Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Jos... The first step is making a decision to change the way you want to live. Best of luck!

Shue... Sounds like you have a good plan. How did yesterday go? Funny... You mention the nanny... When I had a nanny I did the same thing!

Avail... Great resolve... Keep it up!

Mighty... Hello and welcome back!

Mya... Oh honey... I wish I could take away some of your troubles. Shue is right you need to take care of you.

Blonde ... Welcome... I know! The evil recycle bin!!! When you have to order extra bins ( as I did ) you would thInk " maybe I have a problem with alcohol"... Yeh no chance! No more covering all the evidence with soda cans

Have a successful day to all!
Enough!

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Shue... How are you hon! yes... He is a very sweet boy.
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[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

great actually ... says shu sheepishly ..

got a few minuts for a chat ? in the chat room?

[Juja]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

I'm back, as some of you may have seen on the "All I want is 30...." thread. I failed, but I'm going to give it my very best shot from here on out.

After failing to hold to be true to my plan, I've decided to start again. Today is Day 2, but I figure Day 1 didn't really count as I couldn't have drunk another drop of AL if you'd put a gun to my head. One bottle of wine and two beers is more than this old girl can handle, and I suffered greatly.

So, I'll be sticking with you guys, my loving peeps, to help me. I don't want AL to use me as a punching bag anymore.

Also, can anyone tell me why my upper gut still hurts? I know it's the result of AL, as I've experienced it before after drinking heavily. I researched pancreatitis (no), pancreatic cancer (no), and cirhossis (no). Maybe my intestines are irritated from the AL.

mby--My heart goes out to you. Work on yourself first. As someone said, "Make you sobriety your no. 1 priority." Perhaps the other problems will resolve themselves if you can get AL behind you. My heart goes out to you.

Thinking about all of you today, and loving you every minute.:l

[Summerstar]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

:new:

I'm going to try this out. I drink every day (love the wine!)...I don't start until late afternoon and never get drunk, I'm just sick of drinking. Today I have a headache and am just plain tired of it! I don't want to talk to anyone about it (but I do) because I am a teacher and a mother. Help?

[mya]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Juja you can do it, and today is also my Day 2, I am feeling really good about being AF this time, probably bc I was destroying my marriage. DH and I did talk did more talking on the phone than in person and I think that was better neither one of us could walk away. I don't know about DH but I have come to the conclusion that if anyone else wants to talk rumors about my marriage I WILL NOT take the time to listen. These people are sick and have no life so they want to destory ours.
Thanks everyone for being here for me bc I haven't even told my friends about any of this and it's good to come to a place where you can talk freely

[mightymite]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Welcome summerstar. You came to the right place. You will find all kinds of support from wonderful, caring people on this site. I, too, love, love, love wine. Only Chardonnay though. Could not drink red or anything else. Funny how that is. I have decided to give it up for good. After many, many years of trying to moderate and failing, I know I can no longer do that. I don't know what your plans are or if you have gotten to that point yet, but check out the tools site on here. This was crucial for me. Set up a plan and always know you can come here any time of day to find someone to lean on. Take care and hope to see ya around.

[Summerstar]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Thanks, Mightymite! I really want to kick this. I have tried and tried many times for years but it doesn't work. I'm a wife, mother, teacher, and I'm exhausted! I know it is because of the drinking. I never feel rested and I woke up with a headache this morning. I don't let my kids see me drink...I am such a closet drinker. Very shameful. I was a bit hesitant about writing on this, but it feels good admitting out loud (kind of out loud, I guess) that I'm an alcoholic.

Thanks for your support! This is day one. I will be OK until about 6pm. I'm already worried about 6:01.

I will check out the tools now...where is it? I have looked but must keep overlooking.

[mightymite]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

If you go under Monthly Abstinence it is the first thread called toolbox. Most people are able to copy it on their reply to others who are looking for it, but I am such an idiot when it comes to computers that I couldn't do it. Let me know if you can't find it or I am sure someone will copy it for you to just click on it.

I completely understand your situation. My time was from 3-5 and then we would eat dinner. After dinner, I would not have anything else but I certainly didn't need to either. I was feeling the same way too. Just so tired of it all. It really is exhausting to be an al. It takes a lot of effort. I applaud you in wanting to change your life. Trust me, it is the best thing to do. I wish I could take away all of those memories my children must have of mommy being drunk or smelling like wine. Not a pretty sight. But I can lead by example now and I am excited to do so.

