Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[mya]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Ok People! We are going to start a new thread follow me to "We can kick this sh*t!" Hope to see you there!

[mya]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

The only reason I want to start a new thread is to get all of us that have back tracked.. back on the sober train. You guys are the only ones I can be honest with

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Totally had a shitty day yesterday! Ended it by buying a new bottle of rum. I was really stressed and had a shot, took a shower and went to bed. I am not happy I took this out but I am so glad that I didn't feel the need to drink myself into a coma. I don't want to start thinking this is ok because I am afraid I will slip back into my old ways. School starts today and I need to stay clear headed to keep up with all the kids. I will most likely be the only grand mom in the class! I hope everyone is doing well! Have a great day!

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Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Mya... Yes we do need to kick this sh&" ! Congrats on starting the new thread I will certainly check in with you there. How are you doing??!

Mb... Girl.. Throw out the rest of that bottle of rum. You know what one leads to! Be super strong.

Shue... My friend. I know exactly how you feel I was there not too long ago. Vacation impossible....
Enjoy and do your best to moderate while you are away and try try try not to slip of the edge.

I seemed to let my guard down more and more as my vacation was progressing.

Yes. This is a process.. Not a quick fix... We ( me ) need to learn from our mistakes and keep getting back to the right track. After I said "sober Sunday" I was shaking margaritas 2 hours later. I felt so stupid the next day. Just shaking my head wondering what on earth I was thinking. I was sick for god sake.

Back on track... Back on track... Back on track.

Enough!

[gingerspice]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi all,
Have not posted for a long time things have been up and down - lots of children(Young adult ) problems at home.Managed 10 days alcohol free , then had 1 bottle - 2 nights in a row , managed 4 more alcohol free days then had another bottle tonight. Since not having wine have noticed how bad the effect it actually has on me when i do. I am thinking of going to a.a just to really make this feel like a real problem after all it is a drug , and in the liver it turns itself into aldehyde ( a derivitive of Formaldehyde - yuck ) no wonder people say that Alcoholics Pickle themselves.
Keep telling myself one day at a time - must get used to the fact that it will be like this for the rest of my life.

Take Care Everyone, Remember focus on the one day at a time . xx

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Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Ginger. One day at a time. You got it. You made it 10 days recently... Right? So you know you can get there. I had three plus weeks down AF then went on a 2 week vacation and day after day I was drinking more and more til I was back up to my bottle a day. That was the beginning of aug, and I have had a couple mess ups since.

I am not sure what your drinking pattern is and for how long. I was 15 plus years each and everyday. The only exception was pregnancy (10+ ago) and 6 days a couple years ago.

So... Here we go! Join in. Stay close. Hopefully we can help each other find a better place.

I know my sober days are happy and true
I l know my drunk days are sad and embarrassing.

Enough!

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Good morning, girls,

Happy to report that I managed 2 Days AF. No biggie under noral circumstances but These are my first AF days while on holiday .... Ever. Played lots of golf and steered clear of the 19th hole. I feel like the bad hormones left my body and I am back to my ususal cheery self.

Today we travel to Greece, I need a mantra and a new replacement drink (i am finally sick of Perrier). Come sunset, I'll think of you all and try my very best not to touch the poison.

Enough! How's the cold? Thx for the words of wisdom. I feel you close.

Ginger, welcome back, 1 bottle a night has been my MO too these last few years. It became such a habit that I would not get any peace until I knew the bottle was finished.

Mby, yes, throw out the poison. It is actually liberating to do that. Not to mention you will not have to deal with the AL voice sneaking in " i know it's there, just a wee sip". You could hide that in the attic or the garage, it will never be too far for the AL monster

Good thoughts from me:h:h:h

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Enough and Shu, thanks I did dump the bottle! It was so hard, as it was full. I kept thinking this is a waste of money. I also had a terrible feeling of dread what will happen if I get that need and its not there. So I just told myself to let it go and if I felt like I really needed a drink I would go to a bar and have one. This way I will know I made a real decision and not an impulsive one.

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Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Ice cream and chocolate sauce!!!!

The bug is finally gone and I feel like a human again! Day off today and stressful afternoon (work bull sh**). Instead of the bottle... a loud primal scream, half hour rollerblade.. followed by a mug of ice cream, whip cream, and chocolate sauce (which I just finished.. it was yummy)... allowed me to destress and sooth my mind!

OOOWWWWSSSSAAAAA!!!!!

Shue... I can totally relate what a "win" 2 days AF is on vacation... great job. Have an amazing time in Greece and enjoy taking it all in sober. Just think; you will remember all the details clearly. No headaches and missing out on morning activities to re-cooperate. No wondering what was the last thing you did before going to sleep.

