Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[Laughing loud]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Available -- I completely agree with you about the doctor...can't imagine telling a doctor how much I was really drinking (not to mention how many cigs I smoke). They might judge, and make me have tests, and tell how much damage I've done.

And I can always tell when our trash is picked up from the clinks of the bottles. I can only hope the neighbors think we eat a lot of spaghetti sauce or similar.

Caper, I love the ICU analogy, and I'm going to adopt it for the rest of the week.

[available]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

I agree with you Caper in that it just hits u in the head like a brick and something clicks that you dont need al, i am not sure i am there yet but i am just proud i am not drinking as soon as i get home from work till i blackout and i am having af time also. at the present time i dont want a drink so that is a blessing. I am not a spiritual person so thats not going to work. though i do love "touched by an angel" makes me cry lol. now if i had those angels around i would not drink!.
LL glad u understand that one, totally stupid logic we have. spaghetti sauce, now i did not think of that as cld not possibly be so many wine bottles with one person living in the house. why dont they make coke bottles glass anymore sigh. oh well i am doing ok today, just tired but no thoughts of the bottleshop on the way home and i am happy with that.
take care all. xx

[Caper]

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Jolie & Laughing Loud ? Thanks so much for the kind words. I hope the ICU idea works for you both. My thought was that no matter what you spoil yourself with for a couple of weeks or so, it will not be as bad for your health as alcohol!
Available ? Glad to hear you?re having some AF free time. I think if we all make our way to the top by different routes, that?s okay as long as we?re attempting the climb. But don?t discount those angels too quickly ? they?re very patient!
To all - Another change I?ve implemented ? I figured out what I was spending on wine every week (Yikes!) and have decided to put a good portion of that away every week ?under the mattress.? I think this is a good motivator for me because I never save a dime, but if I could spend that much money on booze I can certainly put some of it away for a rainy day or a nice reward someday.

[Caper]

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Oh, one more thing - Available and Laughing Loud - please don't feel that you can't be completely honest with your doctors. Believe me, they've heard way worse than you could ever even make up!

[available]

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Caper, i sure wont give up on those angels, i do believe i have someone looking after me. Oh god the dr thing, well i might tackle that one after i go to thailand on hols in 4 weeks. I dont really ahve a good dr i can communicate with as our clinics its like make an appt with whoever. i do have a psychologist that i used to see over a year ago so i am seriously considering contacting her again as need to sort out a few issues that are getting me down. mind u lack of sleep and heat are getting me down too. but day 4. take care all x

[lifechange]

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i'm back after a couple of months of trying to moderate.
i knew deep in my heart it could never work --i tried hard because i wanted to drink like normal people. normal people who drink a lot. but i can't.

Caper, what you wrote really helped me. i am 42 and have been struggling, really struggling, to stop drinking for the past 2 years. i've been drinking too much since i was in high school-- but i've been aware that i have a problem and can't just easily not have a drink for one day for about 2 years.
i definately don't want to still be thinking aout day 1 when i'm 60.
so i am doing whatever i have to to just not drink no matter what.
i'm also spoiling myself like crazy this week, reading posts constantly and trying to keep positive.
trying to notice all the things i can do and the foods and drinks i can consume. just not al.

so i'm starting day 5 today. and i've started praying-- though i also don't know what i believe in-- i've been praying to someone/thing, promising to open my eyes a little wider to notice the small details and signs that i'm on the right track.

strength to you all.!!

[Snapdragon]

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Hi Lifechange and well done for getting to Day 5 :goodjob:

Hi to everyone here Enough.. Shue... Juja.. Caper it's great to read your posts and keep up with how you're all doing - and to read your honesty about struggles etc - and we all have those!! . I've been away at an exhibition for over a week and although I didn't have access to my laptop, could read MWO on my Blackberry so it's been really helpful to keep me focused (posting on a BB is too fiddly though so I haven't even attempted it!)

I haven't been totally AF - although I know I should have as I'm concerned about my health. I have been all lot more sensible though - turning down the numerous offers of wine and even champagne during the days (anyone who's been to trade exhibitions will know what I'm talking about!) and at the boozy meals in the evening, I managed to stick to just three glasses of wine and lots of glasses of mineral water in between.

