Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[mya]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi everyone!
Been away for awhile, yes I have drank but nothing like a couple of months ago.
I have a plan I hope I can deal with it.
I have a plan just to only drink one night a weekend, either Friday or Saturday.
I just wanted to say a quick hi and no I'm going to catch up on this thread.

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Mya!!! Glad you checked in and are doing ok. Can't wait to hear more from you!

After a very stressful day I remained alcohol free!!! Kind of like day 1 again. Very proud that I managed ok without! Go me!

Looking forwrd to catching up with everyone
later... Successes and challenges alike.

Enough!

[scottish lass]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

There are so many wonderful posts here ? I am back to MWO after a little break. I wanted to get 30 days behind me and the start moderating ? someone mentioned Malbec down this thread, and my mouth actually watered! I love wine and totally enjoy the first two glasses, but cannot stop and hate the feeling after 1 ? 2bottles. I am still not accepting of never drinking again, but getting closer to acknowledging it. Things like filet steak just don?t seem the same without the wine ? another thought on this thread ? it never ceases to amaze me how much we are all fighting the same demons!
So, I have cut WAY back and in my 6 months of trying hard, I have one month of 22 AF days in a month, and one of 21 ? so stretching to get to the 30 mark, and hoping that I enjoy it enough to not stop the clock!
It is so comforting to be able to chat with so many like souls ? I thought for so long that I was the only one, I am amazed how many there are of us.
I must not stay away from MWO and all you amazing people. I have had a great Monday and want many more of them?..
Thank you to all of you for your openness and honesty, your ability to share, laugh and cry is the key to my survival and the possibility of a long healthy AF life, and a wonderful family life with my two incredible girls. May they be proud of me, and not embarrassed by a drunk mother ? may my liver heal enough that I am around to support them and see them grow into adults. May I win this battle.

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi girls,

I am crazy busy and super stressed in work ... So quick post from my bberry, while stuck in abismal traffic.

What a wonderful morning, 2 days AF now, taking L glut + Gabba and I think it's helping.

I invited my boss to dinner tonight at home, got myself some AF beers and the best Sauv blanc I can find here. I WILL NOT touch that, no matter what.

Love and power to you all

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Good morning all, Losing my resolve,trying as best I can, I had a drink last night when we went out to dinner with friends. Managed to stop at 1 but it set off the need. My husband got called into work to fix a problem so I made an excuse that we needed milk so I could pick up a bottle. I felt guilty so I just grabbed 2 of those mini bottles. I drank them both while I was still in the car before I went back in the house, and I am going into PMS week. I am not sick or hung over this morning, I actually wish I was as a reminder of what I don't want to do!

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Mby, PMS sets me off the rails ( one of the triggers I have yet to conquer). Get some antidepressants (herbal or not), anything to get your mood up. And get rid of the booze around you, temptation is double hard to resist.

I went on a 3 day mild binge last PMS that actually exacerbated the symptoms. Sending you power vibes, be strong ( tell yourself it's just passing hormones ...):h

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hey gang!
I feel pretty good today and very balanced even with lots of stress I'm my life right now. Feel like I won a very small personal battle not having a single drink to deal with problems yesterday.

Lass... With so many AF days under your belt you will win your battle! Your girls will be proud of their mom and her success! Great job.

Shue... Good luck with your dinner... You are super strong!

Mb.. It's tough when we have set backs. What worked for me when I could not resist a glass was to at least make it as enjoyable as possible. I drank a very good cab in my best glass. Yes... I did fall back a bit, but I never wanted to sneak alcohol or hide bottle.

I will check in around 5 ( trigger time ) if you need to chat and post a bit.

I am here for you

Enough !

[Ghostwriter]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

I'm just like you were

Hi, Autumn--

I'm starting out and your thread really hit home with me. I am a writer and work at home. I would take my girls to school and, as soon as I got back (8:15 am), the first vodka cocktail got poured. I told myself, "I'm an artist; I'm different; no one understands." and told myself "If 'other people went through what I've gone through, they'd drink all day too." it was probably six drinks or more throughout the day and then, yes, at least one bottle of wine a night, usually two. I never, ever got "drunk" or incapable of doing what I needed to do, though a few people told me I slurred my words. I gained weight, was so tired and drawn, looked so old, and I knew that I was dying and that I wasn't going to see my girls grow up. Moreover, I had this constant feeling of being out of control of my life, and that the problems I had were much more monstrous than they really were.