MB... You are so strong to throw it out! It was super hard just to toss the margarita I was drinking! I am impressed!!!! You are getting stronger and stronger. I bet you never would of done that a few months ago.

Anyone else out there??? The first post is the hardest... promise!

Enough!:teeter:

[Snapdragon]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi everyone

Sorry I've not been around for a while - work has been super busy since I got back from honeymoon. Glad to hear that you are all still determined and I would like to join you again.

After a week of moderate drinking on my honeymoon (which I found really easy with new hubby - just a couple of drinks with dinner and then happy to have a coffee and no more) I am falling back down the slippery slope of drinking a bottle of wine every night. MUST STOP!! I don't even know why I do it. It's only at home that I feel like this and always when I'm cooking. I feel really lousy today and hungover.

Enough you are doing well - are you totally AF again or trying to moderate?

Shue - have a fabulous holiday in Greece, lucky you.

Snap x

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Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Morning all!
Well the ice cream did not quite cut it. Went food shopping and lurked in the wine isle for some time. Tried to scout a non alcohol one, but did not exist. Broke down when I saw a 97 cab sebastiani on sale! Was not planning on buying a bottle, but I certainly was going to splurge a little and really enjoy what I was drinking ( not gulping ). I could of drank the whole thing easily, bit stopped at about 2.5 glasses and feel perfectly fine today. Is it wrong I feel little remorse?

Snap... I am trying for AF... managing some days... But certainly not all. I simply can not return to my old pattern. I guess I am still learning! If you are finding yourself going back to a bottle a day you may want to consider some AF time again before you try to moderate.

The one thing that really bothers me is I am still constantly thinking about drinking. How much I drank, how much is left in the bottle, will I save it or finish it tonight... Should I have drank at all... How can I not drink at all ( forever ). Way too much time and energy spent on something so inconsequential.

And yes... I have my big girl shoes on today!!!

Any answers are welcome...

Enough!

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Good morning, Today I figured out one of my major triggers. Since my birthday I have been having a major fight with me. Drinking and feeling bad about it. then going a few days and doing it again. I have managed to control it and stuck by my limit of no more than 2 drinks a day. So even on a bad day I am nowhere near the 8 shots a day I was doing. My DH is working like a demon to take care of all the bills since I am out of work and going to school. I feel like a failure bc I am not helping with the money, on top of that I am feeling neglected bc he is never home and when he is, he is always tired. I feel like such an ass for being angry at him. When ever I start to feel this way I drink and go to sleep. Just to avoid saying something that I know I will regret.

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Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Mb... Crazy day at work today. My first time to catch up a bit. I understand how yu are feeling with your husband. Don't beat yourself up.

You are certainly not a failure. Write down all the great things you do for your family- including cutting down on alcohol. Seriously write a list. I am sure you will see how much you do. It is normal to want your husbands attention; even when he is tired. It's normal.

As to cutting back and your triggers. If you can manage 2 a night without breaking down and wanting to go back to the 8... Yuare on the right track.

I am drinking a glass from a new bottle of the same great cab I bought the other day. I did not drink yesterday, but felt like a few glasses tonight. Not a reward... Not a dire need... Just a way to unwind and make the evening more pleasent.

I even offered my husband a glass... The old days I may have tried to hog it all for myself! It's a 97!!! Ahhrrr!

Off to watch a late movie is and unwind and back to work the rest of the weekend ( boo ).

Touch base tomorrow. Hope you have a better evening.

On my phone--- sorry for the type o s

Enough
xoxo

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

E, I guess moderation is the best we can do right now. I may not ever be completely AF but I am working constantly on keeping what I do down to 2 shots or less a day. Its getting harder and harder to keep that up. I asked my DH today how long he intends to help his exwife financially. I didn't care about this money when we were doing well but now we are struggling. He told me he was going to pay her for the rest of his life, and as he is the only one in our house making money it was his to do with as he pleased, As long as the bills in our house were paid. I was so angry I thought I was going to explode. I tried everything to get rid of this feeling of anger. I went for a drive then went to the gym and worked out until I thought I was going to die then came home and started drinking. She is living on her own and her son lives with us. Her daughter decided to go away to school rather then live with either of her parents. Her father pays for this. I feel like my life has just gotten out of control. Maybe its been this way for a long time and being sober made me aware of it!! I am sorry for dumping. I need to find a job that works with school. I need to stay sober to get some control back in my life!

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Enough, I thank god that I stumbled on to this site a month ago. You guys probably saved my life you got me through the worst of it and I will continue on this road. I will try for as many AF days as I can manage. I may not be happy with my life in general, I am more than happy with the level of control I now have over my drinking! As long as I can maintain this I will be able to deal with anything life throws at me. Thanks again!!!