Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[mya]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Thinking of you guys Snap and Enough!
I'm on day 14 and for some reason I have some cravings today.
I'm a little irrated because I haven't lost any weight if anything I have gained a couple of pounds.
ugh!!!

[Queenbug]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Snap....all the best...hope all goes well! This goddam uk summer weather is crap though eh? Understand your struggle with a yo-yoing partner a bit...one day will fill you in if we have a moment...

Mya...hold on in there...L-Glut? The weight thing is rubbish isn't it? I'm not massively overweight, but definately have the puffiness/wine belly...makes me feel old and unattractive...

Ive had the weirdest/terribleist/dramatic/saddest of days today...started out buzzy and energetic..dealing with finances and realising that the car tax is late, can't renew on-line coz log book still in storage and reminder gone to old address (from my homeless stint 8 months ago...have to schlepp it across the country to get it to a local office to sort tomorrow as have huge driving commitments next week...stressed but coping...then my friend called to say that her old faithful dog had to be put down...which was sad...then young daughter of another friend called to say she couldn't wake her mum up...dashed over there to find my lovely friend had OD'd...terrifying...got her to hospital...with all the kids...then got most of them collected so it was just me and 2 eldest girls there for a while...they were so strong...we all got back to mine a few hours ago and the eldest bought herself and me some wine...and I drank a glass...fed up that I did...and felt the effect immediately (is that the milk Thistle/Kudzo/Glut?)...we almost just ran straight back half an hour ago when she rang the hospital to see how her mum is...but the younger ones want to come here so we are holding fast for a bit longer until they arrive...I've not drank anymore...and really want to resist in case I need to drive again...but am finding this so so hard...breaking my heart actually....but am thinking me getting hammered isn't going to help anything...gulp..big test
Back later x

[mya]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Queenbug hang in there you are strong!

[Vini]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Day 5 and I am struggling today. Super busy at work and got in to a bit of a tiff with a co-worker and that craving just came on me. Then I came home and Barbara Streisand is on Oprah and I just cried and cried. Stupid, I am 51 years old and I lost my mom two years ago. She was a huge Barbara Streisand fan and all I wanted to do was phone her and say MOM! Barbara Streisand and Robert Redford are on Oprah! I just felt overwhelmed with missing her.

My problems are nothing compared to most of you - yikes - wedding, kids, finances, health, I have NOTHING to complain about and so much to be grateful for. I had something to eat and I had a cranberry juice and I still feel like a drink......

Ok going to run a hot bath, have an herbal tea and if I can't make the cravings go away then to hell with it, I am going to bed. In the immortal words of Scarlet O'Hara 'Tomorrow is another day'. Ya. Day 6

[akazia21]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Mya-I have gained a little bit of weight too, but on the plus side, I have been at the gym every day except today when I treated myself to a new hair cut which my little girl immediately wanted to stick her sticky honey fingers into LOL.
Snap-that sounds pretty darn stressful-I think your plan is good.
Today flew by, long day at work and then haircut-so it's over for me already. The insomnia is a little annoying so I took a little bit of antabuse last night-just a crumble lol....I have noticed my skin is better-I have a tendency to get red which of course alcohol doesn't help,
My daughter is possibly autistic so we were at the doctor yesterday trying to get a referral for neurological testing-the waitlist is one year! One flipping year! So nothing to do but wait-if she does have it, they suspect slight aspbergers, but I think they just tend to put people in that box when they don't know what it is exactly. She already goes through special ed, but they want a more specific diagnosis as they are sure she has processing problems. Oh well...thanks for letting me vent-you ladies have a lovely night

[FlyAway]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Wow guys, what is going on? Seems like so much stress for us all. :groupluv:

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

DAY 18 AND 7/8THS TOMORROW WILL BE 20!

Hi gang!

Wow... what happened!!! Stress all around here! Snap... Queen... Vini... I feel for you and the hard times and cravings.

