Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

If i am a good girl

Snap, my heart is set on "shell glossy elaphne snake" in fushia, and50% off.

7 more days ...

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Shue... Congrats on passing the week mark

I can smell the new shoe smell of your choo's !

Enough!

[Donewithpoison]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

This Way - find your triggers, and work on predicting when they will most likely creep up on you. Then get extremely hydrated, and extremely busy! (I now have a weed-free flower garden, and the cleanest 3 dogs on the planet!) Just get your mind occupied ASAP - the craving will pass sooner than you think.

Shueaddict - Those Jimmy Choo's sound like perfection - you WILL get there!

Enough - I hear you on the "gremlins", and I think the little nasty wine voices in my brain are getting the message from my heart. I woke up this morning in a complete panic - I had just dreamed that I came home from work, poured a glass of wine, and was going for glass #2. I jolted awake, I was so upset that I had done that and messed up all that I am accomplishing! What a relief that it was only a dream - and what a feeling of gratitude that my sleeping brain doesn't want to drink either!

Everyone enjoy an AF Monday!:rockon:

[FlyAway]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

not tonight;1148078 wrote: Good afternoon all,

Glad to see so many new people! Got through last night's movie without my usual large glass of wine, which was hard at first when the waiter came to take our order, but it stuck with mint tea. The benefit of not drinking while at the movies is that I don't drift off towards the end (which is just pure class).

I find it interesting that so many of us have partners that watch us drink too much but don't believe that we have a real problem. They see it is just a matter of self control. I know that if my husband drank the way I do, passed out most nights on the couch, I would not be able to over look it. I would not go out and get him a bottle of wine if he asked me to. Perhaps it can be just as hard for our partners to admit there is a problem as it is for us.

Anyway, on to day 6. Feeling stronger and very motivated. Hope everyone has a great Saturday!

Ain't that the truth! I don't understand how my husband can be so accepting and loving to me. I couldn't overlook it either if roles were reversed. Funny thing is that sometimes in the past when I've stopped drinking my husband would suddenly be bringing home bottles for me and offering me drinks. Was he feeling threatened by my sobriety?

[FlyAway]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

shueaddict;1148014 wrote:
I dwelled for a while on the 3AM guilt trip upon sobering up. If i had to pinpoint the thing i most hated about drinking this would be it. The moment i wake up with a lurch,
All sweatty, unware of time, of how i got into bed, hoping against hope that i did not make a fool of myself and praying that i can get back to sleep so that i can function the next day. The guilt i felt in those wee hours of the morning is the worst ... Ever .. I do not want to have to feel it, ever, again.

Oh God, BTDT. So many times. The 3am shameful wake up call. Making all kinds of promises to myself and feeling total disgust. There were actually a couple times where I wished I would just die before morning. :upset:

[FlyAway]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Enough, thanks for the invite. Today is day 7 for me. I just got done reading the whole thread and hope to eventually get to know you all and your names!

Reading the thread brought back lots of embarrassing memories for me. I remember going to an Italian restaurant last year with my husband and the waitress asking if we've ever eaten there before. I said No and my husband said Yes at the exact same time! Then my husband looked at me and said "What are you talking about? We were just here a couple weeks ago!" I said "Oh yeah," but really couldn't remember. Later it came back to me. We had reservations for dinner, but were early. So we went to the bar where I proceeded to go through at least 3 martinis in about a half hour. I don't remember anything after that. Don't know how much more I drank, don't remember ordering dinner, or coming home. I do remember waking up at 3am and wondering how I got into bed. The next day my dinner was in a doggie bag in the fridge.

Just a couple months ago my stepdaughter had some movie playing on our tv. I asked her what the movie was. She said the title. I said, "Oh I've never seen that." She said, "Yes you did, last month with me right here!" My husband asked me what I thought of the movie Inception. I can barely remember watching it and I think I passed out before the end. So many times I'll start to tell my husband something and he'll say, "Don't you remember? We just talked about that last night." I feel so ashamed. :upset:

[lifechange]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

hi fly away--i also blacked out a lot with my kids, my friends, my boyfriend. it got to the point where i was scared to say anything.
today is day 6 for me and it's been more difficult. i woke up feeling like i'd been run over by a truck and i didn't feel much better after my coffee. today was sunny and warm and after work i wanted to sit in the park with my boyfriend, drink a beer to relax, chat and people watch. bought an af beer instead and had no interest in having another! now i'm baking brownies and am about to head out for some vanilla icecream.
some days are just more difficult than others.
i like the idea of a gift after a certain amount of time.

[Blues Dancer]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Wow what an inspiring thread. I have 3 weeks AF free today. I had a relapse last month and it really took the wind out of my sails. I've stayed AF, but I havn't been excited about it like I was before the relapse. Everyone's determination on this thread is infectious and I'd like to join in too!!
Blues

[FlyAway]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

lifechange;1149194 wrote: hi fly away--i also blacked out a lot with my kids, my friends, my boyfriend. it got to the point where i was scared to say anything.

