Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[Herbie]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

finishing up my day one for the ???? time... I like the wine too much. I can go along and just have one out at dinner for a bit, then a couple in the evening to help me sleep, then there are the tims I start at 5 and will not stop until the bottle is empty... I wake up feeling terrible and my memory fuzzy or gone for the last bit of the night. I want to wake up with a clear head and energy to get through the day...to all of on that day one and to all our reasons .. thank god we are all here!

[Destiniey]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Herbie....thank goodness for this site.....it's so nice to know that we are not alone!!!!!

Lola...hey you!!!!! Congrats on being AF....I am clean too!!!!! I hit a rough spot earlier tonight but distracted myself by giving my horses a bath. After horse #4...I was hot, sweaty and tired...all I wanted was a glass of ice cold water! Ha! Worked like a charm!!!!

[PearlButterfly]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi Everyone,

I am new here and have joined for support from people in a similar situation to mine.

Today is my first day sober and my plan of action is therapy and MWO.

Good luck to you all xx

[paula]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi Pearlb and welcome, I don't feel I can give you the support that I should at the moment, as I am back to day one again! but do stick around as there will be plenty of folks who help you. I would suggest looking at the tools thread. Good luck.

[Destiniey]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi Pearl and welcome....Hi Paula!!!!!The first fews days are the toughest but there is a light at the end of the tunnel! I have had my fair share of day 1's...on day 4 today and I am making every effort to make it work this time! Good luck and I hope you have an easy AF day today!:l

[paula]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Thanks Dest, I recntly did 14 days and previously went six years without drinking, so why the hell do I let my alcoholic brain tell me I can have just one drink ? Iam going to get through it this time. Good luck to you, day four is good.

[Destiniey]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi Paula....14 days is awesome and 6 years....holy crap!!!!!!!! Wow! Do you care to share any secrets as to how you stay AF for that amount of time. I was doing really good and on day 17 I got a little too comfortable with my AF days and thought I could have just 1. What the hell was I thinking???!!!! One is never enough..it just leads to more and more until I am oblivious and walking around on eggshells the next morning just waiting for when my husband is going to call me out on my actions. It is wayyy to exhausting trying to cover up the drinking. I am sooo done! I am on day 4 and so far so good! I am taking my supplement and they are helping. L-Glut works really well at reducing the cravings...along with Kudzu. Throw some Milk Thistle into the mix too to help heal the liver.
OK..I have rambled on enough! Ha! Good luck with day 1. This is a tough journey but we are all in it together....no one is alone!:l

[paula]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

I went to AA when I first stopped drinking, but after a few months I tired of hearing the same old stories, people who had been sober for years were still talking about their drinking. I got that same old feeling that we all get I thought I could drink moderately, and for a while I did but my drinking then escalated and I have found it so difficult to get back on track. It's very true I feel, that after every relapse the drinking gets worse. I managed to stay sober initially through gritted teeth, and then it did become a habit just as drinking seems to. My sister suffered from alcoholism and she just suddenly stopped, she said she had just had enough. You are doing really well, I really believe we can do this, we just have to get that message about that first drink, because as they say in AA that is the one that does the damage. I felt like a drink a little while ago but came on mwo instead. I don't keep any booze in the house and try to do little things to take my mind of it. Yes I have spent a lot of mornings waiting for my husband to say something, it's really not worth it. Goodluck on your journey, you will do it.

[Butterbean]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Destiniey & Paula,
I can really relate to both of your stories. That anxious horrible feeling of waking up in the morning and who did I insult? Who knew I was drunk? What did I say??? How bad was I slurring, when they only had one drink?
I feel like the BIGGEST hypocrite ever because my older sister is sitting in jail with her 7th DUI. I always have thought of myself as so much better than that and have been disgusted with her for not taking advantage of all the help that is out there. I know how horrible the disease is and have never faulted her for that part, just the not getting help part. I have seen her spiral down from upper middle class mom and professional to living in shelters and jails, drunk out of her mind and soul. I see that and want to be NOTHING like that. I have a loving husband and wonderful kids. I want to nip this in the bud and right the wrongs. Hard work, but has to be worth it. Look at the alternative.

Butterbean

AF 4 days, starting day 5

[Lola01]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Great to hear from you dest...keep up with the distractions..I do the same thing. Hard work outside in the heat seems to work for me too..sounds like we had a similar day...I watered plants for two hours in 95 degree heat.....water....come to mama..that's all I wanted!!! Hey herbie..congrats in day one,,,!!

[paula]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Butterbean, yes this thing, disease whatever it is , is horrific. My brother died of it some time ago, he was a clever good person who could just not get it. I also have a wonderful husband, two great kids and three grandchildren. I owe it to them to get well, so yes I am determined. Good luck everyone.

[Destiniey]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Lola, Butter and Paula.....thanks so much for your support....it means the world to me!!!!:l

[paula]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Butterbean and Pearl, just popped in and wondered how you are doing. I spoke to you on another thread Dest and you seem good. As time goes on and as long as we don't drink things do get better. It's good that we are all here for one another.

[patrick2012]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

day one for me 2! this is my first time i've made the decision im packing it in... i just found this site for the first time tonight.. its great!

[paula]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi Patrick and welcome, well done. Read the tools thread and you will get some ideas, keep posting. Also try the newbies thread, you where you will meet plenty of like minded people. Good luck.