[available]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

good morning one and all. Day 4 today and i had the worst sleep in my life and actually feel like i had had those 2 bottles of wine last night. Glad i didnt as i would feel really bad and would not go to work. I think i have to train myself to go to sleep when i am tired and not at my usual 11pm time.

Hey Summer you can do it, I admit that my drinking was taking over my life but its little steps day by day. I normally drink when i get home from work and now i go for a walk to change my way of life. Be determined and a day at a time.

Best of luck all for today. Think a couple of panadol are needed for me.

GOAL Day 5
AF 1/11/11

[Summerstar]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Mighty--thanks! Found it!

Available--Thank, you! I wish I could go back, too. Just looking to going ahead now.

[BlondeAFAmbition]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Welcome Summerstar, like it has been said, you are in a wonderful place. Yes, the toolbox is a good place to start. I find that coming to MWO every day, first thing in the morning and then at the end of my day, is working miracles in keeping me sober.

Enough, I think it was you that joked about hiding the wine bottles in the recycling bin with soda cans...yup, tried that trick too. Actually looking forward to trash day next week cause I won't have all those bottles!
Good job to everyone who is sticking to their guns and giving up the vino. Have a fabulous night!

[available]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Summer this is my first time AF for 4 days in god only knows how long, so if i can do it i reckon anyone can. next is the fags but they are my crutch as well as this site at the moment.

Blonde, i live with my son and he doesnt drink much and i was filling up the bin with so many bottles oh and the odd newspaper that it had to go in the normal bin. makes me ashamed to think that but proud to know next recycle day will be clunk free.

[Nelz]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

BlondeAFAmbition;1202906 wrote: Welcome Summerstar, like it has been said, you are in a wonderful place. Yes, the toolbox is a good place to start. I find that coming to MWO every day, first thing in the morning and then at the end of my day, is working miracles in keeping me sober.

Enough, I think it was you that joked about hiding the wine bottles in the recycling bin with soda cans...yup, tried that trick too. Actually looking forward to trash day next week cause I won't have all those bottles!
Good job to everyone who is sticking to their guns and giving up the vino. Have a fabulous night!

That is AWESOME, I remember trying to be "quiet" when I was tying up the inner lining trash bag.......=insert elmer fudd pic here= be berry berry quiet..........

That task proved to be quite impossible, and Id have 3 empty 30 pack cartons of beer..wondering what the trash man thought.

Now its just mountains of plastic bottles Im not ashamed of

[athome]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi everyone....have been reading the posts every day but havent posted in a while....am still here, al free and feeling much better. Am still tempted almost daily but the urges arent as strong. Halloween was hard as we went to another family party where everyone was drinking.... i held out and was glad the next day!!

The post about the bottles clanking in the recycling is soooo true...i used to 'pad' the bottles with plastic or kitchen roll to try disguise the noise...am cringeing at the thought!!!!

Mightymite....I think back to trying to get my kids off to bed early when they werent even tired or looking for some excuse (bad behaviour or the like) so i could get them out of the way to drink! In my later days of drinking i would just start drinking at 530 regardless....the smell of wine off me and my rush to get them to bed with them lying there confused while i drank lying on the sofa still haunts me! Then not being available next morning til well after they were up looking for their breakfast....its dreadful! Now Im up before them with a good morning and breakfast and we all watch tv before bed together and they get a goodnight kiss and tucked in by Mummy...what a difference, thing is im enjoying things now....my kids are much happier and are noticing that Mummy is different, its almost as if they're afraid to question it in case it goes back to way it was before...very sad
I hope never to return to the lonely, sad existance i had when i thought about nothing and enjoyed nothing except my next drink, and the next and the next!

Summer.....Im a Mother too as you can see and they DO notice!!!! Mine are 7, 6 and 5 months and the older two are delighted to have their Mummy back....keep going, its so worth it!!! I found it very hard at the start and was almost constantly tired and in a bad mood because i felt like i was denying myself and felt hard done by. Everything felt like drudgery. I often wondered why i was bothering at all. Now after several weeks of zero alcohol i am enjoying the little everyday things more and more. Its still tempting but each time i say no is a notch on my belt and a pat on the back for me.

Keep posting everyone....its keeping me going and im here in the backround reading everything.

Thanks
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