I just realized that I've never admitted blacking out when I drink to anyone ever. I've never talked to anyone ever about my drinking. It's so great that I can admit this to someone!

[lifechange]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

same here, same here, same here, fly away!!

it's funny -- since talking to all of you here and being able to share honestly and see that i'm not all alone, i have gained the strength to to talk to others openly. i've talked in great detail to my boyfriend and have admitted to 2 good friends how bad it was/has been. at a work function i just said alcohol doesn't agree with me anymore.
and everyone accepted it. i really believe in myself this time and it shows!! even on down days.
though i have to admit i'm kindof waiting for the REALLY BIG test.

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Welcome fly away and blues!

Blues so sorry to hear about your relapse. This is only my second serious attempt and as far as I ever have come. I am glad you are back trying! Never give up!

Fly... Same as life said... Same ol same ol story. Funny you mentioned the movie inception. Yep me too! I blamed it on being boring, but like many many other movies just simply did not make it to the end. I feel so stupid too...having to ask the kids or coworkers " hey what happened next" because I must have stepped away; and what happened after that??? I did step away, but stepped away from my life for a little while.

I have a couple big challenges. First I have a meeting this week where I wil be helping hosting a dinner. I already "set up" a couple people that I no longer drank. Next up is a cottage vacaton in 10 days where other then all the typical water sports... One main theme is how
many cases of wine will be drank. Again, I have mentioned to those going ... Don't buy extra for me!

Yes, it is like a weight is taken off your shoulders when you can spill the beans! First for me too!

Enough!

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Road to J choos ain't easy

Hi peeps,

I thought i had day 8 done when i came back from work late today. So i tried the herbal hepatic herbal remedy my mom gave me, only to find out it is no longer diluted in water but in AL. I could not think anymore, just prayed for strength, picked up the dog, got in the car and went up the mountain, no matter that was well past 9 PM. I just had to put some distance. As it turns out, the forest was super dark and the fireflies were out. I took that as a GOOD SIGN.

Still not ready for contact with AL.

[not tonight]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Good evening Everyone,

Coming to the end of Day 8. After completing a full week sober I look around my office and my house and see a very different terrain. Things are in a much better place over all. The drinking wrecks so much havoc on every aspect of my life. I am really kidding myself when I am drinking and thinking I am holding it all together. I need to keep this at the forefront of my mind.

Thiswayout - stay close to the forum. Whenever I have had relapses in the past it has always taken me so long to come back to MWO. I think my alcoholic brain knows that this site helps keep me sober and when I am weak it will try to separate me from it. Perhaps you should pass on social situations where there will be drinking for a while.

Mya - great job on day 4. Aren't mornings great when you don't have a hangover?!

donewithpoisn I have had those drinking dream before too. Very startling when you first wake up. Great job so far.

Flyaway - I think my husband is threatened by me getting sober. Perhaps part of it is that I have soo much more energy, and I give him lists and list of jobs to do. I can so relate to having huge gapping holes in your memory. Mine were becoming so frequent. I would be a diner party and forget the last 2 hours we were there. God how awful. It is really no way to live.

shueaddict - those jimmy's are within reach!

Enough - great job on getting to day 9, and finding new coping methods for dealing with those gremlins. These will help you stay strong when you face your upcoming challenges. I have every faith in you!

Lifechange I think that telling your friends about your decisions to give up AL shows a great deal of courage and commitment. Most impressive.

Blues - stay strong and stay close.

Well I'm off to bed. Hopefully a better nights sleep that the last couple of nights. My body is still adjusting to falling asleep naturally.

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi Enough!, if anyone can go through 10 sober cottage days, my money is on you. Your determination always comes out.

Fly, i used to freak out whenever i had a black out episode, until i actually got used to having frequent ones. I resolved to watching tv reruns, in the morning, before work, so that i would remember what happened on Boardwalk Empire last. How pathethic!

Life, I am in awe of your courage. I am still conceited, thinking i can weather this with increased resolve and the help of this site. I may be fooling myself. But I have to give it a go this way, it is my way, for now ...

[crazy cat lady]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi all! Well, I made it to day 12 - longest I've gotten in years being AF. The cravings for the most part are almost gone. I had a slight panic when a friend asked me out to dinner and suggested an Italian restaurant that I love and all I could taste was the large glass of cabernet I would order with dinner, I said I was in the mood for Chinese instead. Don't think I'll be eating chicken parmesan anytime soon.

I realized today that I only have 2 weeks before I move. I don't know how I'm going to get everything done. I spent a lot of time on the phone today trying to get things set up but I've got over 20 years of stuff to go through, not to mention cleaning, which never seemed to get done when I had a bottle of wine handy. It's like the blinders have been taken off and I'm finally seeing how bad my home has gotten. The wine let me ignore the mess and the disrepair, this is not going to happen in my new home. For the first time in long time I have something to look forward to, and I'm not going to let alcohol take it away.

To all of you who don't remember movies that you've seen, I'm the same way about TV shows. I'm enjoying watching summer reruns because I never remember anything I watched after 8:30.