Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[sunshinedaisies]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Dipping my toes in the water........

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Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hey all!
Shue...great job coming clean with hubby! I can totally relate to their cluelessness about things. Mine bought me case after case of wine week aver week without questioning why.

Avail... Welcome first thing... You have to change the way you think about alcohol being a reward. I though the same until recently. It is not a reward. Period. If you have trouble with alcohol ( as I do ). All you wind up "deserving" when you "treat yourself" to wine is a headache.. Drymouth... Loss of memory and time... Nothing else. Sorry I know this is a strong statement.

Rose... Welcome also! Try club soda with cranberry.. A little pineapple juice... Tazo teas are great.

Stay close and happy.
E!

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Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Welcome Sunshine
don't dip you toes... Just dive in... It's like pulling off a bandaide.
We all need a little sunshine in our lives
E!

[Josies]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

I drink wine too. I sust got started here today. I am one of those drinkers who most people dont know about - a closet drinker but sadly to say people are starting to learn about because I am so stupid and dont learn. I dont drink daily and lots of times I can go out and have a drink and be fine but every 2 - 4 weeks I will go out on a binge for 1 - 3 days. Its BAD. I HATE myself for it. I started drinking after I had a really bad disease and was a lot of chronic pain for many years (started about 15 years ago). I have gotten that (the pain - thanks to some great medical technology) somewhat under control but the cycle all ready started. Then I had a still born and went into major depression. Attempted IVF several times to no avail. Finally we adopted a baby a few years ago (I also have an older child who is biological - go figure she was an oops) During my pregnancy and my IVF I was sober the whole time. Honestly the guilt was tremendous - even though I did everything right - I thought about things I ate - and one time I drank before I had missed my period when I had the still born but the doctor said that would not have caused it) I should be happy now right?? I think I suffer from depression and some days Im OK (not 100% though in years) and some days Im a mess. Even though I adopted the baby I still grieve so much from losing the one. Some days I dont want to get out of bed. I just am glad I am not the only one out there with this problem and want to get my life under control and be happy again. I ordered a bunch of stuff today called the The Last Call Program. Its supposed to change to Biomechanisms in your brain. I really hope it works because I really dont want to live like this anymore. I feel like such a loser and my family hates me. Take care and hope to get support from this group!!

Josies

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Mornin' peeps,

Here's my plan, communicated to DH for his support:

Goal #1 - AF until 11.11.2011 (our 11th wedding anniversary, to be celebrated in Italy)
On the 12th ? set goal #2
This is what I asked of him:
a. Please do not offer or volunteer any jungle juice
b. Before going out to a social engagement discuss with me the ?action plan?
c. Think up yummy juices / teas etc
d. Kick my bum outdoor to exercise


Last night I had my first outing with hubby - we discussed beforehand that neither of us will drink, It is amazing the amount of probing and abuse he's got from his ex colleagues over drinking coke olny. He told me after that he fully understands that "AL is the only drug you have to justify not taking".


Had I not told hubby about my problem, last night I would have surely had 2 glasses, drove home, had 1 night cap (or more) - then would sleep badly from 3 AM.

Big hug from me to you all

[available]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

another day

Hi Josies you are not a loser. It is a disease that hopefully we can all overecome. My brother died of alcoholism but did i worry, yes until i passed the age he died, then no. I have four kids that know when i get home i drink, they dont say much. My daughter that just got engaged said she would not leave her children with me. I think from when she said that it has been at the back of my mind to try and stop or moderate. I feel like you do too but realise that there are a lot of people in the same situation and we pretend to be normal until behind closed doors. Day 3 tomorrow and tonight i am on the computer without a glass of wine and a bottle beside me. Tomorrow i know will be the same.

And ENOUGH tough words are good words to be taken on board as i dont deserve to wake up the way i do and feel the way i do. thank you.

