Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Ki... Everyday you will feel better and better. Are they really cravings OR sheer habit that you want your wine??? For me it is a habit. Right now I do not crave alcohol. But I did want it a few hours ago. If my body was truly withdrawing I would want it more now right?

The tricky part is... After a few weeks ( or less ) You feel great and you are the bomb! This drinking deal... No big deal.. I beat it... Then bam you have a drink and before long back in the vicious circle of wanting more and more. Happened to me! I know this now for sure... I DO NOT want one drink... I want 5 or more.
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[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Ok ... Final thoughts!
One more reason I don't drink...
Around 11:30 tonight my super skinny 13 year old son popped out of his room wanting to eat something. Dad didn't feel me dinner ( probably not the case- but not a Mommy dinner )...
The old ( drunk )me would of turned into crazy mom and steamed and sent him back to his room... This new improved sober version of Mom was cabable of making soup and grilled cheese sandwiches and having a meaningful conversation at 11:30. He went to bed telling me a genuine I love you Mom... Thanks!

All I can hope is I can make more of these memories with my boys and the ones of crazy mom disappear.

Enough!

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Enough your posts are what keeps me moving toward a positive goal! Loved reading about soup and grilled cheese. Really its the everyday moments we miss when we are not totally present with our kids! Priceless I am glad you both have that memory to think of. Keep up the great work and keep on posting!

[mby82266]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

As you can see the more time I have sober the more positive I get! Why do I forget AL is a depressant! I don't know? today is a family day! I hope everyone has a great day!

[hadit]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Enough, Love your posts. About to head off to work,just wanted to say that I relate so much to your journey. I am just slowly taking AL out of my life. Used to drink heavily everday day, now its once a week and really the cravings are nowhere near as strong as they use to be. I actually DECIDE whether to drink or not. Once I didnt even think about it. Just habit!!!:thanks::thanks: Have to fly!!! and thanks

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi gang,

I fell off the wagon in spectacular fashion ( 2 black outs in one week) ? and I am now at the office feeling utterly drained and of course, depressed (AL depressed, normally I am always in high spirits).

I think I need to have ?the talk? with hubby and fess up. I?ve been dodging this one for a while but obviously I cannot continue trying to quit on my own. I cringe at the thought ? I feel such shame.

Enough, sweetie, thanks for all the posts, I thought I was the bomb 10 days ago, then bam!!! Back to square one .. or worse.

Boozer ? I am so happy for you, overall I also drank less too but need to eliminate the crazy moments of complete lack of control.

Mby ? the last 4 AF days I had such energy and joy ( even on a liquids only fast ) .

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Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

I am not counting days... But if I was today is day 4 AF! I feel so dam good I can't stand it! The only snafoo I have is tonight is Halloween and good friends coming over and wine coming over! I purposely did not buy wine yesterday that I knew I would need for our get together.

I don't want to drink but I am not beyond temptation.

Shue... I am so sorry that you had such a slip. I was getting worried when I did not hear from you. Well you are back... stay strong and post often.

Mb... You sound good... Stay positive.

Boozer... Hey! Great job cutting back. Nice to hear from you.

Happy Halloween!
Enough!

[mya]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Seriously if I didn't get control of this demon I am going to lose my mind and my family.

[kiwik]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Well yesterday sucked. Day 6 and I had the headache from hell all day at work, which had turned into a migraine by the time I got home. Felt really queasy as well. Went to bed at 6 but didn't sleep well all night. Kept having horrible/scary dreams.
Feel very drained today.
Only good thing was that I felt so awful I didn't want a drink!
Now, mircaulously today is day 7. Do you know I haven't had 7 days AF in nearly a decade?
Feeling good about that, at least.
I'm hoping like hell that was the worst of the detox...surely? (can't believe it's gone on this long)
All words of encouragement gratefully received

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Ki... Wow! It must feel awesome to have your first AF week! Super congrats just keep on the right track and you will find peace!

I began my Halloween get together with my boys, best friends, and lots of whining about this, that, and other unimportant things from the small little mosters and aliens

Other then feeding them and getting them off to trick or treat land... The more important issue of booze control was first and formost as 4 happy bottle of red now sat in my kitchen. My husband and friend found the beers and I began with a pineapple surprise martini... Served up in best glasses to me and my pal... The surprise was A F! It was tasty... She said mmmm... but no go... Time to open the wine... Here is the great part... Poured one for her... and the evening was just fine!

No major stress... No sweats... No I would die if I don't have a sip right this second!
I did indeed join her in a glass... And a second... Had a truly nice sober night.

On occasions like today it would not be surprising if we polished off 3 or 4 bottles. Today a bottle and a half ( my part was the half )

To bed sober... Back to AF... Tomorrow!

Boo!
E!

[shueaddict]

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Well, I came clean to hubby last night, told him about the black outs, not being able to stop once I start drinking, wanting more and more and having to watch and pace myself while out on social occasions ? I also told him about MWO and Jason Vale. It felt liberating ? he wants me to write down my goal and he will help me stick to it.

The truly odd thing is that he did not notice anything about me on the times that I blacked out, being the peaceful drunk that I am, always cleaning up the kitchen, brushing my teeth etc ? all of which I don?t remember the next day. He was shocked to hear that I don?t remember saying good bye to our guests on Sunday night.

Enough ? I am so happy you had a great Halloween ? the pineapple martini is a great touch

Kiwik ? I felt like crap for about 3 weeks when I went cold turkey for the first time in July (nausea, headaches, crankiness and the general feeling that I got hit by a truck) ? I found that eating small healthy meals often (like every 2 hours) helped to at least keep my blood sugar levels in check and gave me more energy ? any form of simple sugar (candy or drinks) just made it worse - sunshine, if you can find it helped me with the general depression and apathy. Look, suck it up, it will go away, this much I promise.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Well done Shue, great that your hubby is going to be there by your side, now he knows the full extent of the problem. The only way is up, you can do this.

[available]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

day one also

i get home from work, feed the animals, sit at the computer and start drinking and i normally do this everday. I wake up and think oh god i have to go to work but i keep going. Wine is way too cheap so instead of buying a bottle i buy a box with 6 in it. It is now time to stop. My brother was an alcoholic and died at 47. I am 47 but know it will happen if i dont stop. I am hoping for lots of support as i know it is needed. :new:

[available]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

enough

Hi enough

tomorrow will be my day two also and i am normally fine at work and say no i am not having a wine tonight then by the end of the day i say oh bugger it i deserve it. I am going to drive home tomorrow with determination put on my walking shoes and go for a walk with my dogs. Any suggestions on wat to drink other than alcohol? One can only drink so much water and cups of tea.:h

[Blooming Rose]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi all,

I've been here before, not for several months tho. Tried to moderate but it was slowly getting out of control again - not as bad as I was a year or so ago, but heading in the wrong direction. Had my birthday a week ago & decided with hubby's support too that it's time to give it up completely. Wine is my problem too - 2 glasses not enough, by the time I have 2 or 3 I lose the sense to stop.
Melbourne cup lunch here in Oz today, slipped & had about 2.5 glasses. But good thing is I didn't buy anything on the way home from work, which I would have a couple of weeks ago. So I'd like to join you in beating this thing!!!

Rose :new: