Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[noxy]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

hello everybody... still here... have not had much time to post and can see that you are all back to school ect... hang in there !!! Can be stressful just getting back into routine and finding your feet again .. dont be tempted !! Things have been difficult here ! My dear friend is broken! Tomorrow we say goodbye to our dear Brett.... SO sad ....... the other driver was , as we suspected , under the influence of alcohol . He is facing charges of culpable homicide on two counts ... its just awful stuff this and all because of .... you know what ???? Anyway , this week we had a very unusual weather pattern here in Johannesburg... it snowed !!!! Just for an hour or two but my children loved it and were able to play outside and build a tiny snowman!!! Keep the thread going gals !!!! Stay connected and strong peeps !!! Lots of love and hugs :l:l:l:h:h from noxy

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Here we go again the mom-mobile is hitting the road! I wish my children would get to a financial place where they can buy cars! I do understand why she asks me to do this, 6 kids on a bus is insane. but it in exhausting. Staying AF is really hard when I am so stressed out!

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Nox... One more reminder how literally lifechanging our decision to drink or not drink is. Best of luck with the next few days. It is the heat of summer here... a little snow would be a huge treat.

MBY aka... Taxidiva! I know the more stress the more temptation that comes! Did you ever get to take that bath that sounded so good? Treat yourself.

I made it through yesterday once again AF... I thought many times how easy it would be to lessen the stress with a drink, but I stayed strong. Had only a few hours sleep because I could not stop my mind from racing. I hope all my friends have a great day.

Check in soon
Enough !

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Happy Thursday!

I am feeling like a little wine with my salmon.... But settling for my cranberry and club. One day at a time... One meal at a time.

Enough!
Cheers to a sober evening and remembering everything!

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Enough, I am so glad you are here everyday. Yes I did have that bath (had to clean the bathroom first) that was really helpful in making me tired. I did make it through. and today was a little better. I wish all the nagging in my brain would stop I feel like every min I am not busy the voice in my head starts talking. I cant ever just relax. I cant lose this battle. I am a nurse and I have watched people die of liver failure. My doctor told me I was heading down that road. I will not give up! I know my liver can heal itself but I have to stay AF.

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Mby... So glad to hear today was better. Same with me.

Reasons to stay sober....
Remembering....
The end of the movie
the story I read my son
falling asleep
conversations
promises
how I got home
where my watch... and ring... and anything else I was wearing is
if I said good night
what I need to apologize for
why I feel sick

I can go on and on...

Anyone else... Please add on

Enough!

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Amen, Enough !!!!

Reasons to stay sober ? I do not miss:

waking up at 3AM with drenched in sweat, mouth dry, going ? Oops, I did again?
raiding the pantry at midnight when the wine munchies hit
having to keep tabs on wine rotation in 3 refrigerators
constantly buying replacement bottles
falling over dogs / cats / door steps
the morning mental fog
thinking ? I hope I can hold this coffee in my stomach
looking at my swollen face in the morning .. or noon
not remembering all the things Enough! mentioned & more

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Happy AF Friday, and I am back home.

Hi peeps, I was away on business, read all your posts but my blackberry was not cooperating on foreign soil so I lost 3 posts then I just gave up ?.

So much drama with everybody ? I have also been stressed out for work and in need of a drink EVERY night ? While I was away on business I found easy enough to say no to drink ? only one celebratory clinck of champagne ? sipped but did not drink it ( Ok, it was crap, but still ?.) .

Since the summer heat is at its height I actually got on OK with AF beer. I did not raid the mini bar or order more wine / night cap from room service after the dinners. This is a huge step for me ? I refused wine on the flights ?. Ohhh, the memories of having 2 glasses to mellow out in the plane ? then a bottle to finish me off ? after all .. look at me, I am so busy and important I NEED a drink to relax. NO MOOOORE!

Anyway, back at home, in the comfort of secrecy is where I used to drink the most and this is where I find it very hard still ? This is still my battlefield, peeps , and I need all my strength for it.

Enough ? I quit cooking salmon, the wine association is so strong ? grilled white fish now.
Mby ? hang in there, taxi lady !!!! you?re doing great AF.
Noxy ? horrible news about the car crash ? and the devastation of all involved. I am kind of jealous for the snow ? I am melting here.
Fly ? what?s up ????
Boozer ? glad you are still on ? do spill on your interesting W/E ?
Juja ? grumpy is fine, vent it out !

[Enough!]

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Shue...
I am so happy to hear you had such a successful trip. We missed you here! I can relate with everything you said from the plane ...to another 3 glasses at the hotel after dinner. The secrecy of drinking alone, as much as I wanted, until I passed out was my ultimate downfall.

I second your list of why not to drink sans cats and dogs to trip over! Those mysterious bangs and bruises always showed up though.

By the way... Another AF day yesterday for me.

Talk soon!
E
xoxo

[Rosey]

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Day 3 starts here.... well kinda broke last night... bo bought a bottle of jack and poured with diet coke... could only take a few sips as I had already eaten. The food thankfully would have ruined buzz. Trying to get my chores done today and stay busy. Make an early dinner again. Look forward to getting to know all of you.

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Rosey,
Welcome!!!! Day 3 is great... Spill out what ever tempting alcohol you have available. Stay close to he thread we are all here to help each other.

Best of luck... Be strong!
Enough!

[Queenbug]

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Hellooooo....still here every now and then on other peoples internet as mine won't work...day 21 AF...losing weight...feeling positive...back home in next few days and fingers crossed internet fixed
Think of you all often

big love my friends :wave: x

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Queen!!!! 21 days amazing job. Keep it up.

E!

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Queen, welcome back and congrats on 21 days! I missed you!! Losing weight too thats great! I hope to drop a very lbs also. I figured I was drinking 800 calories a day in rum, that is gone so It should be helpful.
Reason for not drinking: waking up in the morning dazed and confused with vague memories of talking to someone on the phone and crying. Who was I talking to and what was I talking about?
I am smoking way to much but that is a problem I will tackle after Christmas.
I heard a country song that hit close to home so I am stealing the lyrics for my self
"one is one too many and one more is never enough"
Have a great day!!!!!

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Another evening AF... waking up with limited sleep (SS- yeh!) but completely clear with no hang over!!!! Listened to " it's gonna be a good life" on the way in to work today and smiled thinking" yes it is"!

A month and a half in to my journey I feel more in control of my life. No more overwhelming thoughts and dreams. My subconscious no longer needs to try to manage And make sense of my real life bad behavior.

This sober thing rocks!!!

Enough!