I am in NZ and our addiction support is probably much less than in the UK. I find that after the 'witching hour' (late afternoon/early evenings for me) I try to keep busy - even if its sorting washing (intellectual work is hard at that time) and have lots of healthy or low calorie snacks around - eg fruit, low fat soup, decaf coffee in winter. I also find that eating dinner early (not too early)helps - and if I cook myself something quite spicy - such as Tom Yum soup or a curry - it puts me off wanting to drink wine. My problem is trying not to drive to the supermarket before this time and purchasing the wine. If I can make it AF until 8pm then I am usually safe. I also talk to my family about my mood - they desperately want me to stop the booze and I want to do it too. I also try to listen to those 'voices' Jack Trimpy talks about - the 'beast' and try to tell it where to go. But its really really hard and sooo easy to give in.

[bcineed2]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi all! So great to see so many replies/thoughts etc.

Snapdragon, thank you for sharing your experience about 'being hit by a truck/kicked in the head'; it's so helpful to know that it's not just me! I'm so sorry to hear about your doc. I've been so scared to seek help or even be honest with mine...to the point that I have neglected (i.e., simply refused) to make an appointment for a long overdue physical. You had the courage to be honest and I wish the outcome had been better for you.

FlyAway...thank you so much for the congrats. It made me smile BIG!

treetops...I can absolutely relate about the food piece of staying AL free. What I eat and when has made a huge difference to me. I used to not eat so I could drink with the full effect of AL in force. Eating dampens that whole cycle for me as do the vitamins. It's psychological with the vitamins, but once I put food/nutrition/supps in, it seems pointless to put AL in. Somehow, in my mind, the AL won't "work" the way I want (??) so AL doesn't seem like a good or useful option at that point.

Enough....you sound so good and stable with moderating. I don't think I can do it and succeed...at least not now, but your fighting spirit is so inspiring. The fact that you are finding your way out of the devastating cycle is wonderful. I believe there is nothing wrong with 'normal' drinking for anyone who can do it. So, my blessings to you on your path! I hope it continues to work for you AND yours!!:flower:

[bcineed2]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Rats!

Wow...almost to 7 days....blew it. Okay...I'm not going to go crazy about a glass of wine (but why did I do it???) and am going to dust myself off tomorrow and start again. Soooo much better than in the past, so I need to keep things in perspective. But it still sucks to have caved. I will do different/better tomorrow....:sulk:
Thanks to this thread, I had to be accountable. It really matters!:thanks:

[Snapdragon]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi bcineed

That sucks - but in perspective it was just one glass - a lapse not a relapse. I don't think you should consider yourself back at day 1. You've made a huge achievement getting to day 7 (I know as I'm on day 6 and it is SOOOO hard!)

Don't beat yourself up - brush yourself up and jump back up here on the wagon.

Best wishes

Snap x

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Snap... Really nice to see you! Bc.... You are doing great forget the one glass and move on. How are you doing today? Fly... Tree... Hey!!!

One thing I learned with all my stupidity is to get my head out of the sand and "woman up" when I need some support. It is soooo much easier just to be oblivious to our own problems and then nothing gets solved. I had back to back out of town meetings ( hence the non posting ) and even though I planned and planned... Brough a bottle of pellegrino instead of a bar with me my good intentions epic failed and consumed waaayyyyy to much wine( along with everyone else .... I am certainly not justifying my behavior... Just saying. Shit!

Unfortunately this is considered " normal drinking" in my crazy work group so no real harm, but I am certainly not proud of overdoing it. Back home and off to another meeting tomorrow, but driving back the same night so no silly repeat.

I hope to do better. I also wish for everyone's success.
Enough!

[bcineed2]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi all...
thank you snapdragon and Enough for your kind and forgiving words. I'm still pissed about drinking , but today is a new day and I'm not drinking.

Anyway...I made 19 days AF last November...my goal is to get there and beyond now.

Enough..I'm with you on 'womaning up'! I love that saying!!
Take care everyone...let's stick together and beat this thing.

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi to all! A new day and much better evening yesterday... Other then blow up fight with 13 yr old son and his newly found teenage attitude. Boy oh boy... This is What my mother meant when she said I wish you ten just like you.

I have to admit it helped that the house is cleared out of wine... Vodka... Tequila... All the favs!
Bc... Snap... Everyone else around... I hope you are hanging in there... Let me know.

If anyone has a positive or motivating story... Please share I could use some re- direction.
Thx!
Enough!

[Snapdragon]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Afternoon all!

Enough - I know what you mean about teenage syndrome. I hate to say it, but in my house it doesn't seem to be getting any better. This morning my 20 year old son was exploding because he couldn't remember his password for something on the computer. I helpfully mentioned that it might be a good idea to write it down in the back of a book or something. You'd think I'd suggested he put on a chicken head and run down the middle of the road naked! "Oh you are the pits - you are so patronising - you must think I'm totally what, stupid yeah!!" Rant, rant, storm out of the room door slamming! I just sat there in silent amazement! I'm thinking of buying him a flight to Australia for his 21st birthday!!

Anyway - strength to you all. I seem to be having a serious dose of work phobia today. Had a really important SLA report to write, but ended up clearing out my airing cupboard, cleaned the bathroom and have mucked about on the computer ordering books for my Kindle. Oh well, cleared a few cobwebs for the weekend.

Hope everyone is feeling better motivated than me!

Snap x