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    Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

    Hello darlings,
    Greece was fab ? I have a great tan, slept wonderfully and managed long swims every day. No weight loss, but no weight gain either.

    I managed 2 days AF on Greek island soil ( record, really) and the rest I drank in moderation ? 2-3 drinks a day. But it was sooooo hard stopping at that. I swear everybody around me was ordering beer or cocktails since noon. In the days that I drank I swear that half my thinking time was occupied by ?when shall I order the first drink? what shall I have?, better have 2 glasses of water now after that cocktail, the couple next to us just ordered 2 glasses of white, I wonder if it?s any good, I wonder if they have ouzo in the minibar, while hubby is asleep I may have time to down a margarita by the bar ? Argghhhhh .. I could go on and on ?

    Moderation, my foot!!! In the spirit of complete accountability I must confess that the #1 reason I stayed sober is the lack of AL in the minibar, #2 is refusing to drink on the sly.
    My hubby (so far very supportive) ? told me that maybe Greece may not the right time to be AF (easy for him to say, sipping a G&T the whole bloody evening!!).

    So after exhausting my willpower batteries trying to stay dry in Greece, I blew it last night and drank whatever we had in ? the last inch of sherry & 2 grappas, while getting my son ready for first day in school.

    I had no sore head, nor memory loss but I would be kidding myself that I have the AL under control. I am walking a very thin line ? it is soooooo easy to over do it.

    So this is IT, my friends, back to work and back to AF. No more excuses.

    One day at a time still, but going forward ?

    Enough, girl, I am with you all the way, I also tried sipping, not gulping ? man, I had to clench my jaws!!! Your honesty is your best weapon. The moment you start kidding yourself that you?ve got it under control the blasted demon takes over in a flash.

    Mby ? sorry to hear about hubby?s snarky remarks ? that was such a dumb macho thing to say. Do not let your guilt over drinking affect your judgment on that one. You need to stand up for yourself, but you also need to be cunning about it ? and sober. So spill the rum, again.

    Mrs. Snap, good to have you back and I am happy to see that you are honest with yourself. Next Friday I am going to Vienna for our annual board meeting (read license to start drinking as soon as the meeting?s adjourned, then, in my case order more wine in my beautiful hotel room and drink it alone on the balcony enjoying the ? view, rather ? double view ..). I challenge us to make next week?s trip AF.

    Bless, Irie, Smurf, Joe ? glad to have more people decided to kick the bottle, we can always learn something new from each other?s experiences
    workaholic, shoeaholic and yes ... alcoholic

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      Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

      soda, lime & sunset



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      workaholic, shoeaholic and yes ... alcoholic

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        Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

        Good morning, I drank again last night not excessively but I did have 3. I should have logged in when I got home at 10pm. I probably would have stayed sober. Instead I hit the bottle then the shower and was asleep in mins. I am not sick today just sick of it. After reading your stuff I again dumped a half bottle of rum. Instead of thinking of wasted money I was thinking how could I drink half a bottle in 5 days. I am good during the day so I will check in in the evening. L Glutimine will be my best friend today!! I hope everyone has a good day!

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          Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

          Mby, I should have done the same, I seem to get the strength I need from just reading the posts ... and sometimes my first post ever - I was in such a sorry place then, it is important for me not to forget it. My L-glut arrived today (after 2 mths ) ... will report later the effects.
          workaholic, shoeaholic and yes ... alcoholic

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            Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

            Mb... I also arrived home at 10pm... And also ( maybe the exact moment ) poured from my left over very nice red. I sat with my feet in the pool and sipped. Only one... Put the bottle in the garage fridge- out of site and it will keep longer in the fridge... to save for tomorrow... cork in really tight.... Quickly finished the first glass... Retreived the bottle from the fridge and poured another... Ok just a small glass.... Cork back in tight... Bottle back in fridge... Drank this glass... Then started negotiating with myself.... There is only one and a half glasses left in the bottle... Should I finish the bottle and it's gone ... Bla bla bla. Long exhausing story later I lured another half and left some in the bottle.

            Shue... I can totally relate to the waste of time thinking about alcohol. Absurd really. This entire mental badgering over booze is ridiculous. Your Picts are beautiful that you posted!!! Welcome home!

            Snap... Yep... Just one day at a time. Forget about next week and let's get through Wednesday. Toss the rest of your box!

            Otherwise gang... I feel good today. Woke up early and slept a little better. All we can do is keep at it... Stay close... and always remember to stay on guard.

            I will ultimately win.

            Enough!
            Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, but expecting different results. Albert Einstein

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              Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

              Aaarrrghhh, having one of the typical "conquering day 1" moments. Hubby just pissed me off, complaining about everything in my son's school (never attended a single PT meeting, nor can he suggest a different school). He's now gone into his cave (printing the Rugby world cup groups), I am in my cave, the kitchen, having a staring contest with an empty glass ...

              Thinking hard of an alternative to calm my nerves ... Enough, it is what you said today, come to MWO before pouring the first drink.

