Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[Queenbug]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hya MBY...I don't know where it is but I put out a thread last week I think it was...on a day when I was feeling like I was going crazy...think it might have been a Day 3 or something...I was so agitated and tearful and jumpy and scared...it was awful...the advice I was given was about taking it a bit at a time...that with not drinking my sugar levels were screamingly out of control...and to read back over as many posts as I could...if I couldn't get to the shops for the supplements...to go for a walk...but leave my purse at home...and check back in later...all those things worked and I finally got through. I think that's the first time that I realised that it took a lot of work and energy to fight this.
I've tried quite a few times...but mostly alone and white knuckling it...this time I'm trying the supplements (especially L-Glutemine...an amino acid that helps to calm the cravings and I think helps with confusion...I got an emergency pot for ?4 in Holland and Barrett that day and thats helped hugely...ordered the powder for ?4 last night, apparently gets absorbed quicker). Plus using this place...its huge to know that you are not alone, but still have some privacy to be honest to/about youself.
This will pass....you will start to feel clearer and more able to deal with things. I'm finding it easier to go out and about again, and am even having a giggle with some of these lovely people here..
When is the interview?
xx

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

thank you

When I make it through this day its only because of this site. I am going to walk the the health food store to buy L Glutimine. hopefully the hour walk and the amino acid will both be helpful!

[Queenbug]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Good on you....my pot was 50 x 500mg tablets and I got 2 for ?8....I think that you can have quite high doses without any problems...I also got Milk Thistle which helps the liver I think...plus stocked up on evening primrose and good multi vits. It's quite a cheap Healthfood shop i.e. lots of offers...but just having the ritual of taking them gives me a sense of gaining some control...
I've also been really experimenting with AF drinks....Green Tea and Mint is good...clears my head when I feel fuzzy...chamomile is helping me to sleep...fizzy water kept in the fridge and I'm adding cucumber, mint, lime lemon, fresh ginger and even rosemary....in various mix ups...sounds weird...but seems to work and gives me something to drink when people pop in with the usual bottle of wine offering...and some of them are trying it instead of the wine...
What time is it with you at the moment...? How much longer till you've kicked Day 1 arse?

[scottish lass]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

what a fun thread - can i join in???
Today is day 1 - again! I started in April and have managed a fair few days AF - but not a whole month - and I aim that August will be the month for me.
I managed to have AF days in April, May and June - however July wasa flop - i knew that I was going to have a bad month, so did not beat myself up. I seperated from my husband (we had been togther 22yrs) in December - he has made us a financial mess and I had to get out before we were homeless - trying to short sell the house before the mortgage company forcloses on us - the tax folks say we owe $20,000 plus - he lied on the tax returns and other stuff like that.
I have two fabulous girls aged 10 and 12 and I needed to make sure they are ok - so the purpose of all that is that I had to go home and tell my parenets what was happening - I am from the UK, live in California - so went to England for their Golden Wedding anni, and tried to explain what had gone wrong in my life - very emotional time. They are big drinkers and I knew that I could not manage not to drink - so I let July go.
I drank last night, threw out the remainder of the third bottle of wine, posted last night and am getting thru day 1 with a hell of a hangover.
Another reason I struggled in July was no internet access - and all teh success that I have had is due to this website and the fabulous people. I have come back after a month a way, and there are even more amazing people with incredible stories and such support. I know I can do this - sorry for the long post, just reaffirming over and over that i will do this.
ordered more supplements and the CD's - hope they are as effective for me as thye have been for others.....

[jessie]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi everyone,

Day 19 for me ( with a speed wobble on day 12) I call it a speed wobble because I'm a 4-5 day binger and to stop so quickly was very unusual.

I am working the 12 steps online, and I really want to recommend it to you all. You can download worksheets to help you. I would also recommend f2f AA meetings if it is possible. I know Doggygirl also recommends it.

Well, I hope we all beat this terrible sickness once and forever.
:l

[Queenbug]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hey SL...some of that all sounds horribley familiar...spent a bit of time homeless with my son earlier this year in an attempt to halt the financial maelstrom...bad times!
still....here we both are...still standing and ready for another day!
Very glad you poured that wine away and getting that Day 1 sorted...I've never quite got to the end of Day 10 so at this point I'm aiming for finding my Day 10 mojo....
Day 3 just ending...feels good!

[Aggieman]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Okay, so here's to day 1. Woohoo. I just starting reading thru the posts and it looks like this is a great site. I have been drinking for about 27 years (I'm 43) and it has turned into a daily habit. I'm more of a vodka drinker, but definitely like wine too. I completely understand about what a lot of you are saying in regards to being mad at myself and just feeling ridiculous because I can't drink. I look back and realize what a bad example/influence I have been with my kids (24 and 18). My 24 year old is an alcoholic just like Dad. Really sad because he has a 6 month old. I have to fix myself before I can even attempt to help him, though I know I can't help him until he wants help. I'm going to my first AA meeting tonight because I know I can't do this alone. Good luck to everybody.

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Queen its only 630pm and I have to pick my daughter up at 930pm from work so I have 3 1/2 hours before I can go to bed. I can't wait to end this day.

SL, I know what you are going through we lost our house too. Short sale was the best thing we did. Now we rent but are finally finding our way out of a hugh mess. Congrats on starting!

[FlyAway]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Thinking of Enough at the cottage and Snapdragon on her honeymoon and wishing them both the best. Positive vibes and love to the two of you. :h

[Queenbug]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

I second that too!!!!!

not long now mby....few hours and Day 1 DOWN!!!

[Juja]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

My lord, but there are some incredibly strong people on this thread! Homelessness, financial ruin, troubled children, divorces, and yet you're working on being AF! I am truly impressed with your determination to make better lives.

My hat is off to each of you. I wish you well.

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

good morning all, day 2 for me now and again woke up well rested, I really hope I am over the initial withdrawal period I experienced in my last AF weeks (depression, lack of evergy, out of sorts, etc).

Last night I had an argument with my hubby; we never fight, just separately combust internally, in silence. I sometimes wonder if a shouting match followed make up sex would not be healthier.

Anyhoo ... I was seething at his indecisiveness and poured myself a small drink from the most immedtiately available bottle - gin. I even put ice in it. I stared at it in my hand and your voices came in my head and out-shouted the AL demon - "Madness is doing the same thing and expecting different results !!!", "Poison !!!", "coping with AL is not coping !!!" ...

I poured the drink down the drain and took the dog our for a walk .

I swear I would have downed that had it not been for you all.

Thank you

goal: AF August

[Queenbug]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Am liking this drain action I keep hearing about....well done Shue....stick with it petal...every AF day is a day better that a drunk one I'm thinking! xx

[hadit]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Well Done Shue! I havent been posting a lot lately, just been reading about lots of other peoples experiences and trying to learn as much as I can about this horrible condition. Had a few slips here and there but lots of A/F days as well which is a big improvement for me...... better than drinking everday like I have done for years! I find Sunday to thursday not such a big deal anymore,not a lot of cravings and no real need to take a drink. Fridays is allways a killer,the end of the week etc etc. Just keep on trying I say!

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Good job, Boozer !!!! I have learnt a lot from the AF days.

I started to write down all my triggers and added to the list as I encountered new ones. That way I cannot be taken by surprise. Planning is everything for me.