I read the Toolbox yesterday (I don't think I ever really read it in depth before) and it's so helpful and inspiring - would certainly recommend a peak if you haven't already. I've decided to give it a real push to go completely AF (Day 2 for me today). I have a big dinner in London tonight but have already decided to stick to mineral water.

I'm just wondering - so many of us have got to 10, 11 or so days AF and then cave in. I wonder what the magic number is where you know you have the strength to move forward and not slip back down the slippery slope?

Best wishes to you all and thank you so much for your help :thanks:

[Snapdragon]

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It took me a while to find the Toolbox thread again - so here's the link in case anyone else wants to have a browse. It's really quite inspiring! TOOLBOX

[Juja]

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Hi Snap, Shue, Enough, and all my dear ones,

Have been MIA from this thread for awhile, but thinking of you. Day ones piling up.

It's becoming more difficult to go to MWO and see that so-and-so has 30 days, or 60 days, or a year. I'm happy for them, but don't see how they do it. It makes me feel bad about myself, so I find myself avoiding the site except for "An Older Drunk...." If I stay in the Just Starting Out section I don't feel like such a loser.

:lJuja:l

[available]

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juj dont be hard on yourself cause that means i have to be hard on myself too lol. i do the same as you and think god will i ever do 30 days etc but i am sure the guys who have wracked it up had our struggles as well. maybe we shld tell them all to tell us lol. then we may not feel so bad. any thread u go to i will stalk you ok. PM me if u need a chat. x

[Enough!]

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Today

Hello my friends! Hope everyone keeps checking in through the good bad and ugly. I am enjoying a beautiful morning with a whole half hour to think and reflect. As busy moms we know how valuable that little piece of tIme is. Ups and downs on my end, but I feel great today

This is how I want to feel every morning.
The best to all...
Enough!
Xoxo

[Juja]

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Ugly checking in.

Today will be better, as long as I keep the depression and anxiety at bay. I need to root through my library and find a good book.....

[FreeFly]

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Juja;1251103 wrote: Ugly checking in.

Hi beautiful

[FreeFly]

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Caper;1249805 wrote: Plus I do believe in prayer and I finally asked God not to just help me stop drinking but to take away from me the desire to drink and I totally believe He has. There can be no other reason why it's been this easy so far; no withdrawal symptoms and I'm sleeping like a baby! Good luck all!

Hope you don't mind me jumping in on this thread..

Caper - I saw this and it made me very happy. I've been asking upstairs this time to help me stop drinking. A little voice popped in my head this evening (as monster craving hit) to ask God to take away the cravings. I like the way you've put it - to ask God to take away the "desire" to drink. I'm thanking upstairs for my sober days and tonight I shall add this request. I too slept like a baby last night

[Caper]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Lifechange & FreeFly – I’m very glad to hear that something I wrote has helped you. You’re so right – you do not want to wait as long as I did to get sober – if only I could have those years back – but I can’t and I just have to keep moving forward like we all do. I’m especially glad to hear that you’ve started praying. I cannot tell you how much different this time is, since I asked God to take away my desire to drink. After 4 days AF, my husband (not knowing I had stopped drinking) put down in front of me, a glass of wine as I worked at my desk. I looked at it, and thought about it for awhile but the desire to drink it was absolutely not there. I was able to pour it out and believe it or not, 23 days later, the open bottle is still sitting in the refrigerator. I still think about wine every day at the hour when I used to start drinking, but thinking about it and craving it is so much different. And right now I cannot think of a good reason to drink again. The most important thing to remember is to stay “in the day” and to continue to pray daily that you will not have the desire to drink. It’s like the Lord’s prayer in that we ask God to supply us with “our daily bread” - not our weekly bread or our annual bread. God wants our attention every day, and wants to bless us daily if we’ll only ask Him to.
Snapdragon – I don’t think there is a “magic number” of AF days – I’m sure it’s different for everyone and besides, all of us are just one drink away from that slippery slope. Sometimes I wonder if we should even count the days – seems to be more harmful than helpful to some of us. I still think there comes a time when you simply know it’s over and from then on, maybe it’s better just to say to yourself “I can’t remember how long it’s been, but I don’t drink anymore.”