By some stroke of weird luck, I got pneumonia last month, right before I was scheduled to start MWO. I couldn't eat or drink at all for three weeks, so a lot of the physical challenges of stopping drinking were taken care of. I haven't taken any of the supplements or Topomax yet. I'm just starting to feel really better and get my appetite back, as well as a tiny appetite for wine (vodka just scares me now). I'm going to start the full program next week (need to buy a CD player and headphones for the hypnotherapy). The weirdest thing for me is that, for the first time in years and years, I sometimes want chocolate, especially ice cream. I have not eaten ice cream since I started drinking heavily about ten years ago. I feel so normal, when my daughters ask for ice cream and I actually want some too. I also feel normal corking the wine bottle after a glass and putting it in the fridge. I had to fish the cork out of the garbage because I was used to just throwing them away, knowing I'd never leave a bottle unfinished. Thanks for your inspiration.

autumn;1145247 wrote: Morning Enough, Winesucks & Clover,

We can all do this together, I was a massive wino too, my DH was out most evenings, so I would open a bottle of wine or 2 after being on the vodka all day. (it had to start as soon as I opened my eyes). I managed 7 months with the help of MWO, so if I can do it, so you can you too

Everytime the cravings start, just start posting and read old threads like crazy, before you know it, its passed and your ready for bed. My DH is away shortly for a week, so I will be in a posting frenzy to stay AF :H

Stay strong, it really does get so much better, sending you all :l

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hello all!
Made it through super stressful yesterday all the way to super stressful today AF!
I have repeated the following phrase no less then 100 times....
" I do not drink during the week " ... worked by consuming large quantities of chocolate to the point of upset stomach. Healthy lunch of spiniach and shrimp salad and 15 small mini chocolates...

Still craving wine wine wine wine! Feel good... Sleep good... No hangover... but that dam voice still around. Arrrhhhh.

Enough !

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hello Ghost and welcome! Yes... Old posts help you remember where you started out and where you never want to go back to. The one you re- posted was an early one here on our thread. I am glad you joined there is a lot of support. It has helped me a lot the past few months.

Let me know if I can help with anything.
Enough!

[scottish lass]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Day 4 - almost done - my car battled hard to turn into the grocery store parking lot on my way home tonight - the wine was really calling to me!!! have to get up at 5:30am for my gym class, so off to bed and trying to block out the voices - night all.....be safe, be AF!!

[Juja]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi all,

After a glorious 5 1/2 week AF stint, I blew it while on vacation last week. So here I am starting Day 1 again. I feel like such a loser, and wonder if it's truly possible for me to be AF. Damn, I'm so disappointed in myself.

My plan for today: opt out of the obligatory visit my MIL tonight who will want me to drink.

That's all the farther ahead I can plan as of today, Sept. 16 2011, Day 1.

[Juja]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Crap, it's the 15th, not the 16th. I'm not hungover, just lost in time from vacation.

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hello and happy Friday!

Lass... Congrats for staying strong and not stopping at the store. I did exactly that Wed night at 10 on my way home. I just couldn't get past wanting a glass. So I bought a bottle and did stop at two glasses on Wednesday eve and poured the remaining 2 last night. It was really hard stoppng at 2 yesterday. If I had anything interesting in my liquor cabinet I would of continued drinking.. But I did not and I was at least sensible enough not to go out and buy another bottle of wine ( which I would of probably opened and finished) to be perfectly honest.

Juja! 5 plus weeks was an amazing run ( much longer then mine ). My vacation was also the death of my AF days. I totally understand how tough it is. Simply time to get back on track and continue conquering!!!

Hope everyone else is doing ok. Make sure to check in!

It's time to battle the weekend temptations

Enough!

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

My nephew and his girlfriend had a beautiful baby boy on wed. This event brought both joy and sorrow. The baby looks like a clone of his dad, which had everyone pulling out pictures of him as a baby. I found this to be heartbreaking. It emphasized for me that my sister is dead and will never see be a part of this childs' life. It was a tough couple of days and definitely not AF. I didn't go crazy and binge drink but I am feeling better today and just want one day AF to get me back on track!