Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Yesterday was a really good day! My husband is out with his Family today for lunch. The kids are gone until tonight. Perfect time to catch up on some house work and pay the bills! Its amazing 2 weeks ago I couldn't trust myself to be home alone Now I am enjoying the peace and quite and being productive! and AF!!!!

[Juja]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Good Sunday evening everyone,

I've been out-of-the-loop on this thread, so I thought I'd pop in and say hello. Looks like everyone's busy with life, and trying to remain AF. Tough combination!

Tomorrow will be 30 days AF for me. I jumped onto this thread on maybe my 15th day, thinking it would help me day by day. Sure enough, all of you wonderful peeps came through with encouragement and support. Bless you, one and all.

I offer the same encouragement to each of you, knowing you can make it, and will be better for it.:l

It's only 6:30, but I think I'll take my latest book to bed in hopes it will take me away.

[mya]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Sorry I have be out of the loop for awhile. It's really busy with school about start.

I hate to say this but today is my day 1 again. You would think that someone who knows that she is not suppose to drink because of my blood work wouldn't do it.
I was trying to think what the trigger was and the only thing is PMS. I really need to find soemthing to control my emotions during this time. I am an emotional wreck and take it out on everyone when it comes around.

I need to catch up on the thread but wanted to say hi to everyone.
we can do this!

[Rollerblader]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi everyone,

I thought I would post as tonight I am having a bit of a tough time.

Today is nearly the end of my AF day 5 - that should be exciting as it's nearly a week (the longest I have been AF since I was a teenager) and a week is nearly 10 days and that then makes the mythical 30-day AF period seem so much more achievable.

But today I just miss having wine. I know how pathetic that must sound, and it isn't even really a craving, more a memory of how much I used to look forward to it and enjoy it. I've just come off a run of night shifts, which was convenient for my first AF weekend as I wasn't at all tempted to drink being either at work or in bed. But usually on my first day off I'd curl up in the afternoon on my sofa with my dog and good book and drink a bottle of fine shiraz until I drifted off to sleep. Today I have walked the dog for miles and been shopping, but couldn't help looking at all the sunny beachside bars full of smiling couples sharing a bottle of wine watching the waves crash over the sand and wish I was still part of that world. I guess it just feels a bit anticlimactic.

So anyway I'm going to go out for a long walk with my dog (not near the bars, although that means avoiding the beach) and will check in here when I get back. Hope this post doesn't sound too whingey, I realise loads of people on here have much worse problems, but I guess I am asking if anyone has any advice, or has been in this sort of mindset, and how to break out of it?

Thanks, Rollergirl xxxx

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Happy AF Monday, all. On Saturday morning I woke up and felt like my old self – got my energy back and the happy mood on ( about bloody time, I was in a depression hole for long enough, mourning the loss of my great friend – Mr. Sauv Blanc). I got scared to see I had so many withdrawal / readjusting symptoms. It means for sure that I am addicted. And AF weekends are still hard – physically I had no cravings but my mind wondered over into the drinks cabinet each evening. I cooked a storm and drank lots of Clausthaler –AF beer - to keep the heat at bay. Anything to keep busy and the mind of the drink.

But I also felt happy somehow proud of my little inner achievement. My holistic doctor / trainer - told me he’s very proud of me, trying again and again to quit drinking through different methods until I found something that works – YOU GUYS !!!

Enough – let’s get through this week AF!!!

Mya – PMS gave me the excuse to drink a whole bottle of red. I now know that I am better off with a horse dose of Advil, Calcium + Magnesium for the muscle spasms and 1 pink pill for depression.

Noxy – I read about the boy, that is just awful – enjoy your time with the kids, mine is also on summer hol – this just puts things in perspective. Stay strong for your friend and AF for you and you kids.

Mby – well done.

Roller, I feel for you, I don’t know when or even if this feeling ever goes away, all I know is that I now think of AL a lot less than before. I hope that by not feeding the AL monster it will eventually die of thirst. Silly thought but I have to believe in something.

Today – keep rambling and get it off your chest! Some of us may have more on their plate but we are all here because we have a problem with drinking.

[Rollerblader]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Shu - I love it! I won't give it a drink and eventually it will die of thirst. Like that mental image :-)

Thank you

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

yesterday sucked! The thunderstorms kept me in the house all day. I was fine all day while I was alone then my family came home and I was so agitated and angry for some reason. I didn't even realize what I was doing until I felt that shot of rum burn the back of my throat. I was so disgusted with me! Drinking to control my emotional state is how I got into this mess. In the begining my husband wanted to get rid of all the AL in the house. I told him it was not fair. Our 23 year old son collects AL. he goes on vacation and brings it back from all over the world. (I never drink his) Last night I took all his AL and put it in the garage and dumped my bottle of rum down the drain. There is no way I can drink without thinking now! My garage is outside, 3 flights down and across the street!

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

mya;1163583 wrote: Sorry I have be out of the loop for awhile. It's really busy with school about start.

I hate to say this but today is my day 1 again. You would think that someone who knows that she is not suppose to drink because of my blood work wouldn't do it.
I was trying to think what the trigger was and the only thing is PMS. I really need to find soemthing to control my emotions during this time. I am an emotional wreck and take it out on everyone when it comes around.

I need to catch up on the thread but wanted to say hi to everyone.
we can do this!

PMS can be really bad for some of us. I use Pamprin it has something that reduces anxiety!

[Sidra]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

I am with you!
:new::new::new:

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Good morning all

Back to school mode today and even with 6 or less hours sleep no problem waking up and handling the morning routine. Up for almost 4 hours... 2 boys on 2 seperate busses lunches in hand dresses ...teeth brushed... Breakfast... best part no yelling or hangover!!!! Anxiety level so low... Yeh!

I have so much energy today it is amazing. I took the day off and have already accomplished most of my cleaning and straightenin. Which leaves the rest of the day to run some errands and catch up on some reading and maybe a little swim.

Yesterday my friend/ old drinking partner/ neighbor dropped by and even though I was in full cleang out closet mode she insisted in staying and hanging out. I finally offered her a beer and did have one with her. After she left and hubby went to pick up take out I was left all alone to my own devices.

I opened our liquor cabinet and just stared in it. My mind say the tequila and margarita mix and I actually pictured the margarita being shaken. I SLAMMED he door and said NO. Was so proud of my control... As it would have been so easy... No one would have known except me. Yeh.

You can't really have 1 ... It is a trigger for more...

Tbc.... Enough.

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Sorry for all they type-o's... I am on my phone !

Shue... I am with you for a AF week girl. Happy you are happy

Mby... Spill it out!!!! Cool move

Juja... You are my hero with 30 days. Awesome. Fantaboulous ( yes not a word)

Mya... Keep positive. I finally realized there is something called pms... I was probably too drunk to notice in the past!

Roller... There is no suck thing as whining let it all out! It does get easier, but it is not ever easy. Stay close... You can do it.

Will check in later.

Enough
xoxo

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

:welcome:Sidra...

You sneeked in... Welcome. Let me know if I can help in any way. We are all in this together.

Enough!

[mya]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Good morning everyone.
Well it's almost noon here.
Just wanted to say Happy Monday
Will catch up with everyone later tonight

[tulip4848]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hello everyone. Im on day 1. Reading all the messages on here has really helped me realize im not alone. Thank you

[mya]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Not very many people on today.
It's the end of my day 2.
Good Luck to everyone, headed to bed.