              Think I'll go tend to my lovely begonias ( I planted them in July, in my first week AF ).
              workaholic, shoeaholic and yes ... alcoholic

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                Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

                Shue.. I just caught your post... Are you okay???

                I hope you made it to your begonias???

                Thinking of you
                E!
                Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, but expecting different results. Albert Einstein

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                  Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

                  Thx, E!, crisis averted, the begonias are thriving ...your words literally saved my day 1. I avoided DH, took a bath then bought a miss Marple mystery for my kindle ... Read half already ... Nighty night ... Day 2 tomorrow
                  workaholic, shoeaholic and yes ... alcoholic

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                    Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

                    Day one today, in a detox unit. I admire you people trying to do it on your own but do wonder why you don't seem to seek medical help? You re all funtioning alohols but there are still things tht help and a five day dtox lieke I am doing shouldn't be too hard to arrange discretely. You all need thiamine too!
                    Anyway, it seems the management here may confiscte my modem today if not my entire laptop so I may not be able to post for a few days. MWO it si great, has saved my life before but get as much more help as you possibly can as well.
                    " I'm not trying to counsel any of you to do anything really special, except to dare to think and to dare to go with the truth and to dare to love completely." -R. Buckminster Fuller

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                      Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

                      Willow, you are right I am a functioning Alcoholic. but I am not doing this alone. The people is this group have helped me achieve more AF days in the last month and a half then I have had in 4 years. I am happy for you that you found something that works for you! If I honestly believed that a 5 day detox would change my life I would do it in a hot second, but the reality is that I will be in this battle everyday for the rest of my life. I wish you all the luck and please check in when you can and let us know how you are doing.

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                        Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

                        Didn't make it AF but had two airplane bottles of swill instead of four or five and postponed it to try to tolerate the chest tightening adrenaline that comes at night. Any improvement is due to reading about how all of you are doing it. Going to look for L-g today, industrial size cannister.

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                          Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

                          Bless... 2 is a heck of a lot better then 4 or 5! You are on the right track. Not much success for me AF this week either, but I continue to battle and try to reach my goals. I keep reminding myself how much better I am doing then my bottles of wine everynight in the not too distant past.
                          I am enjoying a beautiful morning on my patio and looking forward to my day off today. No hangover... Which is a big bonus. I have my club sodas and cranberry ready for later.

                          How is everyone else doing????

                          Enough!
                          Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, but expecting different results. Albert Einstein

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                            Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

                            Getting through, The days are long but I am making it Lglutimine every 3 hours is helping as it did the last time. I should have never stopped taking it. I am a little depressed today we got the wonderful call from my mother-in-law, inviting my DH and my 2 step children to her home for the Jewish hoilday dinner. Again My DH reminded her that I was his wife and that he has 5 children not 2. Her response was "Darling you know I don't consider them family, They are not invited" I don't think this would bother me except my children are very much aware that their own grandmother does not like them! I know it is terrible but the damn bitch is 82 could she just die already. I hate the fact that she hurts my kids!

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                              Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

                              Ohhhhh....Mby. My heart aches for you and the kids. How terribly AWFUL. MIL is a hateful, petty person. Of course you are hurt and angry for the way she is treating the children.

                              Vent all you want here...it's safe and you need it. I guarantee her hatefulness isn't going to add any years to her life.
                              Sober for the Revolution!
                              AF & NF July 23, 2011

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                                Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

                                coming clean

                                Well, I?ll be damned, I thought I was better than this but yesterday was the first time since July that I drank like my old self ?Our nanny?s birthday offering of 1 glass in her health turned into a bottle ?and a half !!!! Amazingly, no hangover ?went straight to bed last night and fell asleep with my kindle on my nose. Sure enough, the 3 AM paranoia kicked in and I had to fight hard to go back to sleep.

                                My brain was switched off, my hand was on auto pilot reaching for the bottle for a refill. Just when I thought that I don?t have to watch myself all the time, that it should not be as hard as in the beginning ? this is a huge step back and I am so disappointed in myself. I feel like all this trying was in vain since I have not had the brains to apply any of things I learnt during the past 2 months.

                                :bang:bang:bang:

                                :headbanger::headbanger::headbanger:

                                Anyway, I poured the rest out of the second bottle, had to do the sneaky run to the recycle bin on my way into work.

                                So, back on the wagon, fighting hard for day 1!!!!

                                Enough, how are you? Still rocking the cranberry sodas?

                                Bless ? those little airplane bottles look so small and innocent, like toys really ? God, I remember buying them in the airport (after security) and sneaking them on the plane ? when they stopped serving AL on short flights ? I was so mad !!!!

                                Mby ? I feel so sorry for the kids (big and small), dealing with rejection and not feeling wanted is not easy for anyone but they will get over it. Her loss, your gain ? at least you don?t have to deal with the old bat. MILs can be sooooo exhausting. Mine is an angel, but that is greatly due to the fact that she lives 3,000 miles away. Vent away ?.
                                workaholic, shoeaholic and yes ... alcoholic

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