Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Enough is back!

Hi to all my old and new friends on conquering. It's time to start getting my shit together. I have to be honest and say I have been making a zero effort to stay sober or even moderate for more then a day or two. I had such energy and drive when I started this thread about a year ago... Need to find that in me again.

Ordered poor husband to go out and buy wine yesterday... Caused a fight... Duh!
Nipping at anything left in the booze cabinet... Until wine arrives.
Older son (13) knows I have an issue with alcohol... Yikes!
Need some support.
Enough!

[lifechange]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

hello Enough!
we started at about the same time last summer and seem to have had a similar year.
i'm starting again today to try to get 30AF days under my belt. just to see how i feel. i've not sone that since i was last pregnant 8 years ago. i want to know what it's like and to see if i feel differently with regards to al at that point.
i'm really glad to see you back. this thread has been great for so many people, regardless of where they are in their journey and regardless of what their goals are.

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hey life!
Glad to see your back too! I am committing to making better decisions about drinking. Here to success stories!
E!

[MWOLady]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hey you two, Day two for me as well. The commitment can be made over and over and then I guess it sticks. I'm trying Boot Camp - 30 days. I know I can do it.

I almost made it to 3 months before I made the actual decision to drink one night when we had special company. And this person would not have cared, or even noticed if I had served dinner in a clown suit to be honest!!! Let alone whether I had a glass of wine or not - so I bought expensive wine and drank too much and spoiled my sobriety just to impress him!!! All for nothing. It was just ME wanting to drink!!

I've set up some other changes - some fun stuff for myself too that will help keep me motivated. Can you both do the same? I know I'm going to feel so much better in the mornings both physically and mentally - no more "why did I do it again!!!" Especially as I don't even LIKE drinking. I HATE it. So I feel like a right dork when I do it. How nuts is that eh?

[bcineed2]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Welcome back Enough! You were the first to welcome me on this thread way back when I was first on this site (for real!). I haven't posted in awhile, but guess what?? Thanks to this thread and this site...both of which I have kept up with all this time....today I'm 30 Days Alcohol Free!!

I share this to let you know how very much this thread has meant to me personally and how much it has helped me get where I am. I stumbled several times, but never gave up. I'm still taking it ODAT, but now I know what 30 feels like, and I'm not very inclined to give that up!

And not for nothing,...I've lost 13 pounds with no effort other than cutting out the wine!

Thank you so much for starting this thread and continuing your efforts toward health and peace. I have faith in you! :thanks:

[aerojef]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Wow, congrats bci! I'm just into my 3rd week now, this was day 15. Half way there!

Sorry it's been a few days since posting, but all is well here. Just been real busy with work and all.

Hang in there everybody!

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Wow!

BC.... Your post meant a lot to me! Thank you. I am so happy for your success and thrilled that my little thread helped you. Hey to MWO lady and Aero.

Juja... I saw you on another thread... We need you here too!

First... I am happy to report a hangover free morning ( following a crap night sleep). Maybe you do need to fail several times before the light bulb finally goes off? I don't want to drink today. Not that I can't drink... Shouldn't drink... I simply want to try the sober route. It's easy to say this at 11:30 am... By 3 or 4 yesterday I was feeling otherwise and did finish off what was left of the wine in the fridge... Came home at 10 from work and made tea. Sober.

So I guess at 3 pm I can report ... Day 2! Stay tuned

Everyone jump back on board here with me....
All the best.
Enough!

[Ellen_h]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Thankyou to all who sent me supportive messages especially MWOlady and lifechange. For some reason I can't get back into the Newby Nest (? Script/memory issue I think!) But I read your comments and feel very positive about being in the Bootcamp DAY 1 ...of the rest of my life! Lots of great suggestions trigger times, positive thinking tips etc. Thankyou!