[mightymite]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

available, one of the many reasons I quit is because I was afraid my kids would not want me to watch their children and that would just kill me. I would rather die than not be able to be the responsible grandmother I hope to be some day. No grandkids yet, just a grandpuppy, but I am ready!

[mya]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Well I think my marriage is not going to survive this latest bout.
To make a long story short a few months ago someone contacted me that DH was cheating he denied it and so I have been drinking more and more and when I do I bring it all up again. Now he said he has been hearing things about me which is very untrue. We got in a huge fight last night and this morning and I told him that I know we have to work on our marriage bc he says he doesn't trust me now and came clean about sneaking alcohol and told him I needed his help and he said I can only want to help myself first. I told him I wanted to know that he would be on my side and he said he has always been on my side. Usually after a fight with him I would go right away and buy alcohol but this is the first time that I think my marriage might be over. I can't quit crying

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Sorry to hear it, Mya, but good job not seeking solace in wine.

Your DH is right about one thing - you need to help yourself first.

Will pray for you to find a way out of this

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

the half bottle of red from last Sunday's Haloween party was meekly whispering to me tonight. I hissed back " F... off!!! and proceeded to have some half left cheesecake.

I want to tell my DH that in his absence I did not have a glass with the nanny (I used to basically force her to drink just to have an excuse to open a bottle) - nor did I have one after I put junior to bed.

I will be in the chat room later, if anyone feels like it

[available]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Morning all

Mya stay strong we are all in the same boat though i dont have a DH. I would like a DH but who would want me in this state is my opinion but I am doing this for myself and I need to realise that i have a big problem (which i do) and am prepared to get to day 4 no matter what.

Patrice i dont have grandkids yet either but when i do i want to be the best nana they could ever ask for. Shueaddict get rid of the wine lol or i may come visit ha ha. White wine was my downfall but i am feeling a bit euphoric this morning waking up feeling like the general population does.

have a great day all

[BlondeAFAmbition]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi all. I am a bit late to this thread but I feel I belong in this group with all the wine lovers because that is my poison of choice...or should I say "was", since today is the start of my sobriety. I have been trying to give up my daily consumption of red wine (cabernet usually) for many years. I had a few successes and even made it a few months AF, with the help of MWO earlier this year. However, I slipped back and eventually made it up to my over a normal sized bottle a day and close to a bottle and a half since I was buying the larger 1.5 bottle about every day to make sure I always had enough to last me. This morning I heard the recycling truck take the last full bin of all those loud clanky bottles which I was so embarrassed about on the sidewalk. Geez. Well, no more. Now it will just be hubby's beer bottles but my own wine bottles took up at least one bin over the course of a week! Stay strong everyone, we can do this! I don't even really like the taste of red wine anyway, what is the deal? Now I'm switching over to seltzer and it's much more refreshing. Wine always made me so thirsty and oh my God...so bloated! I can see it in my face. Can't wait till the morning when I won't wake up with a hangover and red wine headache. Plus, no 3AM wake up call from guilt and regret. Amen.

[mya]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Thanks everyone and welcome Blonde.

Even though DH is barely talking to me I don't have the energy or want to go get alcohol.

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Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

I miss a day and have lots of catching up to do!

On my end had a day off filled with yardwork and cooking and getting kids off to their respective afterschool stuff ( typical day off ). Cooking dinner remains a trigger, especially with a open bottle within reach ( left over from halloween ). I had 3 glasses last night over 4 hours or so.

My 13 year old and I were talking and he said... I have to show you something... well... It was the recent article out on winedrinking and the increase of breastcancer ( which I saw a few day before). I thanking him for his concern... Explained conflicting opinions on wine consumption... And though what an idiot I was to worry my son and pour another glass! Just one more reason to really not drink!

I moved on to tea... And managed a sober evening ( just )

Tbc... E!

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

shucks, Enough!!!

your boy is so sweet!!!

well done moving to tea, glad you're doing well and feeling strong

big kiss