Mya>>> AKA>>> Fly>>> Vini...Queen >>>Snap>>> Mom...and ANY ANYONE ELSE LURKING ABOUT lets all have a big group hug !!!:groupluv:

Well... I am now almost in cottage land; staying with family and traveling again further north 4 more hours early Saturday morning to our final destination. The weather is great and sun sets much later then usual. I have done an OUTSTANDING day today if I do say so myself drinking club soda and cranberry and nursing 1/2 glass of red wine that was given to me 5 hours ago! The cranberry tastes better! I have made it known that I am not drinking and everyone is so far very supportive. We have even planned out our "non alcoholic" sangrias for the afternoon. Hubby bought beer to take with us but has been considerate enough to not have a sip of anything alcoholic today.

Signing off and will check in tomorrow. I hope the sun shines strong for everyone and it is an easy breezy day where you are!

Enough!
xoxo

[noxy]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

:sorry:that some of you are having such a hard time at present! Thinking of you all ! Hang on tight !!! Got busy day but will keep in touch . Have a Fab Friday everyone !

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

20 days sober!

:teeter:Happy Friday all!

I hope everyone has a better day today. Not so great nights sleep, but NO WORK today! Yeh! Kids are driving me a little bonkers today... typical vacation stuff.

I will check in tonight, but afterwards will be sporadic (not to worry- your positive vibes are in the air). Best of luck to everyone stacking on those great sober days.

20 days sober!
Enough!
xoxo

[mya]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

You can do it Enough!
I think I'm PMSing so that is probably my frustation. And decided it's back to the gym tonight, how do I expect to lose weight if I'm just sitting on my butt doing nothing.
Good Luck to everyone today and have a great Friday!
Day 15

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Thank you Mya !!!!

So far so good today; hope the same to you!

Lurking around out there??? Please join us and stay close. I makes all the difference. Power in numbers!
Enough!

[mya]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Got a real shocker today.
Last week went for a check up bc I'm insulin resistanced and she wanted to do some blood work.
She called today and said my liver enzymes were a little high (I told her at my appt I had stopped drinking) now she wants to run more test and do an ultrasound.
Let me tell you...any cravings I had before are all gone.
Really scared about the results, she said it could be my gallbladder.
Think twice before putting poison in your body.

[Getting There]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Great work enough! I am now on day 8. It is still a struggle every day but I feel good that I made it this far. I am trying very hard not to concentrate on the future (being my future of not drinking) as that thought is still uncomfortable for me. I am so scared of slipping... I think about it all the time and worry that I won't be strong enough. Had a work week this week with dinners every night out at resturants with my drinking workmates and did pretty well. First couple of nights I had a really hard time but last night I did not even really crave it and everyone sure was glad to have a sober designated driver. Feeling good about my week - now to make it through the weekend.....

Happy Friday Everyone!

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi all,

I am so happy so many of you are staying AF despite such big problems.

Well, I almost cleared my hurdle race only to be brought down tonight by 2 things: PMS + tonic that had gin in it. Tasted it and had the whole glass. And then went for a second, and third ... Not best pleased with myself. I was going so well, AF despite temptation everywhere.
On Wed I toasted my team with champagne on the yacht then threw the rest in the sea, in the evening, at the pool party I had soda only and watched everyone getting sloshed. Yesterday I must have said no to a drink at least 7 times, lunch, afternoon, dinner and late night. All was going so well.

Anyway, power to you all, on the bright side I made another 4.5 days AF and tonight I did not really lose it. But I can see just how easy it is to slip despite best intentions.

Enough, I am marveling at your iron resolve.

[akazia21]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

mya-sorry to hear that-hope everything is okay. I haven't had blood work in forever.
Ugh-it's Friday, such a trigger night for me. I went to the gym again-lost two pounds Finally lol. I think maybe I'm losing a bit of the belly I gained from all that wine. Work was stressful again, but nothing too bad.
Does anyone have any good book recommendations? I'm open to anything really-fiction/non fiction/recovery related. I am reading like crazy at night!
It was funny, when I drove my the liquor store tonight I bet the guy there was wondering where I have been the last two weeks lol...I went there at least twice a week, but I used to rotate stores also so none of them would know I drank every night (not like they would care). Funny the things I would do to hide the amount of alcohol I was drinking-guess I had to keep up the outside appearance that everything was okay!