[gmc38609]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

I grew up with a mum who drank a litre of vodka everyday and hated her for it. Guess what as a adult i am also addicted to alcohol. I read a self help book recently and for the first time in about 20 years went 5 weeks sober and tbh found it quite easy. However I fell off the wagon but have learnt with a little help and education alcohol is a bad habit and not a disease, So tomorrow I am going to give it another go bravely and I am hoping that this site which to me me looks fantastic for support that i can get a life that does not continue with what I want to do but rather than what I do do if that makes sense. Everyday I wake up saying today I quit drinking I am hoping tomorrow will be my last day of that with help from here :0)

[MWOLady]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi there gmc38609. From my understanding, and from being an alcoholic for 40 years it, is both a disease and a bad habit. The disease comes from the patterns that develop, physically, in the brain, and the bad habit comes from actually reaching out for that glass time and again.

Each one has its role to play, and each one can be fought with different tools. We each have to find our own way, that's true too. So let's get together and beat this silliness! Today is day 3 for me and I hope tomorrow will be a BIG DAY ONE for you - you can do it!!!!

[paula]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

I come from a large family, I had a alcoholic abusive father, two of my brothers died from alcohol related diseases and I have bean on and off alcohol for years. Opinions differ as to whether it's a disease or habit. I agree with mwo lady, a lot of our behaviour is learned, which like lots of things become habits. I'm on day 4 again for the umpteenth time. I have to get the better of this monster before it gets me, like it got my brothers. We can all help and support one another and beat this for good. Good luck GMC.

[Caper]

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Hi Enough… I’d like to be among those to welcome you back. Like BC, your post was also the first one that I discovered at MWO and more importantly, is the one that really made an impact on me and helped me through those first tough days. After years and years of half-hearted attempts, as of June 30th I’ll be 6 months AF. Thank you for getting me started! There are a couple of things I did differently this time; maybe they’ll help you too. In the past, I’d try to incorporate giving up alcohol with an overall attempt to improve my diet with the idea of losing some of the weight I’d put on due to all the empty calories in the wine I’d been chugging down every day. This time, I focused strictly on giving up the alcohol and instead treated myself to whatever else I might want to eat for the first couple of weeks. It gave me something to think about during the day (What can I buy on the way home? ice cream, candy, potato chips, all of the above? – sure!) Then later during those couple of hours during the evening that we all face during this struggle, I’d chow down to the point where I was on garbage food overload, and so full that I wouldn’t have been able to get buzzed anyway. I also found that keeping the bottle of wine that my husband purchased during the week I stopped drinking (he hadn’t realized I was giving it up) in the refrigerator has also helped. I know this is not for everyone – most people have to get every drop of alcohol out of the house – but maybe for someone else it might work as it did for me. What happened is that it took away from me the decision of whether or not to stop at the liquor store on the way home. Which may not sound like a big deal but for me it was. All afternoon, I’d be having conversations in my head, “Should I stop and get a bottle in case I cave in tonight? Do I have enough of the bottle from last night to get me through the evening? What if I do have those three glasses and want more – that will mean I’ll have to go out and possibly get picked up.” On and on and on… until, invariably, I’d stop and grab another bottle or two which of course, I’d drink. Keeping that bottle in the refrigerator eliminated the daily discussions. No need to think about it; it was there if I wanted it. It also empowered me to think that I was choosing not to drink instead of not being able to drink because there was nothing in the house. In fact, it’s still there, 6 months later. And, finally, this time instead of pleading with God to help me stop drinking, I prayed instead that He would take away from me the desire to drink. I have to tell you, it’s worked. I still pray that same prayer every morning; for myself and for everyone on MWO. Anyway, good luck! I have a feeling you’re going to make it this time!

[Juja]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Enough!;1340071 wrote: BC.... Juja... I saw you on another thread... We need you here too!

Dear Enough!, you remembered me! Thanks.:h

Your thread was one of the first ones I posted on, as the idea resonated--Conquering Day 1. There've been lots of those, and unfortunately they're getting farther and farther apart. So, here I am, back on Day 1.

Good luck to all.

Juja

[Destiniey]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hey Aero....glad to see to see you back! I was hoping that all was OK wth you and I see that it is......15 days!!!!!!!!! That is awesome!!!!!!

[lifechange]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Caper, i remember you and am so happy to hear about your 6 months. that's awesome!
i also appreciate hearing your experiences and what helped you. i think praying to have the desire to drink taken away is an idea i will try. thank you---